Yeah, Maybe he's right.
Who am I to give him what he needs.
Who am I to be "The one."
To be the "Only One".
Its difficult and you have to put alot into a relationship.
Who am I to fill this void.
The void that we created.
Its not like I never tried to be the one you want.
Its not like I never tried to be the one you need.
And the way you want.
But maybe, I could be the one you need?
If you#de only just let me.
Rowan: So Malavika, do you think im like...sexy or like, are you like, attracted to me?
Me: Uhm...Your not really my type Rowan.
Rowan: Is it cuz Im black?
Me: Yes Rowan its because you are black.
Rowan: *Long silence*...Nig
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I would keep myself.
I would find a way.
<3 Sian, thank you for being there for me :$.
I thought you were not my kind
I thought I could never feel for you.
The passion and love you were feeling
and so you left,
For someone new.
And now that your far and away,
im sending a letter today.
She got hte love that she was dreaming of,
She never found the words to say,
But I know that today,
She's gonna send her letter to you.
She could dare to fall in love with you.
I think you want to hang up the phone.
Im ready.
Today was not as good as I thought it would be.
Dear diary,
Today I was supposed to meet Bert for lunch but steve called and she didnt eat.
She just talked to him.
Which I forgive her for :)
I ate lunch with Vag.
I'm kind of worried about her :/
Our drama is going to be awesome.
It feels good to be feeling confident about things.
I had a really...Good break.
And I was thinking about it all through my dance lesson. <3
Just so you know, little things count.
Um, Yeah, I dont like two faced people. Lets not even go there.
WHAT A FAG.
Joe keeps calling me a DOOSHBAG even though I started that.
The phone just rang me, but it isnt for me. I just had a shower and I feel clean. I like feeling clean. Tomrrow is a special day, it is wednesday and wednesdays are special.
It is the 11th of January tomorrow.
I think you know.
For dance I couldnt be bothered so I told her that I forgot my kit. So I got a comment and I had to join in anyway. I felt really self conscious and gross the whole time. I said it was my "cramps" but it wasnt. I was just having an ugly despite trying hard to make it a pretty day. I feel horrible in my clothes.
Especially uniform.
Okay and then, lets see.
I came home and, Listened to Aqualung.
Im petrified, hypnotised, everytime you walk by. <3 Yes sir you know indeed.
My feet are numb because I am sitting on them. I am in a bathrobe and my nipples are freezing. I should go get some clothes on.
/Out.
I tried to look pretty today.
Sometimes I do silly shit like that.
Break was nice <3
Our drama is going to be awesome, Mrs Behaabt.
And Thrust and Thrust and Thrust and Roll and Roll.
It was the last couple of weeks I guess.
Harriet and I had quite an amusing conversation at form time.
Me: Are you going to get really wasted at James' Party?
Hatty: Hmm, Maybe, im not going to go there thinking Im going to just get really drunk though.
Me: *Snort* I am!
Hatty: Haha, well last time I did that, It didnt turn out..too great.
Me: Well, atleast you got some Cock.
Hatty: Lmao. SO? YOUR NOT GOING TO GET ANY,
Me: I DONT WANT ANY. Im just saying im going to get drunk man.
Hatty: Well you were implying that by drinking you get cock.
Me: No i was implying that if your harriet and you drink you get cok.
Hatty: *silence*...We
Me: LOOK AT MY FACE. AM I BOVVERED?
Hatty: lmao, No you can have Nick cock.
Me: Yes missy.
Hatty: Shut up.
Me: no You.
Hatty: No you.
Me: Fag.
Hatty: CUNT.
Me: FUCK OFF.
Hatty: GET A LIFE.
Me: FAG.
HATTY: FAGGER.
Me: YOUR NOT GETTTING LUCKY.
Hatty: YOUR NOT GETTING DRUNK.
ME: FAG.
Something Interesting. And kind of silly.
I always always save interesting emails I send to people on my hotmail outbox.
oka.y.
EXAMPLAY:
Hi bert.
I just wanted to say, please remeber to meet me at the coin at lunch, for well...our lunch :)
And secondly, Please come and find me before school or at break (Im always by those cool benches) cuz I really need you to do my hair :$ Eeep.
I havent seen much of you, I miss you.
I hope things are okay, we didnt get a chance to talk much today :( Sad face.
REMEMBER WE ARE HAVING LUNCH TOGETHER. THAT IS OUR PLANS. DONT FORGET IT MAN.
I always try to find you :$ All your friends are annoyed at me for asking for you all the time. James included.
Its your turn, I always want to see you.
Talk to you later, babe.
Night night. x