Well sometimes ,
I am hutting inside but I can't get my true feelings out.I have cryed because I am hurting inside.I ask God why did he plan for me to live.I don't deserve to live.I asked him why did he plan me such a hard life.
I want to die.
I hate myself.
I am not beautiful.
Not very many care about me.
No one in my physical family cares about me.
Everyone in my family is always so mean and hurtful to me.
It feels like I hate my physical family.
I don't want to hate anyone but this is to hard to recover.
They hate me because I am a Christian and in special ed.
I can't help that God gave me a disablity but I asked why but it I can't hear his answers ,I can only feel his answers.
Dear Jesus,
Please let God help me make my human life better.
I am trying to be a better Christian.
But renember I became a Christian September 27 ,2005 at about 3:30 at Coffee Chaos.
I want to be a strong Christian.
I know you have a plan for me but please improve me.
Please help me make wose descissions for the rest of my human life.
Please help me improve my relationships with people I know that is hurting me right now in my human life.
In your name I pray,
Amen.