Mood: Pensive
Music: I want to be sedated by the ramones
time: 6:05 pm

Well I went cliff jumping yesterday. It was a lot of fun. It was freezing though. I got sick. I've been laying in my bed all day. It sux. I hate being sick. I feel so week and helpless. I hate not being in control of my own body even when it comes to physical health. But, it was very much worth it. This will probably be the last time I go till next summer. grrr

I have to start school again tomorrow. I go to a year around school which means we have 2 week breaks periodically through out the year. I really do want to go back. I hate it. Back to the oh so bitchy, terribly trendy preps who think that their whole gole in life is to get laid as many times as possible with out getting caught or pregnant and then brag about their whory life styles to the rest of the world. Not to mention they hate me cause I'm not afraid to tell them off, and I do so many times a day. lol. Hey, maybe I will have fun tomorrow. lol.

Anyways...that's pretty much all that's on my mind today. peace out

Mood: a bit depressed
Music: some song by the gorrilaz, dont know the name...there's a big head in the video....anyways...
time: 12:38 pm

Well, I just woke up about an hour ago. Me and marysa stayed up all night talking about stuff till like 3 in the morning. I still pretty tired.

I kind of think that I get my hopes up to easily. Certain things have been happening lately that make me wish I wasn't as stand offish as I am. Because of my past, I'm a little afraid to get close to a person. Especially a person of the opposite sex. Only a few know everything about my past. Like Marysa and josh for instance. So they are kind of worried. But, I don't even know if I or they have anything to worry about now. But....I guess we will see...
Vague yes...that's how I like it.

Today, I have to take Marysa home and we have decided to jump in the lake even though the water is freezing. It's going to be great. brrr. hehehe.

anyways, that's pretty much it for today. peace out

Mood: scared shitless
Time: 12:14 am
music: none

Scared, don't want to say why cause this is a public diary thingy. Shit shit shit!!!! AAAAAAAH! I really don't know what to do. peace out

Mood: sleepy
Music: the buzz of computer
time: 1:30 pm

I am very sleepy. But Nicole woke me up and we talked a bit about what has been happening in both our lives in the last few days. I don't really remember what was said because I felt as if I were half dead. I love sleep. Sleep GOOOOD!

Anyways, today I will be visiting my brother who is a big jerk and I cant' stand in the least. Not only have I not talked to him in a bout 5 months, but he didn't even call when I was put in the hospital. I mean geeze, if I thought he was going to die, I might give him a little ring. but I dont' care anymore. And it's nice to get out of the house. Because I hate this place. grrrrr. STupid hick towns.

I'm acctually in a pretty good mood today, even though it doesn't seem like it in the previous paragraph, but really... this trip will be good cause it will give me a chance to think about some things. I'm a little confused about a few things, which I'm not going to go into, but ...I think I have it pretty much figured out.

ya...........very vague I know, but I have this paranoya becasue people have looked on these things before and then told my parants wich completely screwed up any trust my parants ever had in me. Which sucks hanously. I use the word hanously alot. anyways........ya that's pretty much it for today. peace out

ok from now on I'm going to do this thing like I did my other journals. starting out with my mood, what music I'm listening to, and um.........time yes.

Mood: ::sighs::
Music: My friend Josh E. Playing the guitar
Time: 10:34 pm

Ok, Well today I went to waco to see a movie with another friend of mine whos name coincidentally is also josh. I know alot of joshs. anyways, we saw corpse bride. It was ok. Not nearly as good as I thought it was going to be. In fact, I don't really recomend it at all. I love Tim Berton movies, but this was deffinately not one of his best. Anyways, It was pretty fun.

I think that I might be going cliff jumping friday. That or taking my other friends Josh and Marysa to the mall or something. Josh and Marysa are my best friends ......ever. Yah, randomness. I don't have Attention Defisite ....look a bird....lol. K. but anyways....

I learned some new chords today on the guitar. YAh! But I still suck hanously. Grrr. I just have to be more patient says Josh E. Then I continue to give him an evil glare, becuase patience is not one of my finer qualities.

Um................................................................................................................................................................chocolate pudding. yes. It's a fun supstance. And jello, except jello taste gross yuk. It wiggles down your throat like it's alive or something. Anyways,,,,I'm going to stop now, because I'm pretty sure that no one has any idea of what the hell I'm talking about. Cause I'm insane. No your not, yes I am. ::hits self:: ya.......peace out

Well, I heard about this sight from a friend of mine. He said it was pretty cool so I thought I'd give it a try.

A little about myself:
I like writing a lot. I may not be the best at it but I don't do it for other people's pleasure, I do it for my own. Not that I don't want people reading it or giving me oppionions about it, in fact I embrace that. But that doesn't necisarily mean that I'm going to change anything about the way I write because of your oppionions.

I love music. My favorite bands and artists include:
Korn, Him, Beck, Live, Deftones, Fiona Apple, Alice in chains, The used, My chemical Romance, Cradle of Filth, Red hot Chili peppers, AFI, Alkeline Trio, Coldplay, Bob Marley, and many more.

Let's see...what else might you want to know...
Well, nothing really exciting has happened today. I'm not feeling especially good or bad. I've been home all day working. Not really much to give a play by play on really. But crazy stuff seems to happen to me pretty often so I will probably have some better things to write about later.

For instance, I have been to the emergency room about 4 or 5 times this year. Strange. You might say that if you didn't know me. Wierd things allways tend to happen to me. I was bit by a snake, broke my arm in three places, and my nose was also broken quite recently. Why you might ask. Are you a cluts? well...not really. I have good ballance and I tend to make good decisions most of the time. My theory is that God or if you don't believe in God, a greater power, is not so happy with me. I'm not quite sure why. My parents are constantly reminding me of how much of an underachiever I am, perhaps it has something to do with that. I don't consider myself a bad person. Sure I have my quirks, but who doesn't? ...but ya...that's pretty much what I've been pondering lately.

I hope to get at least a few comments on this....peace out