http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmT3YKKhvwo&feature=PlayList&p=D73956BAC7F09D46&index=20&playnext=21&playnext_from=PL

I'll always be there.
By your side.
Even when others judge you.
I'll never commit that crime.

I'll always be there.
Even when no one else is.
I'll never judge you.
Though everyone else may.
I'm never going to leave.
Always by your side.
You know you can beleive it.
after everything Im still here.
How does that make you feel?

http://ariyas.mybrute.com
Simply freaking amazing.
<3's

I'm..just going to keep my fucking mouth shut okay?
Not tell anyone a fucking thing.
Be all hopes and smiles.
Cause...whenever I do tell people stuff
Someone gets hurt.
And...meh, atleast Im used to feeling like I'm worthless.
Rather not...get others hurt too.

Going out.
Cause well, my mood is shit.
Going to see my old base.
Will be funarific.
Plan to buy goodies for myself.
cause I'm awesome like that.


No more makign excuses.
I'm living for myself.
There's no us involved.
There is just me.
Fast lane, new tracks shiney new car
This is my life babe.
I'm living it for me.

Thanks...the day did get better but hey...
Go figure.
It ends like shit.

You think you know the truth
But find it to be a lie
You beleive in a dream
Surprise its a nightmar in disguise
You pour your hope into something
watch it crash and burn
To this day you'll keep on loving
You think they'll love you back?
You think you know the truth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_4-zRVFLnY

Deleted my last poem.
Didnt think it was all that great.
And it's meaning would have been lost anyways.
Mer.
Not sure why I bother.
Nothing changes.
I still am, as I always have been.
In last place.

talk about getting your hopes up.

I dont feel important.
To anyone.
I dont feel worth it.
To anyone.
I'm not good enough.
For anyone.
My family has proven it, she has proven it, my freinds have proven it.

Words from a friend.

" Sometimes, we have something really amazing before our eyes. Wether its a person, or an oppertunity. And for some reason, for whatever reason, we never see it. often times, untill its too late. Wether its the guy who is always there for you, treats you better then anyone else does, and never judges you, or the chance to do something really amazing, like a job, or a college oppertunity. Either way, for some reason, this amazing thing we never see, untill its too late. It happens to everyone. Keep your eye out, for that something amazing."

-S

hate how much things have changed...