I had an interesting weekend.Everything on unreal deleted friday saturday i did well on rounders and made a new rounders enemy.He's kinda cute.Sunday i was dehidrated so i didn't do as well.Monday was the first day of school and today things are till sinking in as i and my friend ,though in seperate classes,Her whole class and me heard a school authority call for aomeone long dead.If any one else did we don't know yet.

I fell in the bath tub.It hurt bcuz I landed on my but.I was closing the curtain so no one could see me naked if they walked in.I am now champion in all categories but one on unreal tournament ps2.I'm begining to imagine things too!

i decided not to writ e in my diary unles somethiing good happens this is the last week for that though.So in other words unless i have news then im not gonna write in my diary.Even if it's just an illusin or weird dream.all thats happening is i miss Steven already after only 3 days.

I was thinking today.About Steven.Well my friend Christina dared me something and this time i'm gonna pull through.I was also thinking of this weekend,I told Steven something no one knew.I mean sure I have a hidden past,but people were there for it.This is something only I knew.It is my only fear and it really seems like such a stupid fear.Espesially since I don't know why I'm afraid of it.This is a fear that I will think of until I figure out why I'm afraid of this.This fear is something I will mention to no one.Soon before my birthday I will figure it out and tell him why I'm afraid of it.So I'm crazy for him,and he's crazy for me.I will not write every detail of my life, ever,but I will write in shorts and briefs about my day.

my weekend has been interesting,Friday I left for faire camp site and told Keran I like him.Saturday my crush on Keran starts to disappear.I start to get a crush on Steven.Who is my perfect guy.I hang out with him all day and play rounder,a game like baseball,and my shift with him.At the end of the day, I hug him tell him ill find him at camp.Then i find we are staying at sum1's house.The next day,my mom yells at me and makes me make her posies for lack of responsibility.This makes me late for shift sighn up and i have to hawk 2 hawking shifts instead of my usual 1 hawk 1 game.I was also late for notes.I got burnt the day before,and now playing rounders the ball hits me in the center of my stomach right in the bodess boning and my bodess caught the ball.I also had my niose burnt and ,of course,spent the entire day with Steven.A friend says he's crazy for me.I say I'm crazy for him.Today I've been thinking about him alot and i found out school starts in a week and my birthday is two weeks away!

Just one of those days of thinking.Sitting in front of tv or on the comp or visiting places.Still in over my head on my prob.Help me!!I have gotten no advice on the problem exept from my best friend [pixerz].She thinks i should wait to see what happens.Because after all it's not so much as Kerans perfect but there's some qualities that Justin has that he hasn't shown.I wanna tell just one of them that I have a crush on him so i wanna kno which one u would choose and would u tell him this upcoming weekend or wait to see what happens and tell next weekend.I don't see them any other time.HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPP MMMMMMEEEEEEE PPPPPPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

help me out here im so confused!I'm still deciding and if you actually read this stuff will you tell me what you would do?Keran's perfect but Justins got thatextra kindness even though he's ugly and is only somewhat my type over all i still like him.Today I cleaned and practiced some sports.But during all ofmy time this is what i was thinking about will you help me?Keran?Or Justin? What should i do to decide? Help me plz!!!!!!

Today was boring.I got some more gum,ran into some1 from school,and cleaned.I was thinking about Keran too.Yea I have a crush on the guy.So what?I also have a crush on another faire guy named Justin.They are both sixteen.Keran has a small,but noticeable muscular build,deep blue eyes,black hair, and looks about 5'7.He's cute and nice and we have alot in common.Justin is about 6'1 has black hair,a very noticeable build,and brown eyes.On one hand Keran is everything I want in a guy and on the other Justin's kinda ugly,but very sweet! What should I do? Should I go w/ Keran?Or Justin?

I'm back from faire for the weekend and it's been interesting.First I had to debate whether to tell Keran,one of my faire crushes, whether I like him or not.Then my mom's car broke down after faire Saturday.And someone who had already promised me a ride had left.After a friend's mom was worried and I got a ride to faire campsite my stepdad wasn't there.Earlier that day I ran into an old friend of mine.I also had to hawk a brutal crowd alone.Then on Sunday I chewed and gave away all my gum and mom got mad that I didn't take advantage of the free food I get.I laughed all day and saw my friend.I talked to Rose and told her I'd challenge her next week.Then,after my stepdad was ready and I hugged everyone,including Keran!We left in a rental car.Today I cleaned alot ,got more sleep and redied my streaks.

I'm gonna start writing in my diary today.Every aspect of my life will be written in here.But some of the stuff is stuff no one should know.So if there is a note not to tell DON'T TELL.You will read some of my memories before today if I'm thinkin of them that day.But for now here's todays entry.Don't doubt for one second that thiss is true b/c it is!!
  Tommorow is Ren. Faire and I work there.Not only that but I was practically born there.And I realize my life outside of Faire is a mess.First my own grandpa molests me for a couple of years.Then three years later on september 11 he dies of nhimounia.Between that time I'm in a foster home because I told someone.I move in with my dad and still paid almost no attention to.Then after being born in MO. Moving to Germany and living in AL for 9 1/2 yrs I move to CA two yrs later I find that my dad isn't blood.My mom and I are always yellin or she and my stepdad is.I'm always the cause of stuff or stuck in the middle.
  The only reason my stepdad doesn't kick mom out is me,the reason mom bf doesn't break up w/ her is me.I've had older guys hit on me and there's tons more.
  Well anyway I'm at home doin chores all day bcuz I need some money.And I can't wait till tommorrow.I have 4 Faire crushes all of which I plan on tellin this run of Faire.Guys there are really cute and my type,most of them.And another thing,my mom treats me like a slave.She acts like a slave driver at home.I hate my mom literally,I hate my mom.Well that's all I have to say for now.