god damn it... why does life have to be soo confusing... im in a void of emotions... and i doubt nethin i dream up will ever happen...... why do i not know what to do.... and why am i feeling this... i shouldnt be feeling this... why? cause its going to end in heart break as per usual... my messed up dreams and my fantasies of the mind... theyre screwing with me.... im just a puppet on a string... flung around, and then left once i get boring rhhhh! why am i even thinking this.... GET OVER IT ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN!!
uknow what i dont give a shit about him nemre got me a new admirer whos actaully not an arsehole... and hes better looking neway :P i dont have time to be sad im feelin fucking great! got a cool new lip ring.. and my hair is now clack with orange streaks tres cool!! hehehehe life is good feelin fine, despite a certain someone and its great ... more piercings very soo.. getting more in my ears and my nose done! and life is how i like it... mite invite this new guy done to peoples free houses very soon so watch this space!!!!
yup i jinxed it..... that lasted long didnt it............ fuck oh well this always happens to me i shud be used to it by now...........
things are great...... cept i am stuck at home all day and developing this strange claustrophobic feeling :S exams are fine me and jim are fine (well better than fine.... its been 5 days and already im missin him like crazy after not seein him for 2 dyas)
mayb im bein paranoid.. most of the wantage people will know what im on about :S
gaaa hwy does everything have to be so complicated...
its amazing how ur mood changes wen its sunny :) im nice and happy and not scary nemore hehehe things might just be lookingup just maybe.........
hey all, im not feel great at the mo why? i dunno its just one of those times again, if u kno me well wen if feeling ugly and unloved i go into these stages... why u ask. cause i found out that the only person who ever made me feel wanted, was just using me as a rebound.......