yesterday i found out that my friend Alex Benard S. Hall hass passed away. He died last weekend and I just found out this weekend by and E-MAIL!! and noone called to tell me but decided to write it instead of calling me and telling me. i mean i know i'm in indiana and there still in virgiania but the know my family and they know where my aunt lives. so why couldn't they walk to her house and tell her to call me and tell me right away? but nooooooo i find out a week later and missed the funeral! i met him in 6th grade, he was in my algebra class and all mor core classes for 2 years. and then my mom makes us move back to indiana. so not only did i get seperated from friends that i've know since kindergarden. and now they're tallin me that onw of the pple that i hold very dear may have commited suicide! why would he? they told me he was on the track team and everything else. what did he need to kill himself for? i mean i don't believe it, i refuse to believe it! GIVE ME SOME PROF!!! I WONT SOME PROF I DEMAND SOME PROFF TO WHAT U SAY!!!!!!!!!!!! why would they tell me such a thing? why and not b sure about what they say? who do i have to tell my grief? they all have each other and i'm stuck in this god forsaken place that i now call home. no one knew him here but me! so what do i say to them when they ask are u ok? and when they pretend to know him by saying "i liked him" or "he was so nice" and all that other crap they think i wonna hear? how do i tell them to shut up with out sounding harsh? how do i talk to someone about it with out getting angry at the whole world? without cursing them, and blamming my mom for making me move, missing the last years of his life? i'll never see him again or hear him laugh. or do the things he does that made me laugh and feel good inside. the one i called SEXY is no more. i only have a picture to make me feel like he's still here. My "sexy man" is gawn. now tell me, wht the 1134 am i suppose to do NOW!!