well my bday is in 5 days....and yeah idk...gunna be 16...hmmm, it'll be weird to drive legally now...oh well...at least i wont get in big trouble like i did when i was 16...whoops! remember kids! dont drive underage...let alone speed...but if u do, pull the fake tears and/or drop a tampon...they'
~*~And aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who’s to blame?
For a love that wouldn’t bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn’t mean a thing.
And aubrey was her name.
We triped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was june.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,
But God I miss the girl,
And I’d go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.
And aubrey was her name,
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can’t have the one I want, I’ll do without the best.
But how I miss the girl
And I’d go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day.~*~
-BREAD...the song i was named after....u should listen to it if u can! its really pretty!!! it makes me all mushy inside...kinda funny...cuz the song explains like how i am and all...but no one really knows...just cuz they shouldnt...id pry send them runnin cuz i can be wierd and crazy! teehee...
You ask me my age,
I ask your opinion on what age I am,
You gave me an answer,
I gave you my definition of age itself,
I said each year of a persons life they experience different things
Good and bad,
Just because a person is older doesn't mean their more mature
to a certain extent,
I feel if you find out my age you’ll classify me,
You'll rate my level of maturity and my ability to think,
And find you want nothing to do with me,
Then one day you think of me but your mind blocks your
feelings and all you think is he is only #,
A chance will be destroyed,
A future friend will be lost,
You ask me my age
I ask you weather you want me here or not...
sound the bugle now
play it just for me
as the seasons change
remember how i used to be
now i cant go home
i cant even start
i got nothin left
just an empty heart
im soldier
wounded so i must give up the fight
theres nothing more for me
just lead me away
or leave me lyin here
sound the bugle now
tell them i dont care
theres not a road i know
that leads to anywhere
without a light
i fear i will stumble in the dark
lay right down and decide not to go on
then from on high
sumwhere in the distance
theres a voice that calls
remember who u are
if u lose urself
ur courage soon will follow
so be strong tonight
and remember who u are
ur a soldier now
fighting in a battle
to be free once more
yeah thats worth fighting for
To those who are going to fight in iraq...dont give up hope, just keep fighting, and come back home to us
you cant take me
gotta fight another fight
gotta run another night
gotta get up and check it out
im on my way and it dont feel right
i gotta get me back
i cant be beat and thats a fact
its ok, ill find a way, it aint gunna take me down
no way
dont judge a thing untill u know whats inside it
dont push me ill fight it
never gunna get it
never gunna give it up
no
if you cant catch a wave then ur never gunna ride it
u cant come uninvited
never gunna get it
never gunna give it up
no
u cant take me
im free
why did it all go wrong
i wanna know whats goin on
whats this holdin me
im not where im sposed to be
ive gotta fight another fight
ive gotta fight with all my might
im gettin out
so check it out
ur in my way and u better watch out
u cant take me
im free
Maybe I'm not meant to be someone
Maybe I'm not meant to be saved
Maybe I'm not meant to be loved
Maybe I'm not meant to be here
Maybe this was all my fault
Maybe this was just a test
Maybe this was my open vault
Maybe this was my best
Maybe I'm not perfect
Maybe I'm not good
Maybe I'm not worth it
Maybe I'm not what i should
Maybe I can't change these things
Maybe I can't find myself
Maybe I can't see what the mirror sings
Maybe I can't lose myself
Maybe I am mad at myself
Maybe I am stupid
Maybe I am wrong
Maybe I am strong
No matter how many maybes'
Poison my mind
No matter how many babies
It is still my time
No matter How many times I screw up with my life
It is mine
No matter how many people hate me
I am still me
No matter how pathetic I look to you
I am beautiful to me
No matter the cuts on my arms
I'm still not together with myself
No matter the tears on my cheeks
I will always smile again.
This is writin by:
[Little Girl]
Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site
(and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for, she bends and breaks to the rules set by the weak)
She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out
As she cries out here voice dies out
As she cries out her voice dies out
Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands
Was it asked for?
Was it implied?
What could have been done?
Inside her mind dies.
-[Oh! Its a Riot xx]
Tears are the words that the heart cant say, im sorry i cant say these words im terrified it'll send you away. i cant stand to know, you feel tension between us, I dont understand how you can feel that, im sorry i dont let anyone in, or let them know my real thoughts, or even the real "me" but ive come to find, that there is no real me, just an empty black hole, and when if it shows, it just happens to suck you in, at first it may seem nice, special, cool, unique, whatever u may think u want it to be, but after a while u come to find, you'd rather hide...it scares me how my thoughts just run through my mind, none of them are nice or kind, all i see are pictures in black white and red, black and white for the dullness i feel and the red for the blood i sacrifice. i see pain and suffering, so i only live because of other peoples happiness...i put on my mask and my pretentious smile glamor and charm, and pretend that everythings alright. but its not, nothing ever is, or ever will be, i strain continiously for the bigger and better something, and each time i try i fail miserably...no
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
You promised me starry night skies
They just remind me of your shining bright eyes
Im missing your voice at night time
This separation seems a sad crime
but dont think i forgot you
you are oh so sweet i know
If only you were here
Things would be more magical
If i were there
Right now would be more radical
Youre so not near
Im wishing i could place a call
And feel closer to you
The miles of air and road and land
That separate me from all my plans
Were havin' fun
But something tells me i miss someone
but i hope you didn't forget me i couldn't
Forget you the whole time i always knew i knew
Say that youre into me just let me know how it will be
If you dont know dont say so
Ill wait till the perfect time think of all the perfect lines
Ill make sure if i let you know
Weve got movies on our list to see
Things to do just you and me
Calls to make from here to there and back
Weve got fun to have and days to spend
Stars to see or just pretend
At least for now just keep things right on track
Push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I am today...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!
I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the words
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like on big past
You'll live with me 'cause you left me no choice
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
Pull me back together
Or seperate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the Pieces, and then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I am today
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I am today
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
I'LL DRAW YOU A PICTURE,
I'LL DRAW IT WITH A TWIST,
I'LL DRAW IT WITH A RAZORBLADE,
I'LL DRAW IT ON MY WRIST,
AND IF YOU DRAW IT CORRECTLY,
A FOUNTAIN WILL APPEAR,
TO WASH AWAY MY SORROWS,
TO CHASE AWAY MY FEARS.
This poem by a good friend seems to scream ME! exactly how i seem to feel and think...
I walk by a window,
I stare at me,
But the me in the window,
Is better than me,
I've lied, I've stolen,
I've been scared,
But the me in the puddle,
Doesn't seem to care,
The me on the inside,
Feels sorrow and pain,
But the me in the mirror,
Seems perfectly sane,
The me in the glass,
Sees liquor being poured,
While the me in the body,
Sees a soothing accord,
The me in the water,
Watches me fall,
When my feet left the bridge,
I saw nothing at all.-Akeilla [MintlyNsane]
im not good...im dying...again, but this time i dont think i can be saved, its the situation where the one who made me this way can only make me better, but he's so blind to me, and so engulfed with all the prettier better girls other than i, that he just doesnt seem to notice, doesnt even seem to care, how much pain he causes me...i cant even get a look or a hello out of the guy, and im sure im not the only one to feel invisible to the world
Close your eyes for your eyes will only tell the truth, and the truth isn't what you want to see. In the dark, it is easy to pretend, that the truth is what it ought to be.
it is no surprise that, most of all, there is pain in superiority. I suffer... *sob* ... because I am better.
Some people are only alive because they haven't died yet.
Caution: May cause random orgasms ranging from subtle to mind-rending in magnitude.
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more
degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
Through me the way into the suffering city,
Through me the way to the eternal pain,
Through me the way that runs among the lost.
Justice urged on my high artificer;
My maker was divine authority,
The highest wisdom, and the primal love.
Before me nothing but eternal things were made,
And I endure eternally.
Abandon every hope, ye who enter here.
Hello there
my angel of darkness
the light of my nightmare
my savior
my soul
my sorrow
my terror
is it time?
to soar the skies?
to dance beneath the stars?
is it time?
to sing in the rain?
to run with the wind?
has it come
to forget ourselves
and worry none?
but always will i worry
and ponder if its true
if im the only one
who sleeps alongside you
if what you say is real
if im really that special
or just another sex appeal
never will i know
and your word is all i have
so ill always second guess
that ill always be second best
Ive never loved like this before
such a strange and wild love
something so strong, but clam, that fear wakes my heart
what it is, i cant say
but love i know it is
no longer do others hold my heart
but yet the fear still exists
am i just another to him, or am i real?
does my mind exist to him, maybe
but who will ever know about a man?
For the first time in a long time
im no longer alone
For the first time in a long time
somebody cares
For the first time in a long time
ive found the one to love
For the first time in a long time
someones there to hold me
For the first time in a long time
someones there to help me out
For the first time in a long time
my needs dont go unfullfilled
For the first time in a long time
my life has a meaning
For the first time in a long time
that meaning is you
For the first time in a long time
i no longer want to die
For the first time in a long time
i dont feel like i need to cry
For the first time in a long time
you're something tangible
For the first time in a long time
im happy
For the first time in a long time
im no longer alone
For the first time in a long time
somebody cares