freedom is 6 feet under

When you leave me behind in the world of the dead,
you think i'll give up, but all that i can see is red.
I conquer pain with pain- I dont feel or show fear.
I watch the blade on my skin- I will not shead a tear.
I watch the blood surface up-like the hate from which i thrive.
Watching the razor strike and slice- I've never felt so alive.
The sky has turned black, and the moon glows, pale.
You think you've beaten me, but I know I will not fail.
I've met my goal and you've helped me, and you dont know why.
Beacause you were trying to make me low and my goal was to die.
I'm pale, I'm weak, I'm so happy I could cry-
Death cares for me, it cradles me, it taught me how to fly.
You thought you were ready for what you had done.
But your guilt and your shock, make it all twice as fun.
As my life slowly fades, you're the last on my mind.
You'll be shocked tomorrow, guess what you will find!
My cold lifeless body, waiting for you with a grin.
My happiness and blood dripping,how could this be a sin?
You think my life was miserable, well, maybe that was true.
But now, so is yours, back-stabber, my final message is "Fuck you!"

~yes, i can be a VERY bitter child....

Your pretty lies were worth the pain that i go through every day. But why did you toss me a razor as you turned to walk away?

You knew i would be punished. I know the error in my ways. I'll remember you face, with that evil grin that i loved until the end of my days.

Your face is a constant memory,it refuses to go or fade. And in truth, I don't want it to, the priced love demands has been payed.

I am a tortured spirit, a wraith, without a heart or soul. They disappeared when you did, and those aren't the only things you stole.

You took my ability to love, you took my smile and my life. What you gave me in return was nothing, but tears memories and strife.

My loyalty never would've faultered. And my love never would break. You said you loved me, that you always would. Was it all just a fake?

I believed when you told me you loved me,I believed when you promised forever. I made you swear you weren't lying and your instant response was "never".

I used to listen to your heart beat.I allowed it to soothe me to sleep. Now the gates to your heart are closed to me,
I sit outside them and continue to weep.

You look down on me with that evil grin and the knife behind your back. Your loving embrace, morphed into a bloody attack.

Now i sit here weak and bleeding,with about a minute or less. You look at me, still smiling, too nervous to clean up your own mess.

As my last breath escapes my lips, and my strength is failing too. I look up and smile, and all i want you to remember is how much i still love you.