So yeah... I'm not sure what I'm doing here, or if I even belong here... But one of my friend's told me to get an elftown.. I hear it's the "bizarro" shiznit. *sigh*
I'm always afraid of joining new groups, I guess because I had a bad experience in a forum once. So I'm pretty careful of what I say or do. I'm not sure how things go around here.
I guess since this is a diary you're suppost to post your thoughts... I'm guessing. SO let me do a quick copy and paste from my myspace blog.
So yes, I decided that I'm in a blank mood right now. Not to happy not to sad. Nothing to do. No one to talk to. Perfect time to type in my blog about my life.... life... life... haha.. it sounds funny.
Anyways. My computer has been down. It died. But Now I have my old computer back and I'm like woo.
Anyways... for all those who cared, my dog did die. I don't want to say I'm over it, but It's not too depressing anymore. Because, you know what they say... All Dogs Go To Heaven!
But yes... lets talk about feelings.
Hmm... I guess I'm still the same. But I want change. I want to be able to be more, I don't know how to explain it, I guess normal or neutral. I don't want to be soooo extremely sickeningly happy... because not only does it get on like almost everyone's nerves but it get's on mine too. I'm trying hard but I can't help it..
IM A NICE PERSON! and i can't be mean. Grrrrrowel.
Unless it's Chrisitan. *cough*
I need to get rid of my guilty conscience too. Ugh, it's extremely annoying.
but yes.. hmm... I feel as if I'm losing some of my friendships too. Or that they're not as strong as they used to be. Even some of my best friends. I'm trying hard to keep up with everyone but I'm like argh. TOO many people! And I think I piss some people off when I talk to other people. I don't know...
I guess I'm quite confused and frustrated with my social life. I want sooo many things out of it but I just seem to be getting farther away.... Arg Arg Arg.
DAMN EMO KIDS!
haha no.
i luv you.
okay yes.
good night. I have someone to talk to now.
im so cool.
and so are you.
Currently listening:
Nevermind
By Nirvana
Release date: By 24 September, 1991
And yes... well I hope I don't upset anyone here. Cuz it'll put me in a shitty mood and that is all. Alright. Good Night.