Dear diary,

   Im driving myself freaking nuts just stepping out the door and thinking, "WHY IN THE HELL DIDN'T I GET MY PERMITT OR TRY TO GET MY LICENSE SOONER I AM SUCH A MORON!!!!!! I SWEAR TO GOD IT'S DRIVING ME BONKERS AND IS PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH!!!!!!!AND ALL BECAUSE I FELT THE MANUAL WAS TO FUCKING LONG TO READ AND ANNOYING BECAUSE TO ME I SLOWLY HAVE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT PEOPLE SAY AND WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT!!!

-CERES-_____-*SCREAMING INTO PILLOW*

Dear Diary,

    I know I'm not always wise and there when it comes to talking to some people and understanding what they're talking about so much, but I do care. My sister makes a better person who talks to people and tries to help them out person than I do. some times I feel like I want to and try to act like my sister. It is every hard to explain for me to say how and why I find Theresa is one of the people whom I want to be like. Every time i be my self, people make so many annoying comments and look at me funny. it drives me crazy. the thing is it's always been so hard to do the things I want to do with out feeling embarassed and paranoid. i so badly just don't want to care, but I do. *mummbles to self* ya ya all part of growing up blaablaaabbblllaaa. I miss John I still can't help, but feel so jealous of him and yes I have adimitted it to him, an d i don't care if I spelled that word wrong. It's my diary I can do what ever I want. I love you johnny so much. every morning I am always so afraid that I won't see you in the morning as in going to where my friends and you meet. i want to be with you for a long time. I have alraedy written a paragraph haha. I can't wait until I talk to you again. i love you Johhny. Well, I don't really feel liek typing any more to my diary or journal what ever the things called. later! I LOVE JOHNNY SO MUCH!
           <3 Skittles

Why must men have crushes on me now?, as in as a teenager, why not when I was little? Was too ugly and annoying when i was little? Only god knows why. Is it that I have changed my looks now from when I was little, especially my additude? Only God knows. I can't draw this stupid hand the way I want to draw it it's stressing me out. Stupid stress. It is a part of life. I feel so annoyed right now. my life right now so doesn't make sense to me right now. it's because of all the stupid thinking, I don't know to find a way in releasingthe feelings i hold and may be it's because long ago, I used to be a jerk to others and was acting like a very selfish and annoying girl. I hope I hae changed a little since then. <3 Skittles

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm seeing the new Harry Potter movie Wednesday :D !!! It will be so awsume!! lol evil spelling.....*hiiissssssssssssssssssssssssssss* I don't care if I spelled hisssssss wrong! Ya I am indeed bored at this time, but soon I will not for i will watch DN Angel soon and I will laugh harder than I ever laughed before and no one shall stop me no one LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^ Otay I'm finished Hehehehehehheheheheheheheheh. <

I must be the most boring person right now. There is like not a lot of excitement in my life except for the fact that i have a bf. my mom bought me two new white shirts today and there is only one that look like a t-shirt I admire greatly. My friend is tryin to find me on here now. LOL, she says she wants to stock me lol!!!!(as j/k) I really need to do something on the website. I am still a newbie though meeeeehhhhhhhhhh...LOL I took 2-3 naps today. I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight. Oh wells. I was planning on randomly playing basketball today, but then people came over and we had a party. She found me finally and seems confused.     
I shall talk later! byes!<3 Skittles