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I keep writing letters to my garbage can..
And when I think Im finally falling in love I realize theres no such thing to trust
Cause if there was I wouldn't be hurting now
Both us smiling to cover our frowns
And I know its hurting you so deep inside, trust me its barely eating me alive
We both know what we need to say
But scared we won't feel the same way
Not a day goes by I don't think of you
Atfer all this time-- your still with me...
Somehow you remain.. locked so deep inside
I think my mom might have cancer.... :[
Dear Diary, my teen angst bullshit has a body count
I believe its 6 going on 7
I've been dreaming about you
In a pool of your own blood
with your eyes gouged out
by the work of my thumbs
the scent of your insides
from under the floorboards
the perfect perfume for settling a score
I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Having someone tell you they love you can make your day 88% better. Yeah.. I did the calculations.
..............
Maybe you didn't notice
Today I wore you favorite lipgloss..
That you never even tasted.
Maybe I didn't see
The signs in front of me..
Just more months I wasted.
I noticed that your eyes looked away
When I asked if you loved me.
. .. . .. . ..
I fell for something that couldn't give me all I hoped for
I know you'll never begin to fall in love with me--
But the thought is nice
I needed some sentimental assurance that I'm safe inside your arms..
But Im lost in a world I can't get out of..
to be continued..
T0DAY i PRAYED THE ` CAR W0ULD CRASH .
Y0U`D HEAR THE NEWS & Y0U W0ULD THiNK
0F ME - - AS MUCH AS i`VE TH0UGHT 0F Y0U