[Glorybox.]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2005-04-19
Written: (7720 days ago)

Eahc day is slowly getting better.
Like, if it was counted by points....
Each day is a half of a point of feeling better...

Everything still sucks dick.
Emotional Death is coming...
I can't wait till I overcome this.
I don't want to get over him.
I want to get over the hurt and permanet need for him.

I need stuff to keep me occupied...
school sucks because I don't know ANYONE there.

I'm just waiting for summer

I'm not going to the show...
It'll just upset me...almost everything reminds me of him...sucks...

School...Yippeee:(

553285 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-04-16
Written: (7723 days ago)

The last couple of hours have been the worst in a long time.
I don't really feel like sharing it, but I thought I'd comment on it.

There's a small fruit fly on my sandwich.
Joy.
-_-

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Written about Wednesday 2005-04-13
Written: (7727 days ago)

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I had a dream the other night about elftown.
Somehow I got on kb's username and read all her personal secret diary entries.
but they were blank.
It was weird.

B.T.W.!!!
Still Sick:-/

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-22
Written: (7749 days ago)

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Had A Kick Ass Time On The Coast!
WHOO!

Even though Shaun and Krysta fought alot it didn't ruin it.
I fucking love Corpus, I can't wait to go this summer.
I also got a kick ass shell that I'm going to use in making a future kick ass sacred necklace.

Then, on the last day of Corpus, Salem got kicked out.
She moved in with me on Saturday night. She's still getting her stuff and she's poor for now. But, Oh, well.
Shiley came to town a few days ago. We hung out with him. I got to drive his car, but I've never been on the highway and we were driving behind Chris which is like driving behind Connor. I saw a cop and had to slow down and then Salem drove.
She did good for her first time. I'm proud of her.
Shaun got mad at us.
But it's cool now.
I skated today. I'm getting better. But I still suck big nasty balls at it. I plan to get better.
I tanned somewhat.
Cut my hair.
Had shaun stay almost the entire spring break with me.
Been hanging out with Salem a whole lot.

I'm a happy girl!
:)
Oh, yeah, tried a new drug with Salem. Thought I'd mention that)

<33333

517097 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-03-09
Written: (7762 days ago)

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I scared myself while ago. My hair moved too close to my face and I freaked.
I'm too jumpy, I hate going to sleep in this mood.

I suck. At Everything. There's no reason why I should be here really.
(Yeah, I know that sounds suicidal, don't take it that way though.)

Non-Exsistent-Ness Would Be Cool

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-02
Written: (7768 days ago)

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I've had the worst day so far.
I was woken up early because they're working on the roads right in front of my house.
Jackhammers are loud.
And it's cold.
Then I got up and remembered I had only 3 cigarettes left, I now have two.
Then I made french toast, burned it.
Tasted horrible.
Then decided to begin cleaning. I went through old papers and magazines and I learned a few things.
1. My great grandparents got a divorce.
2. I had perfect grades throughout 1-3
3. I was a weird kid, I stood randomly in class, disturbed others and daydreamed.
4. All of that behavior was a side effect of the seizure medication I was taking at the time to prevent my S.B.S. induced seizures.
5. When I moved to Waco, I had a big sister from big brothers big sisters who I wrote diary entries about.
6. Pictures of me with my cousins, they're all holding hands around a kiddie table smiling, I'm half turned around with the saddest look on my face, but not crying. I was never included.
7. My mom read those and documented on them.
8. My mom knew my passwords for all of my instant messaging programs.
9. A letter typed up by Santa
10. My mother's thing from Scott&White including:
-A loan she took out
-A Christmas Card from her bestfriend
-Her slides she designed for her job
And the saddest thing I've ever seen:
-A white empty never-opened folder labeled,"Ideas"

This day couldn't get any worse.

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Written about Monday 2005-02-21
Written: (7778 days ago)

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And I Can't Help But Ask Myself How Much I Let The Fear Take The Wheel And Steer.

Yeah, love those lyrics.

But yeah, had alot of fun this weekend.
I LOVE YOU SALEM!!!!
Our Lover<3

I like this, too.

"Why Are We Here? What's Life All About? Is God Really Real? Or Is There Some Doubt?"

Couldn't get those lyrics out of my head at the party.

That party was kick ass, though. I Don't care what anyone said.
Even though I didn't know anyone(well, except Hannah's brother, but I don't know him very well.), It was a very classy party. Instead of the keggers with all the boys that pour beer and vodka down your throat only to fuck you in a dark room later. I hate people like that. I can't get my drink on then. Well, I could, but I don't want the clap.

On a lighter note:
I Made A Clap(KLAPE) For You, It Goes Like This: CLAP CLAP CLAP!!

O O
U

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Written about Thursday 2005-02-17
Written: (7782 days ago)

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This Song Really Touched Me Today.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarge your world
Mad world

495129 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-02-14
Written: (7785 days ago)

Computer's fixed for now.
Yay!

this Sunday I am SO getting the laptop...
YES!!!! WHOOOOO!!!!
I Can't Wait....!!!!
EEEE!

Ok, maybe not that incredibly amazing since it's not really all that new and it's a mac
But hey, beggars can't be choosers
It's cool stuff
Jeah

493394 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-02-12
Written: (7787 days ago)

back again for a limited amount of time:)

Show tomorrow
Hanging out with the coolest people imaginable!!
Wes, Shaun, Jackie, and ofcourse, My lovely girlfriend, Salem!!!!!

Anyways, tonight on the agender:
Dinner
A Movie
Valentines Fun!!;)

ok, super jam out cd almost done.
Peace and Carrots

487749 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-04
Written: (7794 days ago)

I missed the computer so much.

I went through a little more than a week's worth of internet withdrawals.

And I'm sick, but getting better. hopefully.

479620 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-01-24
Written: (7805 days ago)

This weekend was fuckin awesome.

Shaun And Salem.
FUN FUN FUN!!

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Written about Wednesday 2005-01-12
Written: (7817 days ago)

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I fucking hate math!!!

okk, yeah, muse the band of the moment.
I'm hungry and that's whatsup so far today

469658 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-01-12
Written: (7818 days ago)

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Meh, I have twice as much school work tomorrow.

Then off to the "Y" to work out and have fun with shaun and stuff.

Show's coming up.

can't wait.

462182 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-01-03
Written: (7827 days ago)

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This is what I've been fucking with all day.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Rainbow_Lust

Ok, well not all day, but for the last two hours.

And this old thing.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/a_friend_my_own/

I haven't written in that in forever.

If anyone out there rocks at designing one or both of these sites please share your intelligence.
Those sites are confusing at fuck.

I'm computerilliterate.

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