I did something on saturday night (no, it's not what you think to you with dirty minds), that has taken a lot of pressure off of someone I hold very dear, helped saved a 6 year friendship, and brought a friend of a friend out of a state of depression...
Seems great, eh? Well, it sucks for me...
It has caused the pain in my heart to stop, for now, I need to see how I feel about it, before I thought it would be too much for me to take, but it's too late to take it back now, so I need to see how I actually do feel about it when it's happening before I do something that might push the two people I hold dearest away from me...
but...the tension is killing me itself already...
I'm feeling better, though with the way my life's been going, I doubt it'll stay that way...
My life is...complicat
I've decided to give up on something, that it's best it be left alone, and that happens to be what I've posted on before, the someone who's here on elftown, I'd still like for them to figure out it IS THEM, but I'm not gonna push it.
Right now, I think the person here has no idea what I'm talking about, and when that person reads what I'm writing, if that person is even reading these, that they just read it, oblivious...
Well, whoever reads this, everyone that does, I've got a little game for you, tell me who I'm talking about, you might be right, I'll tell you if you are, and depending on how depressed I am when I read it, I might even tell you their name here if you're wrong...
Once someone gets it right, I'm gonna post who did, and not accept anymore guesses...
I keep coming back here...I supposed to be writting an essay for english right now, but I'm tired, and the memories are comming back again, and I'm depressed, so my memories pulled me here, I don't know what they want, maybe my subconcious is telling me something, that there's something I should do here, but I don't know, so I'll just keep comming back untill I do...