spilling emotions onto bare pages... that just cry to be infected with my hate lol...
there is a reassurance here
that my words wont fall off
these lines holding me together
even if there is a war i can't win
theres a saftey net called 'you'
when there is no place called home
and only a shrowd to hold you
you'd still love me in ashes.....
got da dress got da dress!!! woot woot and i love it to bits!!!!! its a bodess with a long flowing skirt!!! very nice well i fink anyways!!!!!
to love....
growing louder and louder
in this silence i can't bare
heavier on thine shoulders
this weight will start to tear
what was once a loving heart
now tired seases its beats
for once you said you loved me
in a warm embrace in sheets
thats the last time i heard you breathe
now left long gone staring at my feet
for one more glance is heaven
i spill this tear for when we wont meet
hey agen... me and jas on break, and it sucks......... hes got a girl inviting him back to her house and shit.... and he talks about her ALOT it so sucks..... i fknk he likes him what do i do???????
i aitn wrote in ere for yonks!!!!!!!! lol how is my lil diary *strokes diary* prrrr...... sorry for neglecting you!!!! well me and jas are still togeva and we'v been thru the good and da bad and we are still managing lol!! bless us *sighs* .... well hmmmmmm my life has been a bit hectic recently revising for exams and stuff..... poor lil jason is ill and a miss him... gawd so pathetic my life is?!?!?!?! lol wb j xxxx
im in love!!!!!!!!!!
am feelin ok compared 2 the last cuple days, skewl found out d@ i felt suicidal n rang home tellin ppl, am not particularly happy bowt d@ cos all i get now is "are you ok?" like they even care. but i majorly miss my lad, i neva did wit ne1 b4 but all i wanna do is sit n jus tlk wit him!!!!!!!! o well doesnt mattr neway!!!!!!! xxxx
am feelin way bttr 2day... bin @ work tho ... n sum1 rang me @ 9:30 which really annoyed me !!!! but apart from d@ i feel way bttr!!!!
life was really gd 2 dayz ago i realised d@ sum1 wasnt as bad as they seemd... their gr8 i wont mention him cos he mit not want me 2 mention it!!!! tho we did hav a gr8 time n hes a cool dude.... he even made me feel kinda ok wit myself, i felt comfortable... n i went 2 a party n havin a laff i went 2 the toilets lukd in the morror and for sum odd reason i burst in2 tears now i feel shitter than eva!!!! i jus wish i culd b normal n stop bein a freak and control myself!!!!! i kno i sound paffectic but no1s on so i hav 2 do summit or am gonna burst! well cya's all neway luv jessy xxxxxxx
life is shit!!! y is it everytime i write in ere its depressin stuff. neway... i wish i culd trust myself 2 reveal myself but am scared id scare the shit outta myfriends.. it always brings me down... i need sum1 2 tlk to bt the only ppl that kno and understand are manicaly depressd as well so they got problems of their own...i loathe myself so much for wot ive done etc... n the worst thing is i kinda feel sorry for myself but i want it all 2 end!!!
lads suck!!!! but we suck bttr
i jus preformd come back columbus @ the play house gr8 fun teachin 7yr olds 2 tap dance lol!!!!!!!!! x x x x
i hate manic depression!!!!
im feelin gd @ the mo im single n on the flirt lol!!!!!!! yay!!
im feelin like crap!!!!!!!! cos i lead sum1 on~!!!oppppsss
im gd...but my m8 isnt so bless ehr it all cos of this shitty lad....who cant keep hold of his fone xwbx lol
loads bttr i hav bin randomly cryin n doin shittty stuff o well...but now so happy!!!!!!!!!
im still feelin gud infact gr8 lol
xxwbxx
hey peeps life preety gud jusst now im babysittin me m8 who is the same age as me !!!!hehehehehe bitch nah i luv ya babez hehehe it cos im round her house !!!!! Im sleepin round ere!!!! see ya l8r lasses xxxxxxxxxxxxx