Here.
There.
Everywhere.
Under here.
over there.
Somewhere.
Nowhere.
Who to go too.
When to go.
Where to do it.
And why not now?
Right side up.
Left side down.
Back it up.
Now turn around.
Who do you go too?
When nothing makes sense.
Who do you talk too?
When you cant speak the sense.
Giberish is what you speak.
Nonesense is what they hear.
Unable to understand.
Who do you talk too?
It gets all sorted.
Twisted into thorns.
Dreams become nightmares.
Nightmares become reality.
When do we wake?
To find things not so scary.
how do we know?
What to do.
to not lose thsoe we love the most?
Its a choice we face.
Every second of the day.
How do we do it?
Knowing we could fail.
Who?
When?
Where?
Why?
Here.
There.
Over where?
What to do.
How to do it.
And why is it so?
Not that it matters.
But.
I'm going to go watch Gilgamesh.
Wow O.o
I have to be tired.
I'm actually enjoying Robot Chicken.
I dislike this show so much but...
i cant help but laugh. ><
Why? Why whyw whyw whywhwywhwywhw
*sighs*
So wish I hadnt read that.
*headdesk8
Cant...fucking sleep.
i just want eace
I do...I want it so badly..
I want to feel like I mean something
to be...treated better then I ahve been.
Not...last resort or..second thought or..
i dont knowjust want to sfeel lilke I mnean somehting again.
Cant i have peace?
please...
Peace..and love, and a little affection just..
something to have..
I wont be sleepingtoingh
ciant..
*slumps down and sighs*
i give up.
I guess there is no point in hoping right?
stupid stupid me.
Was so hoping too.
I really..really was.
i mean, its happened once before
why..why not again?
*sighs*
I had it all...and I lost it all.
So, I give up hoping.
I'm done.
I'm out.
I..don't care anymore.
if I don't care, I don't hurt.
and to be honest...
i'm tired of hurting.
And having no one to talk to about it.
Okay so.
HTML.
is starting to piss me off.
more so then I am now.
Gah.
Cant link video's in my ET mood.
Not enough space.
That is...rather lame.
You should have enough space to be able to do so.
Ever sat and watched yourself type.
And wonder what the hell it was you were typing.
And only look after the message was typed?
And for the life of you.
Cant recall typing that fast.
or the amount of the words that appear to be in the message?
Or even.
Be thinking something.
And realize you were thinking something else at first.
Try to rememeber.
Forget, and continue what it is you are now thinking.
Only to realize.
You werent really thinking?
Had my first shitty day at work.
My father wrecked my bday.
I feel like shit.
I'm...going to go nap for an hour.
Atleast I'm not having nightmares anymore.
Atleast when I'm sleeping I can feel wanted, among other things.
The Distance feels like it is growing.
That Ravine that now seems to stand between us.
It's like a horrible Nightmare.
The one where you try to jump to make it.
But end up Falling to your death.
I'm scared its going to grow more.
And I know I'm going to Jump soon.
But will you catch me?
Or will I get to fall ?
Whelp.
Come home from church.
Hoping to spend my bday with someone and...they are not online.
So...instead, going to go spend it out with my garden.
Goodbye for now all.
Thanks to thsoe for the well wishes on my bday.
<3
Going to go now.
Thanks.
"_____________
Was so hoping.
That you know.
My bday coming uo.
Things would be different.
But no.
No, not at all.
Why do I bother hoping?
Why?
Manapua.
best.
Fucking.
Thing.
Ever.
Bar.
Freaking.
None.
I.
Want.
More.
It's.
That.
Amazing.
And.
Another.
Thing.
Thats.
Really.
Cool.
Is.
This.
Because.
It.
Looks.
Like.
A.
Graph.
From.
The.
Side.
Isnt.
That.
Nifty.
I.
Could.
Do.
This.
For.
Awhile.
But.
I'm.
Going.
To.
Bed.
Now.
So.
Have.
A.
Good night.
Whooops.
I.
Broke.
It.
For.
A.
moment.
Only.
one.
Word.
At.
A.
Time.
Thats.
The.
Rules.
Ha.
Ha.
Tehee.
Was it worth it?
Is it still?
What was the price I must wonder.
What did it cost you in the end?
How is your prize comparing.
To what you had?
Is it better?
I hope its worth more
Then whatever you paid for it.
Riddle me this.
Riddle me that.
Who is not afraid of the dark?
You thought I'd say bat.
didnt you?
For shame it must be.
To think you could out predict me.
I know all of your secrets.
Your habits, your words your life.
So riddle me this.
Riddle me that.
Who's afraid of the big bad bat?
Hope is why I get up in the morning.
And hope is the reason I cry at night.
Hope is why I smile so much.
And hope is why I'm dieing inside.
Hope is why I am strong.
And hope is what makes me weak.
Hope is this.
Hope is that.
Whenever it helps.
It hinders.
Hope is there.
Hope is here.
Let my hope in for awhile?
so atleast it can help just once.
The Fool is the fool who cant help but love the Queen.
And the Fool is a fool for loving a Queen.
For the Queen knows the Fool is a fool.
And The Fool knows the Queen knows he is a fool.
So who is the bigger fool?
The Fool for being a fool to love the Queen.
Or the Queen for letting the Fool be a fool for loving her?
I want a Watabe wedding.
So much.
It hurts.
They are sooo pretty.
But so damn expensive.
v.v