"The Crowing"

I fed the clues of a lost day killed in motion
But I thought of it so like there's no other way it could've been done
Will they size my fit for a puzzle I wish not to play a part in it.
A heart stained in hate, a feeling of fear will play circles.

But you, you were my favorite
But you, you know, you were my favorite

I severed my ties to shroud this body under the streets of this city
And wait for the day when I am summoned to walk across the face
Well, slowly but clearer now, in visions that play and plague memories
I loved them with all as the son should to mother and father

But you, you were my favorite
But you, you know, you were my favorite

Would I walk through the door, shedding the light of all life?
With the rise and reform, would I come as before?
Pray you're not the only one
Pray you're not the only...
If given mistakes, would I take them back?
If erasing them could, if erasing them would
But would they be the words that I would say?
Your face and a door between
I've parted three ways
For you, the Newo that I love

Did you ever really know before my face shamed to break?
Did you ever really know before my mind scared to think?
Did you ever really know before my name son to these?
Did you, did you, did you come clean in the end from the start?

Dear Ambellina, the Prise wishes you to watch over me
Dear Ambellina, the Prise wishes all to watch over me
I fought the decisions that call and lost
My mark has the revelant piece in this
I will come reformed
In short, for the murders of those I court
I bless the hour that holds your fall
I will kill you all!!

I will call you (I will cross you out!) (Dear Ambellina...)
Out from shelter (...the Prise wishes you...)
Burn your wings (Burn your wings!) (...to watch over me)
You'll know no better/And learn their letters (Burn the core)

Going to Texas next weekend to see El Matto off to his hell-trip back to the Navy. LOL! Poor him, but hey! It was his choice to join =P I hope a weekend away from this hell-hole of a life will make me feel better....

Matt (My 'Superman'-Matt) told me that Ari's son Brandon is in the hospital with pneumonia. :/ Poor baby! He's not even 2yrs old yet! >.<

But of course, thats all he told me, he said he was sitting down to dinner and would call me back on his way to work. That was yesterday...*nods* He's busy...he needs to work to survive. But the least he can do is call...right?

I tried to go to sleep after the Jay and Silent Bob Movie...but I couldn't I was wide awake...so I logged back online (it was about 3-4am) El Matto was online so I was just shooting the shit with him till 8am...I told him about all the crap that has happened to me, so far... and I liked his opinions on it:
 "Whether he is the right guy or not, just go with it."
 "Stick with matt, and don't be afraid of it."
 "Enjoy Matt while you can, love him like it'll last forever."
Now see, that would work...but things seem to be kind of one sided on the relationship front right now.

I need to shutup...I sound like fucking Oprah... >.< *sighs* What can I do though? Sit around waiting for phone calls that don't come? I already do that...it gets me no where... *points up at the Oprah comment* See... :/

OH! And if anyone wants to hire an aspiring artist. *raises her hand frantically* I sure as fuck need the money!

This is so Freaking hilarious!!! This was sent to me in an email from my Mommy, [EliseRosewater]:

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Five tips for a woman....

I can only take so much of this playing one-sided phone tag stuff...

I say...

If we killed all the 14yr olds on the planet...we would ebolish the majority of the rules breakers from Elftown! LOL! Indeed! ^_^

I talked to Matt finally today! He seemed happy to speak to me. He said he'd been feeling like shit all week (flu) and that he did badly on his test yesterday. My poor baby.:/

I finished (the sketch anyways) of my first entry to the Christmas card contest At my College! My second sketch is underway! ^_^ Woot!

Dad wants me to draw the Panera logo and transfer it onto a silk screen for him so he can make work shirts. They changed it so that if you need new shirts for work, you have to pay out the ass for it.. >.< Dad asked Mike (General Manager of the store he works at) if he could make his own shirt, with the logo on the corner and sleeve like the real ones and Mike said He sees no reason why its not okay...

My Birthday is on Wednesday!!!!!! *BIG Hint hint!!!!* ^_^

My friend Danny says hi to everyone on Elftown... o_O he told me to put that in my diary...don't mind him...he needs to have his medication adjusted...LOL!

LOL! The highlight of my day:

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Letter number: 25219425
From: [dracula the legendary vampire] (if u had a relastions with me send a new one)
To: [Davorah] (I yearn for some monotony in my life.)
Sent mail 2004-11-11 10:36:57
Comment in 25248986

 
damn yer fucking hot and sexy

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Letter number: 25248986
From: [Davorah] (I yearn for some monotony in my life.)
To: [dracula the legendary vampire] (if u had a relastions with me send a new one)
Sent mail 2004-11-11 19:09:28
Unread
Comment to: 25219425

 
Thank you for thinking I'm "fucking hot and sexy", but:


1. You should learn to compliment a woman in a more gentlemanly fashion if you plan on getting anywhere with a woman of intelligence such as myself.


2. Please learn how to use proper grammer and punctuation when talking to me, or any other guards for that matter.


3. You shouldn't have pictures of your "girlfriend", or whatever the girl is to you, AND have "I LOVE YOU <3" next to it when you plan on hitting on someone on Elftown.


And, of course, Have a nice day.

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I yearn for some monotony in my life. But of course you might already know that since its put up as my mood...

I saw my friend Chris from highschool today....he shrunk I think...LOL! He's cool though.

I really need to register for my classes for next semester...but for that I need money...LOL! yeah right...me, with money? Hah! Then I woke up! >.<

Does anyone need a roommate? No even better...does anyone know a business that is currently hiring? o_O

My dad said that he could take me and pick me up from the concert! YAY! He said that he has to tell Mike (his boss) that he'll be a bit late for work... Oh! and he's being moved back to the westshore store. (In case you didn't know, he's one of the Lead Bakers for Panera in Pinelas county) AND they want to promote him to Market Training Manager! Awesome! That means he gets to sit on his ass while other people (the trainees) bake...LOL!

Today was fun...in a way...I think I passed my math test..I HOPE I passed my math test... >.<

There is a contest at the HCC Ybor campus for student-artists. You make chrismas cards designs (unlimited submissions) using any media (I've already got one design made. I've got 5 more stuck in my head. I'll probably have more by next week!) The prize is $100 and the Dean and the President (of HCC of course =P) use your card design for their holiday greeting cards! AWESOME!!! Publicity up the ass! ^_^

Anywho...I'm gonna go do the Town guard thing a little then...I dont know... >.< Night...

*Salutes*
~Gaia

The interview went great! I was so happy!! YAY!

Although my day was brought down...and up...and down..and up...and down...and up again.. >.< Hmm...roller coaster-like isnt it? >.<

I waited all day to talk to my friend (in drawing class) about what the opinion of me is now...her husband thinks the chip on his shoulder is justified, so that means that she isnt able to talk to me when he's around. First down...

My Drawing teacher wants to put THREE of my pieces in the upcoming College art show. YAY! Now Up...

My boyfriend still hasn't called me and told me about his opinion about the crap thats been going on. Maybe he's busy with work and school...*shrugs* Ari said he came down with the flu this weekend, poor baby... :( WAY Down...

My interview went off pretty well! The manager thought that I would be good for the job (He just didnt like the labret, but most retail businesses don't like that though... =P). Up again!

I called Matt and told him to call me back...and he didnt...but He DID also get the Halo 2 game today so he's probably playing that... o_O (I hope its not just me being in denile... :/). Down AGAIN...

I finished my blasted math homework and I'm picking on Jason on skype... CHEETOS!!!! =P WAY up!

Like I said...Freaking Roller Coaster Ride! I hate roller coasters...*curses under her breath*

Random Note: I wanna go watch a movie... >.<

Random Note 2: I don't know if I'll be able to go to the Coheed and Cambria concert... >.< I'll be able to get there...but not get back home... I could take a cab..but that costs money I dont have... >.< I originally asked Matt if he wanted to go...but he's also not talking to me right now...

LOL! Watch it be me over-reacting...Everyone tells me that I tend to do that... >.<

Random Note 3: I'm so tired sometimes...so fucking tired... Sometimes I just want to trade lives with someone... >.<

GRRR!!! I cant write this damn definition essay...I gave up on it...>.<

Interview is tomorrow ^_^ yay! money! =P

I lost more weight!! >.< I dont know how I do it! LOL!

I'm altering my black plaid pants b/c they are too big for me now...they used to fit...and I love them so much! so I'm just taking them in about 3 1/2 inches...OMG! I lost 3 1/2 inches!!! Skinny bitches eat your hearts out! ^_^

Anyways...the whole day was less than eventful...W00!</sarcasm> But I guess thats it for today....gonna go talk to jason...b/c will isn't responding...(You dink! =P)

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Hmm...if a guy and a girl drink (alcohol of course) together, go on dates (sushi bar, movies, etc.) and watch hours worth of news programs together (b/c the guy is obsessed with the news), does that mean they've had sex (in any way) with each other? o_O (maybe you can answer this for me tony...you have the same deal going on...) Last time I checked, no it doesn't ...But supposedly I'm a cheap whore, so maybe I did and I dont remember... hmmm...*shrugs* whatever...

But hey...like they told me, I'm letting bullshit get to me...and I shouldn't...or some crap...whatever...I'm on my way to getting over the bullshit and the pain of my mistakes..

Hey..wait...I've been over it for a long time now... LOL! ( Ooo! Look at me being a cold hearted bitch! Emma would be so proud! =^.^= )

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*Salutes*
~Gaia

Nothing at all happened today...everyone is avoiding me...but thats fine, I needed to catch up on my sleep anyways...

Lord of the Rings is on TV...but I dont even want to watch it... >.<

I've been watching movies and sleeping on and off all day...I need a life... =P

Oh and in case you were wondering...Shane, I didnt call the cops on you, my dad did. He was afraid that you were going to start stalking me. You actually did stalk me...you went through the trouble of driving all the way to Pinelas county and writing an almost two page note on my dads front door...

What I think is really funny is that for about a split second I actually did miss you and want to go back to you...then you called me a cheap whore and my dad a fat angry fag...Wow...hmm...if thats your love, then I dont want to know what your hate is...

I'm not sending this to you in message format b/c I dont want to talk to you. I know that you stop by my house page all the time... which means you probably read my diary entries when new ones are added...so you'll read this then..and if not *shrugs* then I've wasted space...

But thats so much like me to do isn't it? :/

On a lighter note, I've gotten my english class fixed...the damn teacher told me (2 months after the class started) that I wasnt registered for her fucking class... GRRRR!!!! I went to the dean and got a reinstatement form and made her sign it and sent it back to the dean so I could get credit for all the fucking assignments I stayed up late as fuck to do... *does a jig*

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

Hmm...for someone that promised to write in this damn diary daily I'm not doing a very good job am I?

Well heres my diary entry: I wanna curl up into a little ball and fall down a well... does that sum it up? sure why not...

I feel like someone strapped my emotions and everything else for that matter in a roller coaster that is never ending...always with the up and down crap.... I hate roller coasters.... >.<

Dawn, call me :/ I forgot your cell phone number again >.< Dont kill me for not calling... >.<

I have a Job interview on Tuesday...I hope I get the job...I need the money...apartments in Florida are expencive... LOL! Might as well go rent out a cardboard refrigerator box under an overpass...

El Matto, [The Masquerade], is back from the navy =P (on leave =P) everyone go pester him...LOL! (Dude..you should shave...LOL! Dont hit me... =P)

W00t skype just finished DLing on dad's computer...have I pointed out how much dial up sucks ass?

Anywho, My watch works again!! YAY! I was hoping that it was just water in the mechanism...and it was! Yay!

Matt threw me in the pool on saturday {it was hypothermia cold!!! and 2am! >.<} and I had my watch on and water got inside it...I left it in his bathroom b/c it was useless to me...it was broken for about a week I estimate...

I was like ...hmm I wonder if this piece of shit is fixable... and I saw the second hand working! I did a jig I was so happy! LOL! I'm a dork I know... and simple things please simple minds...LOL so its all good =P

The coheed and cambria concert is on the 15th...W00t!

God I need to go clean this pig sty... >.< Be back to tell more tales of insanity (on my part) tomorrow...prolly...:/
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

I'm an asshole...and I know I'll pay for it someday... :/ I just hope I dont have to die for it...

10/15/04: OMG! you should have been there! Last night was the scariest shit! Okay, lets see if I can summarize it...

Matt and I went to a sushi bar and the his friend's bar last night. When we were on the way home he stopped at the local gas station (for gas, Dur =P) when we were about to leave he saw a bunch of teen-looking, ghetto kids hustling out of the store.

He got worried and asked the girl waiting in the car for them what was going on and she said that there was a girl in the bathroom Overdosed on Meth(Crystal Meth...its a bad drug...dont do that shit!).

Matt told me to get his medical bag and he went to the girls' restroom to go see whats going on. I brought his bag (that shit was HEAVY!!!!) and he was giving the girl mouth-to-mouth resusitation. That chick was Bright fucking blue dude! (I was so fucking scared...I'm still shaking and its the next day..)

Anyways, her friend was freaking the fuck out man! She's like "Please dont call 911!" Matt's like "Go call 911 right now, the service lady doesnt understand english" That service lady was pissing me off...she kept getting in Matt's way. >.<

Well I called 911 and as I was calling, sheriffs arrived (I think they were here for the gas too...){lucky shit aye?} Whe the paramedics and fire truck arrived, the girl woke up...her nose and left eye were bleeding like mad dude!

The police guy asked the girl's friend to give him her friend's(the girl on the floor) purse. He crouched onto the floor and emptied it onto the floor. He checked all her compacts and other make up accessories. But when he dumped that whole purse on the floor the last thing to fall out was a syringe and a second needle...The girl was cracked oout on Heroine!!!! I was sooo pissed! I was like how can someone be so dumb as this girl!!!

The cop asked her friend if she was on anything, the girl said no. (Oh btw, the girlfriend {I was standing there comforting her} said that the girl on the floor was "Just drunk"...LOL! I dont fucking think so dude...anyways...) They took both the girls to the town-n-country hospital and Matt and I followed. He had to get himself examined for viral infections from giving th girl mouth-to-mouth. >.<

Right now he's asleep...but he told me that when he was breathing for her blood got in his mouth... >.< He got prescription meds to prevent the passage of HIV (Thank god for research aye?) He'll be alright. But that girl, she prolly didn't learn her lesson...ehh, sucks for her.

Haha! I just got off the phone with Matt...and I'm grinning from ear to ear ^_^ LOL!

I found out that he LOVES Dune (a book and movies) as much as I do! Holy hell! Shane HATED that movie...or at least he lost his attention to it... >.<

It is a looooooong movie with several "parts" but the plot is soooooo good! I love it! I can't believe Matt loves dune! *does a happy jig*

hehe... (Oh and I also ate =P I'm proud of myself! LOL! I knew I wasn't becoming anorexic...again... I just needed some variety...hehe! ^_^ I got me a philly cheese steak (w/o the green peppers...blech!! >.<) from the local Gyro place and it was soooo good!!! it was the first time I ate in 2 days! (Not including little snacks that did nothing more than keep me entertained for a few minutes... :/)

Welp I gotta go to bed... I love you all for caring! I know you'll feel better to see me eat sleep and be happy enough to do my old jigs again... ^_^ night night all

Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

I miss matt...like...I dont know...I guess "a lot" would fit the description?

He called me yesterday and we talked about anything and nothing...but it was still good to hear his voice...I hadn't seen him for one day (Last time I saw him was sunday) and I was already missing him like I hadn't seen him in ages... >.< I feel like a little girl with a crush...Its quite perturbing... :/

I don't know what else to say right now... its 7 am and I still haven't eaten breakfast... (Oh and I'm also falling back into my old eating disorders again...In case anyone wanted to happily know... >.< fuck...I know I'm gonna waste away but I'm just always so freaking nervous now that I can't eat...or sleep...) I need to get ready for school...

Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

My everything hurts... >.<

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"Devil In Jersey City"

[laugh:] Shabutie!

new jersey bound when sound asleep they'll find you at your most vulnerable
poll position speak up let out
when down the street the corner boys fuck shit up

scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home

let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon

speak up let out caught in the crossfire
compared to the step to the bone that might break
it's too late to find a better way out of this
with the finest regards that i lost in the cracks of this street

scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home

let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon

don't let them scare you
take me home when you run they'll follow you

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Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

*sigh* so, I got a captive ring (a pack of four actually...) and I tried one in my lip..and I realised that capive rings are not very attractive looking on me... :/ so I'll just leave my labret stud in...

I got my lip pierced so I could get a captive ring... >.< thats why its so high up, in case anyone was wondering why my piercing was so high up...but I guess I'm just so used to the stud that it looks better...to me... >.< I mean, I HAVE had this stud in for a year... so I would be used to its look =P

anyways, I went to my friend Ari's house this weekend and we painted the living room of her new house (I got pictures, I'll upload them later =P) its a sunflower yellow and a royal blue...it looks very cool (Ari and I like bright "happy" colors, so it looks good to us =P {her husband hates it...but he didnt help so he had no say...LOL!)

She paid me back in feeding me...LOL! She had a barbeque and her friend Justin came too and he made whiskey sours...OMG! they were too fucking good! LOL! I must have drank two full glasses of that stuff...I was so freaking wasted...LOL! then we all jumped in the pool (She has a fucking pool!!! Bastard! >.< LOL!)

anyways, next weekend, we're painting her roommate's (Matt =P) "War Room". Its basically the second living room (family room) but Matt has all his war art and stuff in there. Its really stylin'. But Matt's room is the best... He's got art and sculptures from all the countries he went to when he was in the army. He was a ranger...hehe! (when I think that I think "Power Ranger" =P) He's such a cutie though...for a 27yr old...LOL! j/k matt...don't beat me up =P

And after we paint the war room (which is going to be Burgundy and Hunter Green btw) we're painting her son, Brandon's, room...the paint is a pretty seafoam green (It is pretty damnit! I don't lie! =P Its not girly...not in my opinion anyways...LOL!) And then after all that, we're painting Ari's Dark room (black of course) she is a great photographer. I'll try to get pictures of some of her photography art...its all over the walls at her house. Its black and white photos, so its really classy against the sunflower yellow and the Royal blue of the living room.

AND! They' (meaning Ari and Luke {her husband =P}) are having another barbeque on friday...barbeques every friday? I can live with that...LOL! I spent this whole weekend over there...and it was fun as hell...I plan on spending my whole weekend next weekend there too...LOL! ^_^

I'm not crazy...I'm just excited...LOL! And tired too... >.<

But anyways, I plan on writing in here more often, I hope... I want to get a live journal too (thats why they think I'm eMo... >.< b/c I want a Lj... my friends are wierd! LOL!!

Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~

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