I've been busy today working on this thing for work, like putting a contest on a website. It's pretty basic but just kind of tedious. Hopefully it will done before too long then I can work on a video.
I didn't really like what I was trying with the new wiki. I just don't know where else to take the story. I just need to think about it some more. I will come up with something ...
I've had no energy today for some reason, went out and did a couple of errands earlier, but other than that I've been sleeping all day but I'm up now, trying to get going. I want to work on a song, tried to play but I couldn't get into it. I just need to wake up some more.
I didn't want to post this here, but I can't really articulate it, but I do see things in my story that reflect an attitude of vilifying certain things that shouldn't be vilified over others if that makes sense. Really I'm not trying to make the story that way, I just need to be cognizant. Hopes this makes sense. I'll work more on this later tonight after work, work on the story, not just talking to myself.
Got to work on the story some more. I have to think of how I want to approach it though. I think if I make it too much of a monster movie so to speak, it would become kind of mindless. On the other extreme though, I don't want to turn it into a Sherlock Holmes story where he bursts everyone's bubble at the end. I have to find a balance somewhere.
I realize my story's gone off track. I didn't want to make it into a monster movie per se, I just couldn't think of anything else at the time. I think I can get it back on track though, got something partly figured out. I just need some more coffee first though.
I used last.fm for a little while a couple of years ago but it kind of sucked back then. It's improved a lot since then, but now it has all these songs in my top playlist I don't even listen to, but they show up because back then the playlists were so short the same songs would get played over and over. I like it a lot now though, its improved greatly.
I had a dream that was kind of cool:
http://beam.to
For some reason I haven't been able to remember dreams recently, but this one came back to me, hopefully that's a good sign. I know there was more to it. I have learned that dream journalling, ( just like anything else ) if I do it regularly I get better at it and remember the dreams more extensively.
I want to work on a song, but I don't feel very well right at the moment, don't really want to get up and move around, but hopefully I will feel better in a while and then I will work on something.
I'm just waking up, listening to some music and having some coffee. I'm reading some of the book mentioned in a previous post, went back to the beginning to re-read because its a different version. After that I'm going to work on a video. Got to get the sleep out of my eyes.
I'm drinking some coffee, trying to wake up. I woke up a while ago, but kind of sat in bed listening to Coast to Coast, coincidentally they were talking about Bob Lazar, although Bob Lazar himself wasn't there. Apparently he was supposed to call in but couldn't for some reason, but Gene Huff and John Lear answered calls about the Lazar story. It was a pretty good show.
I added a couple entries to my dream journal. They're lame but feel free to have a read.
Still reading a book someone suggested, it's good but esoteric. I guess with books of that nature I'm used to the author trying to present a case, but that's not really what this author's trying to do. It took me some time to realize that. I need to reread the early chapters. It's a fascinating book though.
I'm also doing some Spring cleaning at 2:48 AM. I'm not tired for some reason. Maybe a little, but I'm listening to Coast to Coast and the guest is interesting to me.
I can't say where the story is going, but I can at least say I didn't leave it the same way that I found it. That at least gives a reason to keep writing it.
I don't want anybody to get the wrong idea bout my story. I'm not the level headed main character, trust me. I'm the idiot truck driver or the caller on the radio.
I've been having a strange experience. Ever since the version 4 beta of my browser came out, version 3 has been crashing. I don't know if it could be classified as paranormal, but clearly there is some diabolical presence at work. I should have thought differently than to take the forbidden apple.
I read something insightful tonight. Maybe I was reading too much into it, but I feel I got something out of it anyway. Creative expression is a way of calming oneself and finding peace. It's not just a way of drumming up emotions and displacing them onto others. To do the latter is immature and also it's not being honest with oneself because that regard or disregard is an ulterior motive, and that ulterior motive just makes one like a cheap copy of oneself. Anyway that's how I see it.
Haven't been able to do much today because of a project. Basically our billing person quit so his jobs got distributed to everyone else. I have the task of calling people to let them know their credit card was declined. I'm going to get to about halfway through the list then I'll finish the rest tomorrow. I still want to work on my story tonight and maybe put up a video later.
I don't want to substitute words for action, but I feel this needs to be said. I wasn't truthful yesterday, I wasn't doing my best. I understand why posting a song like that would elicit certain comments and certain comparisons. I extend the olive branch now and vow not to put up things that aren't honest, regardless of how limited my scope that might be. Limited scope is not a bad thing, it's a challenge to be more creative, not an excuse to put up crap. That's all I wanted to say.
Thanks
I had a cup of coffee and feel better now. I have to be expressive instead of letting feelings fester. I can get over myself.