Wow...my diary really is sad and empty, but not for long! First things first, my day has been great, for sum really fuckin odd reason, cuz i really did nothing but like i mean i went tanning, and i got free lotion and a tanning session and like then i worked out for 2 hours...im gunna be so sore tomorrow i was really hyper today...it was strange but so awesome, i turned a job app. at GF's and then hung out with keith then em and josh and yeah idk tomorrow i hang out with peewee and i dont really wanna but i just dont know how to say no...so i hope it isnt long, i want certain ppl to come home NOW! then i can hug em and kiss em and squeeze em and hold em...lol ok im done, i hope i can remember this so i can tell about my weekend, since last week i couldnt remember what i did on sat! Whoops...well lets see...my life WAS a living hell, total confusion and hatred everywhere i turned...as someone great once said, "highschool drama...its like a bad sitcom" true very true! then my god like best friend talked sense when it was needed most, and now thanks to her, the gurl that i will always love forever and ever, has made my life highly worth living for! now lets see...idk whats been goin on lately...but somehow a joke was made about sumthin really stupid, and the other chick we were with took it seriously...i mean i dont understand! its totally like shes afraid that em will steal her MAN away from her...hun first off...why the fuck would she want HIM back? cmon he's urs and dont u think id backhand her b4 she ever made THAT mistake again!? second...YOU SHOULD BE MAD AT ME TOO! cuz i was right there fuckin around with ya about all that shit...soooo lighten the fuck up...well now... theres nothing to really say guys, lets see i absolutely hate retarded ppl, and ppl who cant get their shit straight or make up their minds cuz that just bugs the fuck outta me... ppl just need to go with the flow man! i also hate stuck up ppl or ppl who make alot of stuff up about themselves to appear cooler than they are... but usually they're just lame ol' douche bags who've got nuttin goin for um...i can see at some points u know...whats a lil white lie? so long as u live up to it or sumthin! god damn... now...hmmm i feel bad cuz like josh emailed me telling me how much he liked me and u know heartbreak and he had to bring up the whole kid thing...and well u know i just had to mail him back and break the goddamned news on him...i mean it wasnt bad news...pry the best ive heard in well...ok i dont remember the last time i heard good news lets just say it was a long time ago! well...i dont know, its really late and i spose i should go, or else i might pass out at the computer...eve