825164 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-16
Written: (7267 days ago)

KT Tunstall. - Heal Over.

It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday

821541 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (7274 days ago)

Arrggggh resisting the urge to call you and shout abuse down the phone at you. 10 deep breaths and counting back from what seems an age is not working. You make my skin crawl.. sorry guys. I'm venting. x

821537 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (7274 days ago)

_{I am a bit of a bint at times.

Can be described as wee bit quirky.

Slut is not a nice word, i prefer floozie.x

Jokes on ordinary people 'cuz it is ordinary people like you I laugh at.

Such a sugar addict.

Oh and I am such a fool.

I like to overuse the word 'SWEETIE' or call you 'Darling'.

I am starting to adopt a Buck's posh accent - be scared.

Fuck, Bastard and AssHat are regularily used in my vocabulary.

I feel naked without eyeliner and blush on.

Caffiene is a babe.

I laugh alot, usually at the most awkard times.

My friends's can only be described as as 'Magic'.

I drink... but recreational drugs and smoking bad!

I write in full English for a reason.

- My idea is that otherwise it is a complete and utter waste of my time doing it for 11 years of my life at school.

You don't have to like me and I don't have to like you.

Real common people annoy me, I'm a bit of a snob it seems.

I am a not Teenage pregnancy waiting to happen, use contraception people. If a condom scares you - your not ready to have sex.

I am particularily opinionated and with that comes stubborness.

I rant . . . alot.

I like having my boundaries.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.}

A good friend of mine described me as:

_{J - Jagged.

E - Eccentric.

S - Sarcastic.

S - Sultry.

I - Impious.

C - Controversial.

A - Austere.}

_{A - Aspiring.

N - Natty.

N - Nebulous.}

_{L - Legitimate

O - Original.

R - Retro.

R - Reawakened.

A - Amorous.

I - Insatiable.

N - Neutral

E - Echoed.}

Rebound.[#]

818288 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (7281 days ago)

God! I am totally going to miss you Mattie! Your are a total sweetie! I forgive you for leaving me and pissing off to New Zealand. It should be major fun for you... and i am expecting huggles when yo get back. Understand me you AssHat?!

816678 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-06-29
Written: (7284 days ago)

Sometimes I feel I should explain myself, when really you should just try to get to know me.

_{Hating:

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.

I like to sing... Though i can't.

I rant, sometimes a wee bit too much.

I am particularily stubborn at times.

I can feel a bit lonely.

I do bitch, in excess.

I have destructive tendancies sometimes to myself.

I can be agressive in a non-cute way.

I like drama, though not so much involving me.

I am a part-time insomniac.

I hate it when certain people don't respect my boundaries, which are often made quite clear *lol*.}

_{Loving:

My eyes... spanish eyes so I'm told.

My choice of friends, i am a good judge of character these days.

Parties with my bucks possi and almost geordie crew.

I like using the word 'SWEETIE' O.T.T.

I am very verbal with my body language.

I like flirting... so sue me.

I like having my boundaries.

I like my laugh... it's different.

I love winking.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

especially when they blow them back.

I like being a fool.

I like writing in my diary.

I like writing in general, crap! at grammar... still liking it though.

I like to draw, mostly hands 0_o .

I like it when when my friend's and family know exactly what I am thinking without voicing.

I like dancing... a new found love for bollywood it seems.}

He was in the habit of taking things for granted
Granted, there wasn't much for him to take
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder he'd never change
Tight fisted with his compliments, it didn't seem to bother him
that talk is even cheaper told in bulk
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder
He'd never change.
I know what I should get this time
She was in the habit of reapplying makeup
Makeup eaten up by crocodile tears
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder she'd never change
Overtly individual - covertly traditional
She couldn't seem to make up her mind
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder she'd never change

_{Gift Wrapped fwendies. - see what you mean to me : ]}

816667 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-06-29
Written: (7284 days ago)

CHERRY MONROE LYRICS

"Anything"

I feel your eyes on my back
Making the attack
Its easier to stab me
When i'm not looking
How could you do this to me?

I feel your skin on mine
This is our last goodbye
The hardest part of letting go
Are the things i'll never know
How could you do this to me?
How could you do this when...

Id do anything
Id do anything..anything..

For you i would die just to breathe you
For you i would scream just to hear you
For you i would burn just to feel you
I'm dying..i'm screaming

Till my last dying breath
I have fought til the end
Hear my ghost of truth
Let these words haunt you
How could you do this to me?
How could you do this wehn...

I'd do anything, id do anything...anything...

For you i would die just to breathe you
For you i would scream just to hear you
For you i would burn just to

You just turn and walk away
You just turn and walk away

And we fall
And we bleed
And we lie
And we cheat
Ive been cut too deep
Ive been losing sleep
Brought down to my knees
As i beg and plead
You just turn your back turn your back on...me

815183 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2006-06-27
Written: (7286 days ago)

_{Hating:

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.

I like to sing... Though i can't.

I rant, sometimes a wee bit too much.

I am particularily stubborn at times.

I can feel a bit lonely.

I do bitch, in excess.

I have destructive tendancies sometimes to myself.

I can be agressive in a non-cute way.

I like drama, though not so much involving me.

I am a part-time insomniac.

I hate it when certain people don't respect my boundaries, which are often made quite clear *lol*.}

_{Loving:

My eyes... spanish eyes so I'm told.

My choice of friends, i am a good judge of character these days.

Parties with my bucks possi and almost geordie crew.

I like using the word 'SWEETIE' O.T.T.

I am very verbal with my body language.

I like flirting... so sue me.

I like having my boundaries.

I like my laugh... it's different.

I love winking.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

especially when they blow them back.

I like being a fool.

I like writing in my diary.

I like writing in general, crap! at grammar... still liking it though.

I like to draw, mostly hands 0_o .

I like it when when my friend's and family know exactly what I am thinking without voicing.

I like dancing... a new found love for bollywood it seems.}

813028 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-06-23
Written: (7290 days ago)

I have one word - BOLLYWOOD - 'Tis amazing! Have had dos much fun dancing again, making up the dances for thr film Kuch uch hota Hai - been minted! But i am soooo tired and my legs hurt! alot! ... it's just been FUN Fun FUN!

810061 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-06-18
Written: (7295 days ago)

Father's day today.. BAH! I'm reading this book called the badmother's handbook. It is so tocuhing and makes me cry alot... yes more than 'the child called 'it'.'' - It's about a single woman living in london, fashinable, unable to keep a steady boyfriend, like's one of her clients, drinks etc. And then her best friend from highschool dies and now she is left with 2 young kids, as she is the guardian. Her life turned upside down and suddenly she finds she cannot do things that normally she could do. But i find that a bit like being a teenager, especially in the RAF. Uprooted and moved all the time, given responsibilities your not ready for, Havign a steady life that's almost enjoyable and then you find you have exams... a stressy shit head of boyfriend etc. I guess i am ranting but the book amazing!

Also a funny book or the girlies to read... where have all the boys gone? - amazing funny book (not a girly book either). But v.v.v.humerous!

807178 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-06-12
Written: (7301 days ago)

First day of year 13!!! whoop whoop! Though i feel so old... almost on the point of wrinklyness. Well there was literally no point me goin in to school today... i only have offically two lessons on a red monday... 1st 2 but psychology teacher did not turn up... and sociology teacher is away in france with year 7's. What is the fucking point! well happy teachers let me drop Pe! yay.... Mr Mccombe was actually nice about it. SHOCK HOrror!!!! o well.. bibi xx

806651 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-06-11
Written: (7302 days ago)

Be'cuz I am Just That Swanky.

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_{Moi . . . Oh My . . . Donkey Bollock's}

I got a heart full, of rubberbands
That keep... getting....caught on...things!
But I can't make me love you
And you can't make me either
Patience Boy I need it
I can't make me love you

There is
Something exciting about leaving everything behind
There is something
Deep and pulling leaving everything behind
Something about having everthing
You think you'll ever need
Sitting in the seat next to you

Gift wrapped.
This fire.
This note.
And put it in the ground.
And cover it up for later.
Dig a little joy.

Gift Wrapped fwendies.

Rebound.[#]

801496 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (7312 days ago)

Butterfly Boucher - I Can't Make Me

_{All the things I want to say but I can't

All the things I want to do but I won't

Hold me tight

Not too tight

I'm in knots and you tie me in bows

I feel pretty

I know that you care

You're so sweet

You're so so sweet

It's not a hurry that we're in

It's the pollen

It's the spring

I can't make me love you

And you can't make me either

Patience Boy I need it

I can't make me love yooooooou

Oh oh oh

Paper pen and a piece of your heart

I can read it but where do I start?

What to do

What do I do?

An I am going but I'm gonna come back

And maybe then, maybe this maybe that

Hold me tight

Not too tight

It's not a hurry that were in

There's no problem

That's the thing!

But I can't make me love you

And you can't make me either

Patience Boy I need it

I can't make me love yooooooou

Oooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Everyday there's something new to hold onto toooooooooo a little more of yoooooooouu

I Can't make me love you

And you can't make me either

Patience Boy I need it

I can't make me love yooooooou

Patience Boy on strange days

I can't make me love yooooooooouu

Oh oh oh}

801478 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (7312 days ago)

Butterfly Boucher, another white dash.

_{There is

Something exciting about leaving everything behind

There is something

Deep and pulling leaving everything behind

Something about having everthing

You think you'll ever need

Sitting in the seat next to you

And I watch

Another white dash

Another white dash

Another white dash

Fly beside us

And I watch

Another white dash

Another white dash

Another white dashFly beneath us

Away away

There is

Yelling of an engine a constant rattling door

There is serious

Deep and mumbles

A conversation I'm not it

Flickering lights

Shadows of trees

Makes me blink me eyes

Makes the land

Appear like a really old mooooooovie

And I watch

I got a heart fuuuuull, of rubberbaaaaands

That keep... getting....caught on...thiiiiiiiings

And I count

Another white dash

Another white dash

Another white dash

I drift off at eighty...something!

And I count

Another white dash

Another white dash

Another white dash

Out of time with the muuuusiiiiiiic!!}

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