Rar! or something...

Why are people stalking me here on elftown and other parts of the internet... >.< GO AWAY!!! You know who you are! and if not...too bad, you'll realize it when you get no answers from me! I Hate these dumbass people! >.<

*Second U.T.I. song is underway... W00t!

*My hair needs to be rebleached... >.< I'm tired of the way it looks...(the two toned crap)

*I want to go to the mall...just for the hell of it... >.< B/c I can...hahaha

*My Skin is multi-colored...don't you hate when that happens? o_O We need to fix that.... Who's up for a day at the beach? Haha! Fuck that... =P

*Oh yeah and I got my acoustic guitar new strings! I forgot how well it plays... I'll put a picture of it up one day...when I find a digital camera that doesn't suck ass... haha!

Heh...thats all I can remember that has happened so far in the last few days...(I don't log in much anymore, every few days or so at least, b/c I've been busy with music, my friends, and my boyfriend) But at least I have a life now...not like before...where I spent all my life in front of the damn computer...

Hahaha! Now, since my computer doesn't have the internet, I use my friend Betsy's computer. I only use my computer to play my mp3 playlists (I have SOOOOO many songs! But no music videos... *shrugs* its all good...hehe)

Hmm...New Years was fun as hell! LOL! ( I got to see José last night too! <3 ) I need to go home and sleep...hahaha!

I wrote this just now...I was spaced out...Then I read back and was like "Fuck yeah! I can write again! LOL!" =P

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Floating in a sea of darkness
I try to remember all that has passed
I feel the darkness engulfing me
So very slowly...It drives me mad...
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Hmm..but its kinda scary... >.< It sounds all deranged to me... o_O Sounds like something from Alice in Wonderland...

Ooo! (A.D.D. strikes again..haha) If the movie business came out with a New Alice in Wonderland (not a cartoon though) and definitely not for kids...Puts some really trippy scenes in and make the Queen of Hearts more deranged...Hmm..LOL! That would be awesome as hell!! I'd so go see it!! Hahah!

Hahahaha! I'm am so way random today...( But thats a good thing...it means I'm healthy...hahaha! ) =P Happy New Years Everyone

WHOO-DE-WHOO!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!

Alright! Hmm..I'm in a fucking great-ass mood! X3

Generalized Update on my life:

*I got to see José last night, albeit for like an hour and a half, but I still had fun... Ohhh... he's so cute... >.< I can't stand it! He's so fucking familiar!!! <3

*Claudio is moving to the Hillsborough/Pinellas County area. Which means he can go to The State Theatre and The Masquerade to see shows more often! Hardcore!

*I'm now in a band called U.T.I. We've just started so right now we're just getting situated and such. We haven't decided whether I'll be doing lead vocals or back-vocals (either way is cool with me) Betsy is the drummer..she fucking rules! She's so fucking hyper...LOL! In case you were wondering: U.T.I. = Urinary Tract Infection. We're an all girl classic punk band and we're looking for a female bassist that likes to cooperate...and have fun, b/c this is a spoof band. XD I might just end up doing back-vocals b/c I can't do the shout-y thing for too long...LOL! We're currently writing a song called 'My Gyno'...HAHAHAHA!!! This shit is great!! I love my friends! XD

*I'm looking for guys that want to start a prog. rock band. For THIS band I'll be doing lead vocals and back-up guitars. This is NOT a spoof band... =P For this band I'm looking for a lead guitarist that can Tear the shit out of the audiences' ears...Hardcore! (I'm serious...)

*Go see 'Blood Red Summer' By Coheed and Cambria on Yahoo Launch!

NOW!!!

Note to self:

http://www.hottesttabs.com

And betsy's printer is being gay... >.< I should eat it... >.<

*sigh*

Got into a car accident right after my last diary entry... *points down* >.<

We all okay, but it was the single most scariest moment in my life... I was lucky as hell to get out of it with just big ass bruises everywhere...

I was sitting in the backseat behind the front passenger seat. Betsy was in the front passenger seat and her Ex-fiance Rob was driving.

Some lady going in the opposite direction as us tried to cut us off by trying to turn left in front of us. It was raining (on christmas day! >.<) and when Rob hit the breaks and the breaks locked...and he swirved and missed the lady entirely but he hit a telephone pole.. We were going about 35-40 miles an hour...

It was the one time in my life (that I remember) not wearing a seat belt... >.< My face slammed straight into the front passenger seat head-rest... and I jarred my right knee and hip when my knees hit the front seat.

All of us are okay though. Betsy and I went to the hospital to get checked out just in case..nothing on either of us was broken or fractured...just bumped and bruised..
Rob was fine too. He only had a gash on his elbow.

I'm lucky as fuck...We're lucky as fuck...Okay, I'm done talking about it now...

Christmas Eve:
*Made Christmas cards
*Wrapped the remaining unwrapped presents
*Went to see Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate *Events at Channelside with Justin (Betsy slept in... >.<)
*Went to Betsy's family's christmas eve party
*Called José and talked to him for about half an hour
*Then went home and cranked my Coheed and Cambria playlist up and slept soundly for once...(I'm so freaking tired of techno music *growls*)

Christmas Day:
*Got woken up at 8am by José calling to wish me a merry christmas <3 (He said he got a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle action figure! He's so cute! =P LOL!)
*Layed in bed till 10:30 and called Jose back and talked to him for a while (he had to get ready for work {ON CHRISTMAS DAY!! thats gay... >.<}
*Called Betsy at 11:30 b/c she was supposed to pick me up at 11:00 (Her dad was fixing the heater)
*Ate lunch/dinner at Betsy's (I'm so freaking full!)
*And now I'm at Mikes house watiching them play sonic on the new xbox... (HARDCORE!)
*Tonight I'm going to see Phantom of the Opera with Betsy's family

~*~Hopefully I get to see José soon too... I have presents for him! <3

"Blood Red Summer" (Yet another Coheed and Cambria song AGAIN {I think I'm addicted...don't you?})

Faint white figures paint my sleep
please don't tell my secrets keep them hidden (you got it, you got it, you got it)
if the words that matter reach your face from floor
will you be wondering if, or (do I need what is given or honest)
does it cost me scarring if the words stay true
even number your nephew (I don't want it, don't want it, don't want it anymore)

[Chorus:]
and when the answer that you want
is in the question that you state
come what may
come what may
[X2]

in a pain that buckles out your knees
could you stop this if I plead (you got it, you got it, you got it)
so destined I am to walk among the dark
a child in keeping secrets from (will they know what I've done in the after)
in the sought for matter when the words blame you
in a blood red summer I'll give you (I don't want it, don't want it, don't want it)

[Chorus]

what did I do to deserve
what did I do to deserve
this? this?
[X2]

[ad libs]
wa oh wa ooooh
wa oh oh oh woah

what did I do to deserve
what did I do to deserve
this? this?
[x3 ]

what did I do to deserve
what did I do

Christmas is here...now to hide till it goes away again...

Ooo! I wrote something! FINALLY!!

Its just random stuff I was writing down. (I warn you, the subject matter is all over the place, so don't bitch about it...just read it!! =P)

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I wish the words would flow
Like they used to
I can’t think
I can’t eat
I can’t even breathe anymore

I don’t even care if I have a rhyme
Or even if I have a reason
I just want the words to flow
Like they used to

-=-=-=-=-=-

Something’s wrong
Everyone assures me
That it’s all okay
That it’s all normal
But I know, inside, that something’s wrong
So so wrong

When we are born, our goal is to find our purpose.
But what happens when someone finds, then forgets, their purpose?
We don’t die…
Because
I’m still here…
Maybe I just THOUGHT I knew
But I never really did…

Sometimes I wish I could change my mind
Just flip my opinions to see what I think, and say about everything.
It just might be very entertaining.
Or it could be evil incarnate…

Some people say love is fleeting
That’s not even the half of it…
I think happiness is what is truly fleeting
I haven’t felt as happy as I do now …ever, actually…
And I’m afraid that I’ll lose my happiness in the blink of an eye
I think that’s why I’m so possessive
I want what’s mine, to be Only mine
Until I lose it, like I almost always tend to do…
Because of stupid reasons and speculations from people who’s opinions don’t count
In the matter at hand.
But that’s how it all goes right?
Life gets fucked by those who don’t even really matter.
The people that are just a grain of sand in the sandstorm that is life.

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This is SOOOO nowhere near finished with this... This is all I have right now (I'm adding more)

I want a freaking ipod too... *whines like a baby* LOL!

Bullshit...LOL!

So yeah, I still have writers block, but it will go away eventually...then I'll write the most kick ass song ever!! and everyone will love it!! RAR!! =P

and stuff...

Love you
<3 Davorah <3

The Light & The Glass (yet another Co&Ca song! X3)

Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write.
Memories roll in; of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with. Is somebody thinking of you?
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything.
But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt.
Would it really matter, if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left; well
smiles staged in photographs here until...
You, you left the light on.
There's a chance I might have tripped, girl
You were there to hold on.
[Chorus:]
Ignoring the words of your obnoxious little brother;
kill or be killed spilled the words from your mother.
I'll lay awake for a while.
I'll leave the light on a while.
But you couldn't last a lifetime. Caught between here and the days of it;
carving her name across your arm with every wish. It's hit or miss... her.
I told you so. I measured distance in lines departing the rest of my life.
But you, you, you... you had better things to do X2
Liar, liar, liar, liar.
[Chorus]
If you get put to sleep, like an old dog, you're better off.
If you get put to sleep;
I've been cautious with the words I extend.
Allow this year before the world starts to end.
Your father's dead. He passed in his sleep,
and I woke to the sounds of her crying.
x3
Your father's dead. He passed in his sleep.
Pray for us all.

I wanna write a song... or a poem...or something..

But I've been so verbally inept lately... >.<

I can draw still though... I'm working on a 18x24 prismacolor colorpencil amazonian woman-thing... You'll see...I hope I don't botch it up like all my words and such... >.<

Its not like I'm depressed or anything, in fact I'm finally happy again... (I have a boyfriend who is also my best friend, and he is all I want) ...but its more like 'writers block' for retards or something... :/

I don't know...it makes my head hurt though b/c I keep typing here and trying to write in my notebook at the same time...LOL

I'm Done for now, My hands are frozen...haha!

Love you
<3 Davorah <3

Damn I'm gonna cry now... >.<

This is an awesome song! But I just found out that its not by Co&Ca... >.< Its by some no-longer exiting band called The Inside... *sniffles like a baby*

And when I read the lyrics I was like "wtf! I liked this song! It sounds soooo boring with just the lyrics... >.<" (But I still like the song!, just not reading the lyrics...LOL! =P)

Artists > The Inside > An End To A Beginning

Despirate eyes make a despirate soul
Leave me with nothing here on my own
Simple distraction now tears you away
Searching for nothing here on your own
I'm waiting for something to cover These wounds
I'm waiting for closure here in this place
Simple distraction now tears you away

But I am not leaving here
'Cause I'm dying here
You run away
Though it's dark inside
I'm alone in here

Played with your heart not with your mind
Stay for a memory we'll be alright
Played with your heart not with your mind
Stay for this memory

Despirate eyes make a despirate soul
Leave me with nothing here on my own
Simple distraction has torn you away
Searching for nothing here on your own
I'm waiting for something to cover these wounds
I'm waiting for closure here in this place
Simple distraction now tears you away

But I am not leaving here
'Cause I've died inside
you run away
But it's dark inside
I'm alone in here

Played with your heart not with your mind
Stay for a memory we'll be alright
Played with your heart not with your mind
Stay for this memory

Halloo everyone! (forgive the lack of some punctuations... José`s keyboard is insane...LOL!)

I appologise for not reading my messages! -_- I have like almost 30 unread messages!! -_- ACK!!

I`ve been helping José learn elftown and he`s been helping me learn myspace... its insane!! Gotta go...stuff to do people to see...

Peace out Nig! =P

*glomps José* I Lubs José! <3

Musubi no hating of me! XD

*makes a crazy face*

*sighs*

I think I made Musubi Mad... :/ I wasn't there at 3:15pm like I said I would be...I got out of my class early (2:45pm) :/ but don't blame me! <3 I wanted to wait for you José! <3

But Milad didnt want to sit around and wait :/

I can give you your beanie back on Wednesday when (and if) I see you, if you don't hate me too much to avoid me.. :/

Ohhh yeah! I might be going to Toronto, Canada for New years! We'll see how things go though... *nods*

Yeah so, Christmas came early for me bro! LOL!

I got tons of clothes! I look HOTT AS FUCK! LMAO!

I'm going to walmart on wednesday to get more pants though...since I lost all that weight, I'm too small for my own clothes! >.< LOL!

hehe! I'm gonna hit the hay, lots of projecty crap to do tomorrow...nighty night...

*Sings 'Whoo-de-whoo' at Musubi* HAHA bro! You wanna go see sponge bob's movie! =P LOL! <3

Love, Peace, anc Chicken Grease Baby!
~Gaia~