...thats all ive got to say...what a bitch...

Those who dont think clearly really get on my nerves

all of you, painting your future, as if it were on the canvas before you

you cannot live for the furture, nore the past, you live for today, and only today

what will you do if you die, tomorrow, huh? right, you'll sit there and say "Shit, why did i spend all that fuckign time thinking of my future, and things i want, instead of livign for today, and following life's main stream". You're all fucking morons. Life is too short to be worried about all that shit, especially even before you've made it on your own. I dont call this being 'mature' i call it being blinded from the truth...

Hurtign others...you think you can get away with it? darkness which falls upon a heart will soon come to consume it, you know? so why be the center of it?

trying to act your age...? whats wrong with actign younger than we are? being as we are young adults, doesnt mean we have to forget what it was like to run around, playing tag--and living life. Did you ever sit there, as a child, and beat down on ones heart? Is that what is means to be an adult? than i might aswell stay a child...

anyone got any bullshit to say to me? send me a message.

OMG, SCHOOL!! OMG IM AT SCHOOL!!

HOLY SHIT IM AT SCHOOL!!! AND IM ON ELFTOWN!!!

o_o hmm...simple mathematical equasions...

Greg Ayres... + Ryan O'donohue... = a very happy shi-chan...

I dotn mean Yaoi-ness, im just sayin...those guys are my two favorite voice actors, ever! how i wish i could sit with both of them in the same room O-O falls over, twitching and drooling* sadly, that is yet a dream, and shall never happen...but that doesnt mean i still cant love them both to death!! >D squeeee!!! *Goes on a fangirl rampage*

confused yet, bitches?

RYAN O'DONOHUE!!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ryan_O%27Donohue

LAST ONE ON THE FIRST LIST!! BOO YAH!!

Demyx = love ... any Demy art for me? =3

DEMYX FANDOM!!!!!

omg school....

HOSHIT IM ON ET AT SCHOOL!! XD AWESOMENESS!!!

I am now [Erubeus]'s new pet Squirrely poo! =D

anyone who be's the shi's friend, MUST know of her Saru-chan, [Not Anymore] and MUST know that they MUST comment!!: Rikki is... GO THERE!

I met greg...it was awesome...he's gay...

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OMG YES!!!!! HIS BOYFRIEND IS SO HOT!!! *luffs on Monkey* SQUEEE!! I GOT TO DANCE WITH MONKEY AT THE DANCE!!! EEEE!!!

*holds up a sign, that says: "I SUPPORT GREG AND MONKEY!"*

Rawr!! im so amp'd! im so excited! Ohayo-con this weekend, baby!! >D im leaving in the middle of school thursday! YES! O>.<o best christmas gift EVER!!! now i just gotta make sure [Feroku] has the okay to go. =D YAAAAAY!! GREG AYRES, HON, HERE I COME

YES, I am a HUGE Greg fan...have a problem with it? well, as they say, "Fook you!". Greg Ayres is my model in voice acting! and he is very kind and sweet (before you ask, yes, i HAVE met him, so fook off ><) *swoon* i love him. If i even decide to go into voice acting, i want to work for adv films! just like him!!

Faith Hill. 'Like we never loved at all'

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life

Chorus:
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
(Leavin' us behind)
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is baby yeah
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

Chorus:
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

Did you forget the magic...ohh
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss meeeee....

Ohhhh ohohh ohh Baby, baby

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved...at all....

This is how im feeling with now, On christmas eve. Those of you who have known me for a while, you'll know who im thinking about. But dont get me wrong, Im happy wirh Rikki and Jack--happier than ive ever been... Ive just been thinking too much. again.

This diaryt entry if for one special friend i have, who's always been there no matter how bad i treated her in the past. Ive said it a million times, but, shit, all this stuff is going to change, starting with one letter.

[Vou], my "little annoying friend who sat at my front door one morning constantly rining my doorbell for hours", i know how much ive treated you so badly over the few years, and by gods i hate myself for it the more i think about it--so the best way to solve this problem, is to stand my lazy ass up and make a change! I'll send that damn letter, just as soon as i can...in...some way...ill find a way, damnit! X-X Im serious! I'll spill my heart out--Im not known for doing that very well, but ill do it. I'll tell your parents im sorry for all that ive done to you, and all that ive put them through! I just hope to the stars that they open up and can forgive me--more than i can forgive myself. You've been an awesome friend to me--more than all the friends ive ever had in Ohio. You've ALWAYS been there for me, and you've comforted me through thousands of my little 'issues' and you've also helped me through alot of the bad stuff--and you've put up with my childish whining ways <<; aaand my tough-love...aaaaaand my being picky with your stuff...aaand, well, the list goes on...It just means so much to me. And yeah, sure, i used to have a crush on you, but dont think thats why im doing all of this, i mean, I love you to death, Hige, and i would seriously put all of my power into protecting you, like you did so well with me, though i didnt really let you see it--i was too "head-strong" <<;. But most of all, you've forgiven me, and you've stayed my friend--and I am going to keep trying untill the day you and I can, once more, go hang out, and we wont have to keep it a secret from our parents, and getting in trouble if we're caught. I hate thinking that it's MY fault we have to do all this- but not anymore. All of this is going to change, and for the better--no matter how long it takes me.

I love you, Hige--you're really my best best friend here in Ohio, and I miss talking to you, and laughing along with you and "Zeak" (lol). This is just a small token of my gratitude--hopefully, it will grow much, much larger, as time goes on.

~Hopefully, still, you're best friend,

Shalissa, AKA, [Shishiru]

wahahaha..ha....ha...... ._.

*dances*

The outside world is taunting me. I hope tomoarrow goes so much better! I want someone to come up to me, and actually be happy to see me, happy that im alive! i want more than a 'good morning' or a 'hello' I want them to miss me, to hugs me, to tell me a bigger hello than just a boring old greeting! I need...I dont know...I need something, and it's a strong need! i need to feel...something...I dont know...I feel so...Ordinary, unimportant, unloved, like trash, like nobody notices the real me! I want to have a good day tomarrow, because theres no way to change that part--My shitty begining to the day! it's in the past, and i want a better future damnit!!

MWAHAHAHAAAA!!! IVE DONT IT!!!!!



I have SUCCESSFULLY opened a PIXIE STICK with just my MOUTH and no SCIZZORS!!! MWAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!!! FEAR TEH SHIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!

horray for finding out new URL... o.o

My old life as i know it is gone. I must start anew. No longer can i keep up, im running as fast as i can, but triping up has caused all whom i know to run ahead of me. Im left behind, with no one to help pick me up. Im left alone, and no body cares. I dont see them anymore, they've gotten far ahead, i cant see thier faces anymore, even when i try my best. My eyes are clouded by the fact they are too busy for the likes of me. Jobs, friends, lovers, all the more reason ive been kicked when im down, and left in the dirt. Im always here, alone, wasting my life away, and they dont seem to care or worry about me at all anymore. I cannot speak to them, they've moved on so quickly my words cannot reach them. I know not of which they speak...Im alone...i guess thats how they thought of my in the begining...just a small child, wandering in the dark, searching for love and attention...I guess that is what i am, and forever will be...Thanks guys...Im still in the dark, waiting for one of you to turn a smile my way, and hold out a hand, bring me out of my home, and into the light of the outdoors...In all other words...None of my friends i know i can ever truly communicate with anymore...but thanks anyway, all of you...you're probably bored with reading this...so go on, and life your life, and be happy...but do remember how you watched me fall, crying out your names, calling you up-even on a telephone, wanting to see your faces once more, wanting to hang out, wanting to go somewhere with the people i love...Ive even traveled far and dangerous distances for one of you whom may read this, and if you think back on the person you've hurt you'll remember me, and clal me crazy once more for my action...but you've been too busy...with your life...Remember my voice as i cry...This wont change much...but i can try, cant i? Im in pain, and not from a scrapped knee. No. My heart has been torn apart by your actions...some of you need not apply to all my rantings...but...Im more than just another person you've left behind...Im another heart...and another friend...lost and alone, left in my house to rot...thank you...