[Glorybox.]'s diary
Call 911, I'm already dead, but someone should be caught and held responsible for this bloody mess
I'm totally disgusted with you
She's Always A Joy To Talk To.
Elizabethhteba
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ChoklitFondu: ...I don't really get how, nor do I care
Elizabethhteba
ChoklitFondu: I guess so
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ChoklitFondu: you changed too, everyone changes
ChoklitFondu: does it matter?
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ChoklitFondu: I don't really wish I was the same. I'm happy how I am now. Out of school. Loving boyfriend. Cool friends
Elizabethhteba
ChoklitFondu: If you think it sucks, then it's your opinion...I don't really mind
ChoklitFondu: We have always had trouble being friends....so, I don't really care what you think
Elizabethhteba
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ChoklitFondu: I guess
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ChoklitFondu: I really don't think I trashed my life
ChoklitFondu: I think I will have fun
Elizabethhteba
Brr!
Darkness was so-so.
Christmas effin' rocked.
Shaun loved the card and picture I gave him.
His mom is doing better.
I'm in the clear.
This stuff tastes alright.
Can I pull it off again?
New spot.
Wes?
It's cold.
Will she still love me?
I have no cigarettes.
Drunken Sex! Yeehaw!
Why did he leave me and not tell me?
Fingers are cold.
Next Show?
I wonder what's on t.v.
My back hurts.
Curious.
Lilu.
Was she fucked up?
What's going on with you?
I'm finished.
Stop talking to me.
Thoughts Through My Head All Day.
Ok, onto a more serious diary entry.
Last nights was shit.
DJ IRENE ROCK THE FACE OF THE EARTH!
:)
Anyways, hopefully, if my boyfriend ever gets his ass over here I'm going to go hang out with him and Jackie.
Hopefully a day set for fun.
I get to house sit on Thursday in this awesome big house in this nice ass neighborhood.
I can't wait. The house will be all mine.
I'll probably just end up being a lonely little shit, though.
Last night, I realized alot of new things. No matter how much fun you have it's always going to be in that same boring old place no matter where you are.
It's hard to explain, you just have to feel it.
It makes me want to reconsider alot of things. Friendships, relationships, future relationships, school, work, and life.
When you start thinking about it, it's like, "Why keep living? What are you even living for?" and you don't know, you just keep living it.
It hurts my head, I can't wrap my mind around it.
So I just zone out to my favourite shows.
What I've always done, I've just gotten extra accostumed to it lately.
Meh.
Oh, and by the way, Faith, you're the one who said you couldn't wait to "see my punk ass" at the show. So, by most people's standards, that means you want to fight, but since violence is "shit" I guess you don't fight, even though you bucked up to me when I wasn't looking. Chicken Shit.
It's your problem, not mine, I learned that shit will be talked as long as you live, if you give a fuck then you care too much what people think about you. However, if you don't care what's being said about you, you will find out who your true friends are.
Remember that and stop being whiney.
Written about Saturday 2004-11-20
Written: (7870 days ago)
O-M-G
Last night was so f-ing cool
Went to the skatepark.
I was greeted by a very excited Drew.
We awaited my friend and the stuff.
SO MUCH SHROOMS!
We went and ate them.
Jackie almost blew trying to eat them.
Probably why they kicked in so fast for her.
I sat up on the half-pipe with Shaun.
My heart was beating so fast and I was lying perfectley still.
I started talking to my friend about different kinds of shrooms and ecstasy.
Chocolate Mushrooms(Chocolate bars)- sounds like a must try
Jackie started tripping hard. Drew and Ed started messing with her and asking me what she was afraid of.
Then she got so scared and started running off for no reason. I ran after her so I wouldn't lose her and she ran even faster.
She thought I was a sand demon or something.
I was a little peeved at the fact I still wasn't tripping as hard so we finished the whole bag.
Jackie gave hers away.
Everything started getting so funny and when I walked I could feel every bump and hill in the ground.
Shaun sat down with me at the table and Brendan,Matt, and Carl were on the other side talking about beer.
Everytime I tried to kiss him I started laughing. I would close my eyes and see a rainbow marquee across my eyelids.
This guys walks past who's liek someones dad or something. He's carrying milk jugs. THE MILK MAN! Shaun was like, seriously, who is that, what's he doing? I was like, Selling his milk, duh! He's the milk man. Uncontrollable laughter.
Then we wanted to go find Jackie and she was under the little pavillion thing with Max.
That's when it hit me to the fullest extent.
I started chewing on my sleeve and saying the stupidest things. I looked at the trees and the were out of focus and shaking uncontrollably
We walked a little more and the ground started breathing. There were faces in the clouds. I saw George Clooney.
Samantha came up to us. She was green. The question on everybodies minds...Why Is Samantha Green?
haha.
We went off into the feild(jackie and I).
The grass had unimaginable designs and colors.
The color of the grass was indescribable. Mauvey, redish, greenish, purpley, whatever.
AWESOME!
Then it was time to go...Jackie was hungry..as we were leaving, I noticed the ground was bleeding.
Before I closed the door to the car, I looked at the sky and saw a happy kitty. It was beautiful.
Riding in a car was so weird. You're sitting in one place, yet moving at the same time.
We went down the valley to McDonalds.
COLORS EVERYWHERE!!!
SO BRIGHT!
So beautiful.
Truly gorgeous.
I thought I would never stop laughing in mcdonalds. Anyone in there who didn't know we were on something must have been an idiot.
It was so incredibly obvious.I couldn't eat worth shit.
My face was red from laughing. My eyes were bloodshot from crying because of laughter.
My burger had lemonpepper.
I ended up disecting my meal instead of eating it.
Shaun's friends were there. I felt so bad for him. We must have embarrassed the hell out of him.
We went to Jackie's and lyed around in the bed and Jackie accidentley gave it away that she was on shrooms to her brother. He wasn't as mad as we thought he'd be. He was really dissapointed, though.
Jackie's ceiling caved in on me. There was an owl.
There are no owls this side of texas.
I will never look at things the same. I had a great time.
Jackie and I will always remember McDonalds for as long as we both shall live:)
Don't go Jackie, you're all I have going for me.
Written about Tuesday 2004-11-16
Written: (7875 days ago)
Yay!
Isn't That Some Fancy Shit?
On the fucking City Of Waco Phone Book.
Hahahaha.
Attention Span........it
Written about Friday 2004-11-05
Written: (7886 days ago)
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ChoklitFondu: christmas sucks the ass
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ChoklitFondu: because you love it
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ChoklitFondu: poor people can't enjoy christmas
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ChoklitFondu: presents are for mexicants
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ChoklitFondu: and coke!
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ChoklitFondu: no coke,ok, sorry
ChoklitFondu: and METH
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ChoklitFondu: and CRACK! in my veins
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ChoklitFondu: ok,....maybe alittle christmas log
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ChoklitFondu: ok a little burbon
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ChoklitFondu: that magic is created with drugs alcohol and blow jobs
ChoklitFondu: and don't you forget that
ChoklitFondu: ever
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ChoklitFondu: no you don't
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ChoklitFondu: no you don't
ChoklitFondu: because I'm buying you a christmas present
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ChoklitFondu: no, of course not...that little toy train you've always wanted
ChoklitFondu: that leaves tracks in your arms
wesmokeasweste
ChoklitFondu: hehe
John Collins Is My Baby Boy!
Nigga
Straight Up
You Love Sam.
You Love What's In Sam's Pants.
hehe
<3 [The hercules of hate]
Written about Thursday 2004-11-04
Written: (7887 days ago)
I hold your hand in the dark, close my eyes, you're so cold, I remember that feeling, I want someone new, someone old
I Hate Putting On A Smile For You.
Let Me Be Any.
Emotions Are Overrated.
Uhmm....
THE STORY
Saturday-Mall-"Peace-man" bought us food because he is one of the nicest persons in the world. We were poor. He bought us Wendy's. We ate outside. Awaiting our ride to Marlin. Little did we know the night was set for DANGER! Jon arrived and Piece man walked us to the car. I sat front seat because I was smoking.
Jon's cd player was on the fritz. Lights faded. Cds, Radio, all kept cutting off. We fiddled with it. I tried to get my favourite cd to play that I had JUST gotten back from Heather's car. It wouldn't work. Another cd seems to work. We listen to that. All this while we forget our seatbelts. Jon doesn't. I zone off as I usually do in cars. Driving for about twenty minutes out on open road. I notice red lights and a white car. Salem mentions something to Jon. I turn to see what she has said. The white car is heading straight toward us. Everything slows way down. As I get thrown across the front seat onto Jon and the airbag goes off into my ribs and the stick stabs into my knee I remember, I've seen this before, somewhere, in a dream a long time ago. All day, Salem and I had been saying we felt like something bad was going to happen. All Day I had felt like I was going to trip and fall. I was cautious. Not enough(idiot). The car stops moving. I get up, freaked out. There were no screams from either car. I think. Of course I didn't even hear the impact. I just suddenly realized it was all too real. Jon hops out of the car and begins to call people. I sit there for a second and collect myself. My foot is pinned, I noticed smoke, I can't breathe. My ribs hurt. I look around. Salem's not moving. I immediately start to sob. I jump out of the window. I'm too weak to kick open the doors. I bang the back windshield screaming Salem's name crying desperately. I notice there's still smoke in the car. Worried for her health, I start screaming at people around me to free her from the trunk/backseat
My ankle was broken. Yeah right.
I had many visitors. I called Brandi first. She didn't answer her cell, I assumed she was asleep. I called Faith. She had no idea what my condition was. She freaked out. She called Connor, too, aswell as Brandi. Connor, Carl, Brendan, and Chris showed up twenty minutes later. Connor, slightly "irish", had some fun with my bed pan. I was on pain killers. I barely remember that visit. Or any others for that matter. Anyways, That's the story.
There was absolutely no drinking that night. Everyone was completely sober. No drugs either. I don't know why that's going around the school.
Oh, well. People are misinformed.
By the way, Jackie was not on drugs when she fell down the stairs either. It's called an asthma ATTACK. It attacked her and she passed out and fell down the stairs. No drugs, no alcohol.
That's it.
Ok, I just figured everyone was wondering so I told the story of the car wreck and a vague story of Jackie. Since I wasn't there and all. Poor Jackie, I had just seen her a whole couple of minutes ago then at 4 in the morning I hear she's a couple of rooms away from me with a neck brace.
Scary.
I'm on some pain killers right now, I think I'm going to go save my energy for Salem tomorrow.
Thanks if you stopped by and/or brought me something. Some people I didn't get to heartfully thank because I wasn't fully aware of the fact that they were "there". I don't know. It's weird.
Okay, I'm really going now.
Hoped you liked the story.
Farewell.
Still sick...
I'm getting better
headaches aren't quite as horrible
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i hate missing school
nothing to do
no one to talk to
:'(