[Davorah]'s diary
10/15/04: OMG! you should have been there! Last night was the scariest shit! Okay, lets see if I can summarize it...
Matt and I went to a sushi bar and the his friend's bar last night. When we were on the way home he stopped at the local gas station (for gas, Dur =P) when we were about to leave he saw a bunch of teen-looking, ghetto kids hustling out of the store.
He got worried and asked the girl waiting in the car for them what was going on and she said that there was a girl in the bathroom Overdosed on Meth(Crystal Meth...its a bad drug...dont do that shit!).
Matt told me to get his medical bag and he went to the girls' restroom to go see whats going on. I brought his bag (that shit was HEAVY!!!!) and he was giving the girl mouth-to-mouth resusitation. That chick was Bright fucking blue dude! (I was so fucking scared...I'm still shaking and its the next day..)
Anyways, her friend was freaking the fuck out man! She's like "Please dont call 911!" Matt's like "Go call 911 right now, the service lady doesnt understand english" That service lady was pissing me off...she kept getting in Matt's way. >.<
Well I called 911 and as I was calling, sheriffs arrived (I think they were here for the gas too...){lucky shit aye?} Whe the paramedics and fire truck arrived, the girl woke up...her nose and left eye were bleeding like mad dude!
The police guy asked the girl's friend to give him her friend's(the girl on the floor) purse. He crouched onto the floor and emptied it onto the floor. He checked all her compacts and other make up accessories. But when he dumped that whole purse on the floor the last thing to fall out was a syringe and a second needle...The girl was cracked oout on Heroine!!!! I was sooo pissed! I was like how can someone be so dumb as this girl!!!
The cop asked her friend if she was on anything, the girl said no. (Oh btw, the girlfriend {I was standing there comforting her} said that the girl on the floor was "Just drunk"...LOL! I dont fucking think so dude...anyways
Right now he's asleep...but he told me that when he was breathing for her blood got in his mouth... >.< He got prescription meds to prevent the passage of HIV (Thank god for research aye?) He'll be alright. But that girl, she prolly didn't learn her lesson...ehh, sucks for her.
Haha! I just got off the phone with Matt...and I'm grinning from ear to ear ^_^ LOL!
I found out that he LOVES Dune (a book and movies) as much as I do! Holy hell! Shane HATED that movie...or at least he lost his attention to it... >.<
It is a looooooong movie with several "parts" but the plot is soooooo good! I love it! I can't believe Matt loves dune! *does a happy jig*
hehe... (Oh and I also ate =P I'm proud of myself! LOL! I knew I wasn't becoming anorexic...aga
Welp I gotta go to bed... I love you all for caring! I know you'll feel better to see me eat sleep and be happy enough to do my old jigs again... ^_^ night night all
Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~
Written about Tuesday 2004-10-12
Written: (7910 days ago)
I miss matt...like...
He called me yesterday and we talked about anything and nothing...but it was still good to hear his voice...I hadn't seen him for one day (Last time I saw him was sunday) and I was already missing him like I hadn't seen him in ages... >.< I feel like a little girl with a crush...Its quite perturbing... :/
I don't know what else to say right now... its 7 am and I still haven't eaten breakfast... (Oh and I'm also falling back into my old eating disorders again...In case anyone wanted to happily know... >.< fuck...I know I'm gonna waste away but I'm just always so freaking nervous now that I can't eat...or sleep...) I need to get ready for school...
Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~
My everything hurts... >.<
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"Devil In Jersey City"
[laugh:] Shabutie!
new jersey bound when sound asleep they'll find you at your most vulnerable
poll position speak up let out
when down the street the corner boys fuck shit up
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home
let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon
speak up let out caught in the crossfire
compared to the step to the bone that might break
it's too late to find a better way out of this
with the finest regards that i lost in the cracks of this street
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home
let's fire it up haha now
let's fire it up haha now, sayonara
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon and i'll pray for you high health
don't let them scare you when you're down on the floor bleeding bastard
you'll be getting home real soon
don't let them scare you
take me home when you run they'll follow you
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Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~
*sigh* so, I got a captive ring (a pack of four actually...) and I tried one in my lip..and I realised that capive rings are not very attractive looking on me... :/ so I'll just leave my labret stud in...
I got my lip pierced so I could get a captive ring... >.< thats why its so high up, in case anyone was wondering why my piercing was so high up...but I guess I'm just so used to the stud that it looks better...to me... >.< I mean, I HAVE had this stud in for a year... so I would be used to its look =P
anyways, I went to my friend Ari's house this weekend and we painted the living room of her new house (I got pictures, I'll upload them later =P) its a sunflower yellow and a royal blue...it looks very cool (Ari and I like bright "happy" colors, so it looks good to us =P {her husband hates it...but he didnt help so he had no say...LOL!)
She paid me back in feeding me...LOL! She had a barbeque and her friend Justin came too and he made whiskey sours...OMG! they were too fucking good! LOL! I must have drank two full glasses of that stuff...I was so freaking wasted...LOL! then we all jumped in the pool (She has a fucking pool!!! Bastard! >.< LOL!)
anyways, next weekend, we're painting her roommate's (Matt =P) "War Room". Its basically the second living room (family room) but Matt has all his war art and stuff in there. Its really stylin'. But Matt's room is the best... He's got art and sculptures from all the countries he went to when he was in the army. He was a ranger...hehe! (when I think that I think "Power Ranger" =P) He's such a cutie though...for a 27yr old...LOL! j/k matt...don't beat me up =P
And after we paint the war room (which is going to be Burgundy and Hunter Green btw) we're painting her son, Brandon's, room...the paint is a pretty seafoam green (It is pretty damnit! I don't lie! =P Its not girly...not in my opinion anyways...LOL!) And then after all that, we're painting Ari's Dark room (black of course) she is a great photographer. I'll try to get pictures of some of her photography art...its all over the walls at her house. Its black and white photos, so its really classy against the sunflower yellow and the Royal blue of the living room.
AND! They' (meaning Ari and Luke {her husband =P}) are having another barbeque on friday...barbe
I'm not crazy...I'm just excited...LOL! And tired too... >.<
But anyways, I plan on writing in here more often, I hope... I want to get a live journal too (thats why they think I'm eMo... >.< b/c I want a Lj... my friends are wierd! LOL!!
Talk more soon...
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease Baby!
~*Gaia*~
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"One thing only I know, and that is that I know nothing"
-Socrates
Fall not into temptation. For in doing so, Thou wilst justify Thyself as what Thou hates with passion...
©2004 Davorah Stetson
With all the information, on anything, a person can find on the internet, you'd think that someone would think to do a search and LEARN about something before they shoot it down....
I went on google and searched for 'Wicca' and got a result of 971,000. I did a search on the word Pagan and I got a result of 2,660,000...hm
Time: 12:10pm
In case you didnt notice. New pictures are uploaded! Go Marvel at them! NOW! LOL! ^_^
Time: 7:15pm
I need someone to help critique the story I'm writing! >.<
I have what I've written so far here: Niyati Ajala
Shane needs to hurry up and get online! =P
He's getting me a custom made dress from korea! Its gonna be SHORT as hell...LOL! But I do it all for him, my pain in the ass! =^.^=
*huggles*
I love you Shane! ^_*
Time: 8:47pm
Heeby! >.< Why am I such a dork...
T.V. doesn't matter anymore...why? b/c theres nothing good on except for maybe 2 hours late the fuck at night...LOL! (What the hell is up witht he new Haagen Daas commercial? its creepy as hell!)
I'm self-teaching myself wire jewelry making...It's going pretty good so far... I have a bracelet that looks awesome! I'm making a necklace that has hematite heart beads on it. I'll make a wiki for the pictures I'm gonna take soon...
I love you shane! =^.^=
Time: 12:41am
George CARLIN (His wife recently died...) Isn't it amazing that George Carlin -
gross and mouthy comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very
eloquent... A wonderful Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter
tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less,
we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive
too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced ou r values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble
crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not
better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but
not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish
less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold
more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and
less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the
stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when
you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember, to
give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of
all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside
of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there again.
Gi ve time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the
doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the
devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud.. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us
our entire life, is ourselves. Be alive while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes,
music, plants, hobbies, whatever -- your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve
it. If it is beyon d what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a
foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that
take our breath away. If you don't send this to at least 8 people.... who cares?
-George Carlin
Time: 11:46pm
Hehe! I love shane =P
Time: 11:44pm
Written about Friday 2004-05-21
Written: (8053 days ago)
Men, you need to see this!
26 ThInGs A sWeEt GuY wOuLd Do
1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair BUT you always notice.
3. Stick up for you but still be respectful of your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you, put his arms around you, squeeze you tightly against his chest, and
whisper softly into your ear
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands will always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but knows when to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile alot.
17. Plan a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally do just b/c he knows it
means alot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each other's company- even
when friends are watching.
22. Sing even if he can't
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs just b/c he loves you enough to quit!!
Time: 4:09pm
13 goals of a witch
Know Yourself:
It is very important that you know who you are in order to practice the Craft. Sometimes we think we do know ourselves, but in truth we don't. Most of the time we have an image of who we think we are or how others think we are instead of really being ourselves. It is not easy to be ourselves deep inside and create an outer shell that we show to the world. Therefore, you must look deep down within yourself. Start exploring yourself anew. Yes, even look into your dark side. See yourself for who you truly are, and embrace yourself for the person you have become.
Know Your Craft:
Learn all you can about the Craft. There are pleanty of books, good and bad, on the topic. Read as much as you can. Meditate about what you have to read. No witch is an expert on all aspects of witchcraft. Some are good herb healers, and others prefer gems. There are those who are excellent tarot readers, and those who prefer runes. If you are interested in a specific topic, study it seriously and become and expert in that feild. Practice your Craft. Keep a Book Of Shadows in which you keep a thorough record of your witchy activities.
Learn:
Read...read...
Have Patience:
Patience is a virtue every witch and pagan must have, and it is the hardest to achieve. First practice having patience with yourself, then you will be able to be patient with others.
Apply Knowledge with Wisdom:
Knowledge is a very powerful tool. The more you learn, the more knowledgeable you will become. Therefore, use your better judgement when you do your magical works. Remember that the Wiccan Rede says "Do as you will but harm none."
Achieve Balance:
Lead a well-balanced life. Don't let one part of your life take over your whole life. Let's face it, for most of us, our jobs practically take 95% of our time. That is unhealthy. Take time to do things you like. Set time to enjoy activities with your family and friends. Don't overdo things.
Keep Your Words in Good Order:
Speak clearly as you express yourself. Measure your words. Speak truthfully always, except when what you speak may lead to great harm. Do not lie. Do not gossip or speak ill of others. Look inside yourself and see if you are the right person to be badmouthing someone. Critisism is okay, but one thing is a constructive critic and another is bashing. Never speak in anger. You will say things you will regret later. Take a time-out if necessary.
Keep Your Thoughts in Good Order:
Keep your thoughts clear. Express your ideas and opinions but always keep an open mind. Keep away negitive thoughts that might depress you. But be careful of what you think about others. Don't be hasty to judhe a person, or you might be misjudging the person and being unfair.
Celebrate Life:
Life is beautiful!! Life is the most precious gift from the Goddess to her children so enjoy it. Go out and witness the miracles around you for there is life wherever you look. Take a walk through a park and enjoy nature's beauty. Maybe plant a tree. Watch a sunset. Bask in the morning sun. Join a group and help clean forests and protect animals. Recycle. But most important, be happy and thankful to know that you are alive.
Attune with the Cycles of the Earth:
Seasons bring change to both nature and people. Become attune with them. Celebrate the Sabbats. Do activities to help you out in becoming attune with the seasons, like decorating your place and/or altar according to the Sabbats. Take a stroll through a park and observe nature as it changes from one season to another.
Keep Yourself Healthy:
Eat right and excersise your body regularly. You should have all three daily meals, drop eating between meals, and reduce the fat in your meals. Drink a lot of water and take vitamins. Avoid the yo-yo diets. This isn't about being a health freak, it is about achieving a balance. Excersis keeps your body healthy and strong. Exercising should be fun. DOn't run 2 miles unless you want to. There are other exercises you can do like yoga or power walking. Both are very effective! Stop smoking and drinking!
Meditate:
Find a quiet place where you can't be disturbed and take at least 10-15 minutes every day to meditate. You can either do this when you wake in the mornings or before you go to sleep. Clear your mind of any negitive thoughts and fill it with positive ones. Find inner peace. If you meditate in the afternoons. or in the evenings, use your meditation time to recharge you energies.
Honor the Goddess and God:
Always remember to honor the Goddess on the Esbat. Maybe create a little altar for the Goddess and her cohort, the God. Then light candles or insence for them. Thank them for all the good things in your life (and ever for the not-so-good ones!)
Time: 4:08pm
Wow, so many great wikis are popping up! I love it all! Its giving me some great ideas for more wikis...LOL!
Time: 4:07pm
Heeby! Shane goes to Korea for a month on monday...I'm gonna miss him >.<
Time: 4:00pm
Takagism:
Click for the Crimson Room:
http://hub.nob
Time: 11:00am
Ahhh! I'm getting my art tablet today!!! YAY!!! I've been doing CG pics of GIR and the tablet will mae it all soooo much easier!
Time: 2:34
I'm so goth, in preschool, the only crayon I used was black.
I'm so goth I use black cotton balls.
I'm so goth I dyed my shadow black.
I'm so goth I dyed my belly button black.
I'm so goth my pupils are black.
I'm so goth my black is blacker than your black. I call it "black black."
I'm so goth, whenever I walk into a room, all the lights go out.
goth #1: I'm so goth the people in the grocery store have refused to sellme any cereal other than Count Chocula.
goth #2: I'm so goth people ask me to AUTOGRAPH boxes of Count Chocula.
I'm so goth people touch me and they BECOME goth. They say, "Oh no, now I'm goth!"
I'm so goth I wear sunglasses when I open the refrigerator.
I'm so goth I don't paint my nails black--I bash them with a hammer.
I'm so goth I died and didn't notice.
I'm so goth, whenever I knock on somebody's door they give me candy.
I'm so goth I write everything on black paper with a black pen in the dark and can never read what the hell I've written!
I'm so goth, I'm not only "goth," but also "gothe" "goff" "gawth" "gauwth" "gothic" "gothik" "gothique" and "gawfickk" and soon I hope to be "gauewthickueu
I'm so goth I make Richard Simmons sad.
I'm so goth I steal your Happy Meal.
I'm so goth I offered to sell my soul to the devil and he wouldn't take it!
I'm so goth, when I stop pouting, people ask, "What are YOU so happy about?"
I'm so goth, when I go outside, the sun sets.
goth #1: I'm so goth the smile muscles in my face have atrophied.
goth #2: I'm so goth the smile muscles in my face never GREW.
goth #3: What's a smile?
I'm so goth, when I was born, the doctor asked me, "What's with the shades?"
I'm so goth I say things like "eternally yours in darkness" and "love and darkness" and "may the eternal darkness of the abyss enrapture and enshroud you in its infernal sickly sweet embrace."
I'm so goth I'm a mime.
I'm so goth I don't use fabric softener, because I like pain.
I'm so goth I'm shocked by heterosexualit
I'm so goth I set off airport metal detectors from ten feet away with all my jewelry.
I'm so goth I'm the only REAL goth.
I'm so goth I have rigor mortis whenever I'm with my girlfriend.
I'm so goth I smoke cloves in the shower.
I'm so goth I killed myself... twice.
goth #1: I'm so goth a little rain cloud follows me wherever I go and rains on me.
goth #2: I'm so goth I AM the rain cloud.
I'm so goth I'm more goth than anyone else.
I'm so goth my diapers were pvc.
goth #1: I'm so goth I got a tattoo of celtic knotwork starting at the top of my head, winding all the way down my body, and trailing five feet behind me on the floor.
goth #2: I'm so goth I AM a tattoo.
goth #3: I'm so goth my name is "Tattoo" and I was on Fantasy Island.
goth #1: I'm so goth I got my medulla oblongata pierced.
goth #2: I'm so goth I got my mom pierced.
goth #3: I'm so goth I pierced all my tattoos.
I'm so goth it takes me an hour and a half to get dressed.
I'm so goth it takes me longer to get UNdressed.
I'm so goth I'm dead.
I'm so goth I think electrical tape is a fashion accessory.
I'm so goth I carry black food dye around in case I have to eat anything that's not black.
I'm so goth I look like Michael Jackson.
I'm so goth, in preschool, all my drawings were titled, "DEATH."
I'm so goth, in high school, all my papers were titled, "DEATH."
goth #1: I'm so goth my mom is a ninja.
goth #2: I'm so goth all ninjas are my mom.
I'm so goth, as soon as I was born I put eyeliner on. And I put on too much.
I'm so goth I slather on spf 45 before I open the refrigerator.
I'm so goth I think Jesus might have been a vampire.
I'm so goth I wore corsets in preschool.
goth #1: I'm so goth I wonder if my dog's collar would look better on me.
goth #2: I'm so goth I KNOW my dog's collar looks better on me.
goth #3: I'm so goth I stole my dog's collar.
I'm so goth, when I was born, I asked for a light for my clove.
I'm so goth I ate a Happy Meal . . . because I like to live dangerous.
I'm so goth little kids are mesmerized by my appearance.
I'm so goth parents leg their kids when they see them mesmerized by my appearance.
I'me soe gothe ie thinke puttinge e'se one thee endse ofe mye wordse ise medaevale ande deepe.
I'm so goth I've been banned.
I'm so goth nobody understands me, especially when I say, "the boom boom like shockalocka!!! . . . flibbaflobba!!
I'm so goth I don't take my medications, so I can be more goth.
I'm so goth, when I was born the doctor slapped me and I didn't cry.
I'm so goth I make flowers wilt.
I'm so goth I like them better that way.
I'm so goth I punched a care bear.
I'm so goth I think saying "oh my goth" is cute.
I'm so goth, when I smile people ask me what's wrong.
I'm so goth little old ladies in walkers cross the street to insult me.
I'm so goth I keep getting hit on by necrophiliacs!
I'm so goth I rooted for Gargamel.
I'm so goth I practice my blank stare in the mirror.
I'm so goth I tried to be a hippie once and hugged a tree--and it died.
I'm so goth that when I moved into Mr. Roger's neighborhood, he moved away!
I'm so goth I pierced both my nipples--does that shock you?--then I went to the genetic engineering lab and had my genetic structure altered to grow another nipple, then I had THAT one pierced.
I'm so goth I have carpal tunnel syndrome from constantly putting the back of my hand to my forehead.
I'm so goth that whenever I walk into a room, you hear "Toccata and fugue in D minor."
I'm so goth I listen to The Sisters of Mercy and Bauhaus simultaneously at midnight in a graveyard sitting in a pentagram surrounded by candles... and oh, there's a full moon... and then I die. And then I come back to life. And then I die again... tragically.
I'm so goth I have actually seriously uttered the phrase, "the darkest dark of the dark darkness."
I'm so goth I tried to use Cheer... it cried.
goth #1: I'm so goth, when I'm sleeping people come and check my pulse.
goth #2: I'm so goth I don't have a pulse.
I'm so goth I know what pvc stands for.
I'm so goth the people at the suicide hotline have asked me to stop calling.
I'm so goth I wear pvc pajamas.
I'm so goth I'm catholic.
I'm so goth nuns and priests resent me because I look cooler in black than them.
goth #1: I'm so goth I changed my name to Mystryss Darque Wintyr Nyght Rayn Ravyn.
goth #2: I'm so goth I don't have a name. I'm just "goth."
I'm so goth all I do is sit around and talk about how goth I am.
I'm so goth I always use the word "goth" instead of "got."
I'm so goth every sentence I say has the word "goth" in it.
I'm so goth I'm the only person who understands what goth REALLY is, and I'm not telling you!
By the way, I'm not the goth one, you are!
Time: 10:06pm
I joined a really cool wiki rpg! C3Charmed...it R kool-tastic!
I finally have my elfwood acct! it R peety! ^.^ I just need to scan my stuffs up then I'll be done! W00t!
Time: 5:16pm