i swear to god i hate boys it's like they try so hard to piss you off just because they know they can. i hate it soooooooo much. i swear if i ever break up with mi boyfriend that i have now im giving up on guys and keeping to girls... yea i know i say that but i most likely wont i love guys too much to give up on them just because of one stupid one.

i've been really thinking about alot this past two or three weeks... the other day i went to counciling and i told mi counciler about the letter i wrote mi mom....(how i was feeling and how pissed i am at her and how nothing she can ever say or do will let me forgive her)and she never wrote back wich is kinda really surprising because usually she would have responded to something like that like she sticks up for her self all the time when people argue with her or anything like that but now i dont think she has as much balls as i thought she did. it's finally dawning on me that she really isnt as strong as i always thought she was. i just never knew she had a weekness but now i do know wat it is and im gonna take advantage of that and hopefully pay her back for all those things she's done to me in mi past not only me but mostly but also for mi little brother aaron. but also i kinda gotta thank her for doing all that to me too because she brought me and mi brother closer then anyone could ever be i love mi brother with everything i have i would do anything for him <3