Good day to you sir.
Good day to you sir.
How do you fair today sir?
I'm fairing quite well today, yourself sir?
I'm doing rather swell sir, thank you for asking sir.
Not a problem sir.
Have a nice day sir.
Have a nice day as well sir.
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<.<
I'm bored.
I'm lonely.
And have low selfesteem.
Yes, I talk to myself! xP
And evidently, I'm rather politeness to myself as well.
Though.
This sir buisness has me worried.
I'm not yet old enough to be called sir.
Thank you very much.
Clever distractions are clever.
So.
Yeah.
*sighs*
Just a wonderful week yeah?
Fuck, this year has been -wonderful-
Shit, the last few -years- have been.
Something I've been looking forward to.
For a freaking year.
Will probley enver happen.
But then.
I doubt any of you care.
*sighs*
meh..oh well right?
To miss your best friend, to wonder if you are thought of fondly by them.
To hope for a day you could hang out again..
A dream I dream alone.
Anywho.
On a side note.
Nothing today thats happened.
I predicted.
meaning a good day.
On that scale.
Soooo...
I was caught off guard.
Twas fun.
Also, nearly getting hit by a dumbass truck driver.
Yeahhh...
Have to love that.
sometimes we walk this life with no one at all.
And sometimes when we are walking alone.
We forget to reach out.
And take the hand of the person walking beside us.
I'm pissed.
Throughly.
Fucking.
Seething.
Jokes.
Fucking jokes.
And lies.
All of it.
But hey.
I'm not important.
So, why should anyone feel bad
About treating me like shit?
Hope you all ahve a great life.
Don't let me down..not today. Please not today.
I'm taking up a new path in life. No longer am I just going to be shoved around. I will shove back. if I feel like I'm being taken for granted, or advantaged of, I'm going to say something about it. I have a spine, its high time I st...art whipping it out and hitting people with it. ( trinity blood ref for the win. )Read More
In other words.
A big fuck you to those who treat me badly.
I'm not the only one who needs ot change.
You all do as well.
Clean up your act, start giving me some respect, and stop treating me like shit.
Keep it up.
and I will leave.
And you will never see me again.
The choice is fucking yours.
Here.
There.
Everywhere.
Under here.
over there.
Somewhere.
Nowhere.
Who to go too.
When to go.
Where to do it.
And why not now?
Right side up.
Left side down.
Back it up.
Now turn around.
Who do you go too?
When nothing makes sense.
Who do you talk too?
When you cant speak the sense.
Giberish is what you speak.
Nonesense is what they hear.
Unable to understand.
Who do you talk too?
It gets all sorted.
Twisted into thorns.
Dreams become nightmares.
Nightmares become reality.
When do we wake?
To find things not so scary.
how do we know?
What to do.
to not lose thsoe we love the most?
Its a choice we face.
Every second of the day.
How do we do it?
Knowing we could fail.
Who?
When?
Where?
Why?
Here.
There.
Over where?
What to do.
How to do it.
And why is it so?
Not that it matters.
But.
I'm going to go watch Gilgamesh.
Wow O.o
I have to be tired.
I'm actually enjoying Robot Chicken.
I dislike this show so much but...
i cant help but laugh. ><
Why? Why whyw whyw whywhwywhwywhw
*sighs*
So wish I hadnt read that.
*headdesk8
Cant...fucking sleep.
i just want eace
I do...I want it so badly..
I want to feel like I mean something
to be...treated better then I ahve been.
Not...last resort or..second thought or..
i dont knowjust want to sfeel lilke I mnean somehting again.
Cant i have peace?
please...
Peace..and love, and a little affection just..
something to have..
I wont be sleepingtoingh
ciant..
*slumps down and sighs*
i give up.
I guess there is no point in hoping right?
stupid stupid me.
Was so hoping too.
I really..really was.
i mean, its happened once before
why..why not again?
*sighs*
I had it all...and I lost it all.
So, I give up hoping.
I'm done.
I'm out.
I..don't care anymore.
if I don't care, I don't hurt.
and to be honest...
i'm tired of hurting.
And having no one to talk to about it.
Okay so.
HTML.
is starting to piss me off.
more so then I am now.
Gah.
Cant link video's in my ET mood.
Not enough space.
That is...rather lame.
You should have enough space to be able to do so.
Ever sat and watched yourself type.
And wonder what the hell it was you were typing.
And only look after the message was typed?
And for the life of you.
Cant recall typing that fast.
or the amount of the words that appear to be in the message?
Or even.
Be thinking something.
And realize you were thinking something else at first.
Try to rememeber.
Forget, and continue what it is you are now thinking.
Only to realize.
You werent really thinking?
Had my first shitty day at work.
My father wrecked my bday.
I feel like shit.
I'm...going to go nap for an hour.
Atleast I'm not having nightmares anymore.
Atleast when I'm sleeping I can feel wanted, among other things.
The Distance feels like it is growing.
That Ravine that now seems to stand between us.
It's like a horrible Nightmare.
The one where you try to jump to make it.
But end up Falling to your death.
I'm scared its going to grow more.
And I know I'm going to Jump soon.
But will you catch me?
Or will I get to fall ?
Whelp.
Come home from church.
Hoping to spend my bday with someone and...they are not online.
So...instead, going to go spend it out with my garden.
Goodbye for now all.
Thanks to thsoe for the well wishes on my bday.
<3
Going to go now.
Thanks.
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