You know, nothing ever changes.
No one, thinks before they say something.
Ever.
I find it funny.
I'm hurting.
Hurting really fucking bad.
But I keep on trucking you know?
Keep on smiling, keep on being there.
Do i feel appreciated? Not really.
Do I feel loved? No. But then...I wonder if anyone does.
you know..the last couple of days, my dad has been a real ass.
I havent talked about it at all cause well, my problems arnt really all that important compared to everyone elses.
But...it doenst mean I dont hurt right?
How would you be feeling, if all the things thats happened to me, in the last two years, happened to you?
I'm rambling, I know. Dont mind it, its the fact Im exhausted, and cant sleep talking. Just..dont pay it any mind.
Funny...how nightmares can save your ass sometimes.
*curls up*
Wont talk to anyone then.
Just..bottle it up.
Every time I try its just...not a good time.
.....
Thanks.
*sits, staring off into the distance, legs hanging over a stone wall near a dieing wheeping willow*
thought I was doing better.
then something came up.
took a look into my cell.
Damn my desire to browse.
saw I had so many texts.
whats a little spring cleaning?
so many laughs and tears in there.
theres one that made my heart stop.
then I saw the one you sent me.
You know, that one.
and I felt a tear slide down my cheek.
swear you could end world thirst with me.
Low and behold I'm still trying.
A rerun I'm becoming.
forever yours it said.
http://www.you
I'll always be there.
By your side.
Even when others judge you.
I'll never commit that crime.
I'll always be there.
Even when no one else is.
I'll never judge you.
Though everyone else may.
I'm never going to leave.
Always by your side.
You know you can beleive it.
after everything Im still here.
How does that make you feel?
http://ariyas.
Simply freaking amazing.
<3's
I'm..just going to keep my fucking mouth shut okay?
Not tell anyone a fucking thing.
Be all hopes and smiles.
Cause...whenev
Someone gets hurt.
And...meh, atleast Im used to feeling like I'm worthless.
Rather not...get others hurt too.
Going out.
Cause well, my mood is shit.
Going to see my old base.
Will be funarific.
Plan to buy goodies for myself.
cause I'm awesome like that.
No more makign excuses.
I'm living for myself.
There's no us involved.
There is just me.
Fast lane, new tracks shiney new car
This is my life babe.
I'm living it for me.
Thanks...the day did get better but hey...
Go figure.
It ends like shit.
You think you know the truth
But find it to be a lie
You beleive in a dream
Surprise its a nightmar in disguise
You pour your hope into something
watch it crash and burn
To this day you'll keep on loving
You think they'll love you back?
You think you know the truth.
Deleted my last poem.
Didnt think it was all that great.
And it's meaning would have been lost anyways.
Mer.
Not sure why I bother.
Nothing changes.
I still am, as I always have been.
In last place.