anyways... today.. slightly depressed... i actually cried during 4th period.. I DON'T CRY!
my friend amy is a psycho bitch who has been yelling at me for no apparent reason all week.
I only have a month left of high school, the 12 years it's taken me to get to this point in my life... and i'm depressed about it. no more lunch with my friends... no more sleeping in computers class... no more fights in the hallways... no more seeing them every day. *sighs* i dunno what to do... i want to spend my last month in happiness with them... but amy keeps FUCKING IT ALL UP!
*huggs teddy bear and chews it's ear*

i love my dave, today i kept thinking about him. am i slowly going insane becaus eof love? or am i finally feeling the emotions i always wanted... i dunno.
I act as happy as i can for him, but it's ubber hard. I'm not all together. I guess that after my father raped me, a part of me died. But i think i actually found someone that brought my heart back to me, all sewed up and everything.
... dave nappi...
*sighs* he's all i ever wanted and more! he's what i searched for...
i thought i had found my soulmate... but i was wrong, i just found someone that looked appealing on the outside... yes, i'm talking about rob. i thought i loved him, i even thought we were soulmates... but i was wrong. how can you think someone is your soulmate, if you don't even know your own soul? that was my problem.
BUT I'm POSITIVE THIS TIME!
*spins around on one foot clutching heart* i...
*stops* can i even say love... it's not the feeling i thought it was... i'll save this word.. for when i do find out. *places the love in pocket*