Today was boring.I got some more gum,ran into some1 from school,and cleaned.I was thinking about Keran too.Yea I have a crush on the guy.So what?I also have a crush on another faire guy named Justin.They are both sixteen.Keran has a small,but noticeable muscular build,deep blue eyes,black hair, and looks about 5'7.He's cute and nice and we have alot in common.Justin is about 6'1 has black hair,a very noticeable build,and brown eyes.On one hand Keran is everything I want in a guy and on the other Justin's kinda ugly,but very sweet! What should I do? Should I go w/ Keran?Or Justin?

I'm back from faire for the weekend and it's been interesting.First I had to debate whether to tell Keran,one of my faire crushes, whether I like him or not.Then my mom's car broke down after faire Saturday.And someone who had already promised me a ride had left.After a friend's mom was worried and I got a ride to faire campsite my stepdad wasn't there.Earlier that day I ran into an old friend of mine.I also had to hawk a brutal crowd alone.Then on Sunday I chewed and gave away all my gum and mom got mad that I didn't take advantage of the free food I get.I laughed all day and saw my friend.I talked to Rose and told her I'd challenge her next week.Then,after my stepdad was ready and I hugged everyone,including Keran!We left in a rental car.Today I cleaned alot ,got more sleep and redied my streaks.

I'm gonna start writing in my diary today.Every aspect of my life will be written in here.But some of the stuff is stuff no one should know.So if there is a note not to tell DON'T TELL.You will read some of my memories before today if I'm thinkin of them that day.But for now here's todays entry.Don't doubt for one second that thiss is true b/c it is!!
  Tommorow is Ren. Faire and I work there.Not only that but I was practically born there.And I realize my life outside of Faire is a mess.First my own grandpa molests me for a couple of years.Then three years later on september 11 he dies of nhimounia.Between that time I'm in a foster home because I told someone.I move in with my dad and still paid almost no attention to.Then after being born in MO. Moving to Germany and living in AL for 9 1/2 yrs I move to CA two yrs later I find that my dad isn't blood.My mom and I are always yellin or she and my stepdad is.I'm always the cause of stuff or stuck in the middle.
  The only reason my stepdad doesn't kick mom out is me,the reason mom bf doesn't break up w/ her is me.I've had older guys hit on me and there's tons more.
  Well anyway I'm at home doin chores all day bcuz I need some money.And I can't wait till tommorrow.I have 4 Faire crushes all of which I plan on tellin this run of Faire.Guys there are really cute and my type,most of them.And another thing,my mom treats me like a slave.She acts like a slave driver at home.I hate my mom literally,I hate my mom.Well that's all I have to say for now.