Hey everybody. my sn is Prplpunk8 or x0xCrazy4y0ux0x (the 0's are zeros) so just im me and we can chat...


Ok well my name is Anastasia. I'm really a great girl if you can put up with me. And I just really, really want sombody to love and have them love me back. Real and true love. Not some oh I'll love you today but in a week I won't kinda thing. Please, I've been through a lot in my short life. I don't need somebody whose gonna play with my head. I reacently lost the love of my life. My fiance. He broke up with me and he is being absolutely horrible. I can't stand it because I love him so much. If I can find somebody else to love it would be so great. PLEASE FIND ME! I've written a lot of poetry about him and i posted it here for people to read. Enjoy....

What is love-
So what is love?
And who is to say
Is it true
Or just a lie
Do we believe in it because we’re told?
Or is there something else out there
That we just cannot see
But what is love?
What does it mean to be in love?
And why do we feel this way about each other?
When I kiss you it feels right
Like nothing in the world can be wrong
When you hold me I feel safe
And nothing can touch me
When I look in your eyes I feel warm
And I know things will be ok
When I hear your voice
I am floating
When you say my name
Its like a dream
When I’m not with you I am crazy
When I am with you I could never be saner
I miss you all the time
Even if your gone for a minute
It feels like an eternity
So is this what it feels like to be in love?
Is this what love means?
Is this why we feel this way about each other?
Who is to say?
But one thing I know for sure
Is that I LOVE YOU!


Naive-
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you control my thoughts
My emotion
Manipulate me
Take advantage of me
Use me
I hate it when you say you love me
Its all a lie
And I don’t know better
I want to believe its true
I want to kill you
I want to love you
I hate you
I love you.


Get out of my head-
I love you
I hate you
I want you dead
I need you
I want you
Get out of my head
I taste you
I see you
I want you dead
I feel you
I miss you
Get out of my head
I dream about you
I scream about you
I want you dead
I breathe you
I lose you
Get out of my head
I tried to help you
I tried to grab your hand
I want you dead
I raped you
I killed you
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!


My last Goodbye-
He broke her heart
Like most teenage boys do
But she was different
Fragile some how
And more loving too
With an innocent face
And a naive heart
He took her in
But he was unaware
Of what he’d gotten himself into
The two fell in love in a flash
And fell out of love even faster
She begged him to come back to her
He wrote her a letter
Short and not so sweet
He signed that letter:
“my last goodbye”
She wrote him a poem
Telling of her love for him
And when it was all finished
She too signed it
“my last goodbye”
He never received the poem however
And never knew of her death
For you see after she wrote the letter
she slit her wrists
And with her hands all bloody
She scribbled out those final words
The last thing her love had said to her
“my last goodbye”
and as she lay on the floor bleeding
A smile on her face
She clung to his picture
As if bringing him with her
Many years later
An old friend visits him
He gives the him a letter splattered with blood
“what is this” he asked
And as he opened it
And read what was inside
Even he couldn’t help but cry
After he sent that letter
And she went away
He spent his whole life looking for her
He missed and wanted her so
But now it hit him
Like never before
The way he had treated that girl
And as he finished reading
He almost died
For at the end of the letter it said
“my last goodbye”


This was supposed to be a poem but instead its my soul

I sit here alone
Dreaming of you
And of when we were together
I can't believe its over
Or maybe its just begun
I know what I want to say to you
I've played it out in my mind
But when it comes time to say
I stutter and trip over myself
I shake and I forget
I can't even type to you
With out getting all jittery
Excitement fills me when I know sometime soon
You'll read this and know it came from me
And even though I'm unable to speak
And tell you how I feel
Its ok because words haven't even been invented
To let you know the truth
Of my undying love and need to be with you
Love is such a small word
But the biggest feeling and emotion
I've ever had for anybody
And I've only had it for you
I want to touch you all the time
Life means nothing to me when your not around
You're so beautiful inside and out
And when we are together
With you inside of me
I never want the moment to end
Its like time stands still
And the world is perfect
It is everything to me
You inspire me
but at the same time I can't come up with anything
Because you fill me with so much joy
Its completely overwhelming
I can't help but talk in circles
And tremble with love for you
My body goes numb when I see you
And when I hear you speak its like angels
singing the sweetest song
And only I can hear
Its so beautiful and silent
Like one of those dog whistles
But I can hear their song
For it is your voice
And when you tell me you love me
I melt inside
You make me believe I can do crazy things
Like fly
But when I am with you
I am flying
I wanna walk a million miles
Even if its just to be with you for a minute
That minute is an eternity
I will cherish it forever
And the pain I'd have to endure
While walking
Will be nothing compared
To the joy of seeing your face
I hope you don't make me walk so far
Because it'd take me a really long time
And it'd really suck
But it would be worth it
To have you in my arms
I wanna touch your skin
Feel every inch of your body
Feel you against me
Naked
And just touch and kiss and hold you
Forever
But forever isn't nearly long enough
When it comes to being with you
And eternity doesn't even begin to come close
I need to love and be with you
I love you more than anybody could even imagine