Hey whats up I really love writing lyrics and poems. It helps me deal with all the heartache and pain that I've been through in my life. I've written over 200 song lyrics and poems. I love music! some of my fav bands are: Avenged Sevenfold, Bleed the Dream, UnderOath, Slipknot, Foo Fighters, Cold, Haste The Day, Draconian, Lacuna Coil, Killswitch Engage, Staind, Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Atreyu, Bleeding Through, Trust Company, and Pink Floyd just to name a few. I'm very outgoing and open minded. I'm sincere and trustworthy. maybe too trustworthy. I'm 6' 1". I have black hair and green eyes. I believe in love at first sight and soulmates. I guess I'm just a hopeless romantic. I believe that there is one person that you're meant to spend the rest of your life. hopefully one day i find that girl. For fun I just like hanging out with my friends and enjoying the time I have on this earth. I like partying. I like watching movies. I'm a big movie fan. My fav genre of movies is defintly horror movies. Some of my fav movies are: American Beauty, The butterfly Effect, All the quentin tarintino films. He's an amazing director. Halloween 1-8, excluding 3 it sucked.The Boondock Saints, Crash, Psycho-the orignal, not the watered down remake, the Ring 1 and 2. 1 was better though. Most of the friday the 13th movies, even though they're pretty chessy. Silence of the lambs, Nightmare on elm Street, Dumb and Dumber. I could watch that movie over and over and it would still be hilarious, Old school, Dodgeball.I also love taking picture of nature and all the beauty that is in this world.


This is one of the songs I wrote:

        "A Million Pieces"


cauterize the wound
the suffering will end soon
or maybe a false hope
you stood there laughing
as my heart broke
I cannot forgive you
and after all we've been through
I can't believe that you would do that


   (chorus)
I'm bleeding to death
I need someone to be here for me
when I can't see anything good in this world
I need someone to hold me when I cry in fear
when the agony starts to tear from the inside
when I hide in my room afraid to live
afraid to give my heart away
cuz I know it will get shattered into a million pieces
until I cease to exsist


Bury the evidence
so the world will never see
the pain you caused me
deep inside i'm dying
the tears i'm crying are drowning me
I never knew how heartless you were
until you passed me by like I was a stranger
somehow I always believed that we would never last


(chorus)



so wake up
and put on your facade
a fraud that will be exposed
your porcelin beauty doesn't affect me
you will never disect my flaws again


(chorus 3x)


you're so naive
did you actually think that I would grieve
forever
you are (so far)
the blackhearted girl
that broke my heart
we fell apart
our relalionship lost contol and crashed
and now I erase you
I erase you from my mind
you will find the tables do turn
maybe one day you will finally learn
to love someone unconditionally
our memories fade tonight






  This is another song I wrote:

      "Ugly"


Everyone has given up on me
i even gave up on myself
and now I wish I could be
anything,anyone but myself
They look and say "failure"
If I took back everything
I ever did wrong
would I still feel out of place
our finally belong


     (chorus)
Why Do u judge me?
I tried to make u proud
your words ring true so loud
they echo and only bring confusion
you label me
but you're the one living the illusion
how can your actions be justified?
your the one ugly on the inside!


I've used up all of my second chances
In this nightmare life
I'm destined to lose
what would you do?
If you were in my shoes
maybe you would think twice
before interfering in my life
and causing me all this strife

(chorus)


I'm not dead
you treat like I was
You fucked with my head
and criticized every word that I said

(chorus 2x)





      Here's another song I wrote:

      "Waiting in the Rain"



If you only knew how I felt
and how much i care about you
I don't know how to find you
your pictures remind me of your beauty
your loving smile haunts my thoughts
now I sit in denail wishing you were here


   (chorus)

your are my only one
The girl I want to spend the rest of my life with
To hold you and watch the sun go down
to wipe the tears from your eyes when you're in pain
If it takes 30 years of me waiting in the rain
In front of your house for you to understand
how i truly love you


I will stand there content
because I would be so close to you
whatever i have to do
to kiss you, to hold your hand
to stand beside you knowing that I'm happy
that's something i haven't been
In quite some time
to know that I'm yours
would mean the everything to me


(chorus)


I dream about you everynight
constantly on my mind
when I wake up everything is wrong
I will never belong
In this world
without u girl

(chorus 2x)





      and another song I wrote:


       "Raven"


A raven sits in a dead tree watching
a disturbing image lingers in the distance
a diary with thoughts of suicide written in it
A man gets his heart broken with news of his wife dying
a young girl cries every night because the lonliness is killing her


 (chorus)
To some life isn't worth living
so they give up
and life isn't fair
and you feel like dying when no one is there
some just quit trying
and some cry every night beacause no one cares
some can't bear it
no one wants to be alone
everyone needs to feel loved


A mother collapses when she sees her sons lifeless body
with a suicide note lying on the table
expressing the reasons for ending his life
with that bloody knife
some aren't able to make it through
a drunk hits his daughter for the life he wasted
the daughters mascara runs down her face
because of the tears and the pain that her father caused

(Chorus)

The raven flies away into the black sky
there is no light on this dark night

(chorus)


a kid gets picked on at school everyday
because of the way he looks
he picks up his books and carries on
the sun will shine for you someday
a girl is dying of cancer
she tells her boyfriend the news
he crumbles inside
but don't be sad
we have to make the most out of our days on this earth
make them worth while



and another one:

this song relly means a lot to me, cuz it's about my real father who I've never met before in life. He died before I was born.



      "When I Cry"


I never knew you
but you have been a part of me
since the day I was born
you were never there for me
but I can forgive you
and I will never forget you


 (chorus)

and when I cry
I cry your tears
and when I drown
I feel your fears
and when I scream
I can hear your voice
resenating through my head
eventhough you're gone
you here with me now


You run through my veins
each and everyday
In everyway
I've never seen you
but i love you
and will forever
you left before I was born
and left my mom to raise me


 (Chorus)


Maybe one day I will meet you in heaven
maybe
just maybe
we'll get back the time we lost


(chorus 2x)



       "Alone"

I feel like shit tonight
I wish you were here
you feel so close, yet so far
I need you tonight
It's hard to put up a fight
It's so hard to fucking fight
It's so empty inside
you're all I have


(chorus)

i'm afraid of being alone
(only you can heal my wounds)
I'm afraid of wasting my life
(I just need somebody who understands)
I just don't want to be alone
(alone)


My head is full of regret
for all the things I have lost
I dread waking up tomorrow
cuz i know it will be the same
The sorrow is stronger than ever
but you could change my life
you could make all this pain go away
say you will stay with me tonight


(chorus)


You're all i have
and if I fall
please be there to catch me
promise me I will not be alone tonight

(chorus)(2x)



         " Scarred wrists"



there is so much death in this world
so why should mine be any different?
bury me in my coffin
and drive the final nail in it
coroners report will say:
killed himself slitting his wrists
I clich my fists
trying to hold on
and i would be lying if I said i was happy


       (Chorus)
I carry on though
with scarred wrists and broken dreams
it seems like it gets worse every day
you can't bring me back from the dead
nohting u say or do will fix my problems
only i Can solve them
I've always ran away
when it all started turning grey
I pray i could start all over again


give me a reason to live
and i will embrace life
but in this season of darkness
I feel like it's unbearable
I stare at the ceiling
and question my existance
they say love can get you through
the pain is too strong


    (Chorus)



abortion of my feelings
contorted in my dreaming
if u cared
then why weren't you there for me?
dispondent and disconnected
I can't make this right
rejection leaves these scars
I will walk into the light



      (Chorus 2x)