life was really gd 2 dayz ago i realised d@ sum1 wasnt as bad as they seemd... their gr8 i wont mention him cos he mit not want me 2 mention it!!!! tho we did hav a gr8 time n hes a cool dude.... he even made me feel kinda ok wit myself, i felt comfortable... n i went 2 a party n havin a laff i went 2 the toilets lukd in the morror and for sum odd reason i burst in2 tears now i feel shitter than eva!!!! i jus wish i culd b normal n stop bein a freak and control myself!!!!! i kno i sound paffectic but no1s on so i hav 2 do summit or am gonna burst! well cya's all neway luv jessy xxxxxxx
life is shit!!! y is it everytime i write in ere its depressin stuff. neway... i wish i culd trust myself 2 reveal myself but am scared id scare the shit outta myfriends.. it always brings me down... i need sum1 2 tlk to bt the only ppl that kno and understand are manicaly depressd as well so they got problems of their own...i loathe myself so much for wot ive done etc... n the worst thing is i kinda feel sorry for myself but i want it all 2 end!!!
lads suck!!!! but we suck bttr
i jus preformd come back columbus @ the play house gr8 fun teachin 7yr olds 2 tap dance lol!!!!!!!!! x x x x
i hate manic depression!!!!
im feelin gd @ the mo im single n on the flirt lol!!!!!!! yay!!
im feelin like crap!!!!!!!! cos i lead sum1 on~!!!oppppsss
im gd...but my m8 isnt so bless ehr it all cos of this shitty lad....who cant keep hold of his fone xwbx lol
loads bttr i hav bin randomly cryin n doin shittty stuff o well...but now so happy!!!!!!!!!
im still feelin gud infact gr8 lol
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hey peeps life preety gud jusst now im babysittin me m8 who is the same age as me !!!!hehehehehe bitch nah i luv ya babez hehehe it cos im round her house !!!!! Im sleepin round ere!!!! see ya l8r lasses xxxxxxxxxxxxx
feelin pretty gud bout myself tho is still findin it hard ta let my past out lol
gtg now has ne1 sin nip tuck>??? if u havent u shuld!!!!!
cya all!!!!
im still findin it really hard ta trust ppln i fink i may need ta go bck ta anger managment as i keep gettin the erge ta smack sum1 for little pettty fings help me !!!!!
im feelin down n depresssd... i need a happy pill n need plastic surgery ta fix this damn ugly body!!! i need a lad n well theres nuffin i can do bout it!!!! im fed up with complete tossers who just use ppl i need commitment!!!!
dont u h8 it wen ppl stare @ ya!!!! i fuckin do i always wonder if they're takin da piss or summit!!! well it pisses me off....apart from d@ im ok.....but i need a tab cos i can smell one!!!! :*(
o well lifa a shit!!!!
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who the hell does adelle fink she is stupid cow...msgin me all the time havin ago @ me n i dont even kno her d@ well ... i dont even kno wot she havin ago @ me 4??? so tell me adelle wot fuckd up plan have you got install 4 me??? i hope its silent treatment ive had enough of ur gob!!!
hey peepss im happy cos dint go ta skewl ta day...bus dint cum so i went wen all the ova ppl went home. den me mam made me go ta the bus stop n wait on me bill fuckin bitch shes a rite cow now d@ dads got back. i wish dad wuld just piss off back ta iraq...it woz so much bttr wivout him!!! me n me mam were well gud friends till he had ta cum n fhinish our bloody gr8 friendship!!!! BASTARD!!!! but on bttr terms im tryin ta fink who i got the ova valentines card/ e-mail from .... if u read dis den tell me!!!!if its u?!?!?!?! i neeed ta kno...i kno who one is off dis lad who knows i wont go out wiv him!!! u kno who u are cos ya got C.Presley ta ask me out 4 ya!!!
im not relli a heartless bitch just ya not my type !!k
well luv ya all neway
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feelin blue cos i aint luvd...but ill get over it how r u all neway????? need a vodka n coke ta cheer me up so ill b back sun!!!
xxbye allxxx