he looks at her in a way i never saw... he smiles at her and forgets all about me and all the words he wrote to me. its not important now, its only him and her.... no more anita. haha guess what goes around comes around and i guess i had it coming.its so weird ... never knew i could feel this much pain, it hurts so bad and is so intense that it makes you just want to go away.... i don't like talking to a lot of people and being around everyone, but yet i need someone to be with me just so i know i'm not alone, even if the truth is .... that i am alone. i just can't handle it anymore. someone told me that if i really cared about him then i should tell him how i feel... but how can i do that when he seems to be so happy with somone else? i can't ruin that for him , i would only be in the way and thats not something i want to do. i want him to be happy even if it means its not with me. i'll still do anything for him... i just wish i knew if he still feels the same way

i don't understand how someone can stand there and say they want to know whats wrong with you cause they "care" about you, when the truth is they don't , cause if they did then they wouldn't be with someone else

sometimes it hurts so much that the only thing you can do to hide it , is to laugh
its when you find yourself laughing without even knowing it, that you relize your once beautiful laugh is now a meaningless gesture to throw off anyones suspicion of you life being less then perfect.
its in the darkest times that i find myself at the most peace. the darkest time is when i'm able to be myself and not worry about who's looking.It's in that time that i'm the most afraid for my life for i never know what i might do cause the feeling of being alone is so intense that it just eats away at my insides till nothing but my pathetic life is exposed and my emotions are left to roam freely around letting everyone know whats really going on when all you really want.... is him.
too bad all he wants.... is the girl down the hall.

haha funny thing happens.... you find this amazing guy that likes you and is really sweet... then haha here comes the funny part.... he tells you hes kinda dating someone. then you get this tingly feeling all over and u relize.... it was all a lie