36686) what should my next poll be about

Number of voters: 15

a) sex
Number of votes: 7 (47%)
b) drugs
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
c) bands
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
d) school
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
e) favoutrite coloue
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
f) my looks
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
g) my oh so horrible attitude
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
h) my hips (are they too juty outy?)
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
i) What my makup should be like from now on
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
j) whether i should wear my antenas to school or not
Number of votes: 2 (13%)
k) whether i should wear my skirtand NEW hot pink fishnet stocking to school in antarctic conditions
Number of votes: 3 (20%)
l) or whether i should ask Steven out or gget sum1 to do it for me
Number of votes: 0 (0%)

i can't take this! Everytime i hear something about an older guy or just a guy i picture him in my mind! no matter who! I start thinking about someone else and all of sudden it's him again! i can't take it anymore! i won't ever see him, why am i obsessing over him? Just becasue he's gorgeouse sweet and into everything i'm into doesn't mean i should be so freaken obsessive.....*slams head against wall* GET OUT! You'er ruining my life! You don't realize it but you are! YOU FREAKEN CRUEL PERSON! GET OUT OF MY MIND! Why? Why don't you just stop! You've made me cry too many times for me to love you anymore!
Why do i still love you? You're so insensitive and even if you weren't you're always going to be there, in my mind and i'll want to be with you, be around you, talk to you, hang out with you.....you freaken idiot! *cries* no but really....you don't realize it, but you make me cry, every day, you make me want to either be with you or be able to talk to you.....one day, when i become famous.....you'll want to be with me too!
Keon is soooo freaky...i think he has a huge crush on me because i know he's probably just joking around, but he doesn't stop....even when i kick him in the shin.....blahblahblah....i really have nothing much to say....you can check out my sire though..... www.freewebs.com/icklepyro

well...since i was sick, i wasn't feeling all that great and every so often i had to run to the bathroom to see if i would throw up, than i had the feeling of having to pee and no pee would come out....than this ugly ass indian idiot went to pee right sfter i did for the first time and i never noted any pee on the seat before, abd there where HUGE drops of pee and water all over the rim so i had to clean it because it was disgusting and i had to pee again....thats the just of it

God fuckit! I'm so sick....yesterday....i was alseep for a bout five hours before i woke up and didn't feel so bad. But i hada high fever and i was moody and i was sweating one minuet and freezing the nest minuet..... :( That reeeeeaallllllly sux in my opinion..... Oh well.....i have band tomorrow morning so i have to wae up earlier. poop....
I wish i had my own webcam and my own scanner and my own MP3 and a lot of money and better looks, and people that cared more :( i'm not saying nobody cares about me because i can name quite a few, but wut i mean is, if only i had somebody i could relate to and than cuddle up with....i'm saying i want a boyfriend and i think i blew it with steven.....alas, i shall not be one of those stupid people that have nothing else to say than that they are depressed unloved and that they want to die because if it was bothering them soooo much than they would have bloody well killed themsleves by now!
LOL!!!! I think being sick has made me fall into madness.....MADNESSS!!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!



Oh and please....can you maybe send me what you voted for so i know who thinks what? lol

Number of voters: 15

a) Yes
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
b) No
Number of votes: 3 (20%)
c) He's terrifying!
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
d) Are those pimples?
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
e) He's shiny!!!!
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
f) He's totally gorgeouse!
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
g) What? I was droned into his face and forgot the question!
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
h) Um....*backs in to a corner*
Number of votes: 1 (7%)
i) Of course he is you silly goose!
Number of votes: 2 (13%)
j) He's cute
Number of votes: 5 (33%)

hahahahahahahahahahaha1 i'm going out qith steven! well i was for like two seconds but i was only kiddingish and so was steven so it was funny....no...i lie! i asked someone to ask him and he looked at me all funny....the same way he looks at Sam...and he LOVES Sam....but she doesn't love him back.....
Did i say that me and jill where friends again? I don't seem to recall anything about it...oh wait, yes, i did....just before this enrty....i watched Taxi on Sunday.....it was sooo funny! i forget what they where getting high on, maybe laughing gas, but it was funny....their voices got really deep and they wouldn't stop laughing....lol.....it was fuuuuuuny!!! than i ran off to Ardene and got striped socks, and pink fishnets!!! SQUEE!!!!! YAY!!!! lol....yea...than we went to Green Earth and looked at extremely expensive cool stuff....man....i wish i had more money, i wouldn;t waste it on candy, i'd save up and get a whole bunch of stuff from there.....lol
i love the movie Big Fish! It' like, the best! I want to watch it again....lol....well....that's all my poor raw bare hands can write (we have shitloads of homework to do!)

this is from a while ago
12029) what do u think a manson?

Number of voters: 70

a) hottie
Number of votes: 16 (23%)
b) creepy
Number of votes: 4 (6%)
c) asshole
Number of votes: 5 (7%)
d) strange
Number of votes: 10 (14%)
e) lovely
Number of votes: 3 (4%)
f) i dunno
Number of votes: 6 (9%)
g) who
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
h) maybe
Number of votes: 1 (1%)
i) no comment
Number of votes: 8 (11%)
j) HA! that;s a stupid guestion!
Number of votes: 1 (1%)


ok....so i went to the mall today to watch Taxi....i wanted to watch the grudge but maggie was too afraid to watch it...lol....i didn't mind....the movie was funny though so i didn't and don't mind at all....

Than we went to ardene and i got pink fishnets and striped pink and black long socks....and a gameboy....lol....i didn't bother to get anything else, i wanted to get some more earings but they are all crappy looking or way too big for my ears....i saw a lot of hot guys though.

Me and Jill are friends again....this is what she wrote in her freewebs,

11. 7. 04 = Yay! Me and Barbara are friends! Lol. That makes me happy. Anyways, I feeeeeeell like a newboooorrrrnnn. That is a good song. I am bored. I have nothing to put here. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Thats all folks!
lol....that's all folks is what i like to write...lol oh well....i won't say she copied me accuz we'd get in a big fight again and it'll be lame and dumb!

36119) Wut do you like more? (not to eat)

Number of voters: 4

a) horses
Number of votes: 3 (75%)
b) cows
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
c) dogs
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
d) pigs
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
e) chiken
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
f) turkeys
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
g) ferrets
Number of votes: 1 (25%)
h) goats
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
i) wut r u talking about? i love to eat those!
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
j) Other...msg me...and actually mssg me! people never do and its annoying!
Number of votes: 0 (0%)


i get bored of polls too easily nowadays..lol

hahahaha *manical laughter* i almost got the guy of my dreams....it's so extremely funny because, somebody tried to ruin it and did because they told him that i didn't want to go out with him! now that is really funny because he really wants to go out with me but he thinks i hate him....
Isn't it funny?
No...actually it's as annoying as... and jill.....

30409) who do u lub more? Please actually answer....

Number of voters: 56

a) Me? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Number of votes: 18 (31%)
b) Marilyn Manson
Number of votes: 5 (9%)
c) Korn
Number of votes: 8 (15%)
d) иIи
Number of votes: 4 (7%)
e) Static-X
Number of votes: 1 (2%)
f) Slipknot
Number of votes: 10 (18%)
g) Murderdolls
Number of votes: 0 (0%)
h) Foamy the squirrel
Number of votes: 10 (18%)

must remember http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/badgerphone.php!!!
n e ways...i have once again fallen in love....this time i may be able to go out with him....maybe not....i also am sorta really loving this other guy called danny...but of course hes going out with sum1 else...plus...this one really likes me...lol...

BANNANA PHONE

I'm going to the mall tomorrow! WEHAW!!!

THE MALL RULES!!!!!! GO TO IT!!!!

YAY!!!! i'm going to go to the mall....well...i might!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well....today should be fun........i get to finish my homework! What fun! in fact, i think that it's too fun for me to deserve to do it! So i won't! Screw homework. It's so dumb. It's a waste of time considering i have to study once a day because of the three billion tests we're having. They never stop coming. Oh well, i'll just get my friend to mark it and tall them to mark the most three wrong on each test...no...but than i'll get into trouble. I'll get found out about....i'll have to give in!

La dee daaa.....!!!

ho hum pigs bum.....nothing to do....nooothing to dooo....i want to do something right now! Lalalalalala!

I hate it when people are all asses and decide to say that their lives are extrodinarily crappy. First of all, if their lives would be extrodinarily crappy they wouldn't have a computer because they wouldn't be able to use it. Secondly half of them don't even get abused or are malnurished. God, i'm happy to get that off my chest....people will not pity you if you try and get yourself to be pitied and if you needed to be comforted than you wouldn't make it so damn obviose that you need to be comforted.

Ok now to a totally different kind of entry, i want a boyfriend. Now, please, don't ask to go out with me because i wouldn't, it would be a virtual relationship and it also wouldn't be any fun. You can't say thing to comfort me. and whats with those people who ask to go out with somebody on the internet? Than they say it was a joke to have cyber. Cyber is a very desparate way to 'have sex' unless you go to hookers. if you cyber than you are imagining what it would actually be like and think that you would enjoy the real thing. The two of them are very different. But i still want a boyfriend. I don't know anybody that i would actually want to go out with because there is nobody i like that much anymore accept for kenneth but he wouldn't go out with me even if i paid him. wait...if i paid him i think i would but even i'm not that desparate.

I wonder what my wedding would look like once i do get married. I picture something, but it's not that realistic, i mean, it would't be a wedding if i had that kind of stuff....

meh....i'm getting rather chubby again, i have to cut down on the sweets again. Damnit! Oh well....it kinda sucks considering all the weight i tried so hard to lose. This may very well be the most stupid comment i put in this diary but i really want to get a boyfriend. Why may you think that itz a stupid comment? Well because nobody i know likes me or will go out with me. i want to go out with kenneth but i dont like him as much anymore. just because i know he won't go out with me and it feels wierd liking him and not getting liked back. i'm not sure our relationship would work either. I guess we're just not meant to be.....but than who is?

hahahahaha....kenneth will never like me even though i love him lots...but anyways...about a week ago we went to came...i kept sitting on his lap and he kept sitting in mine at the camp fire....than in the morning we kept on hugging and stuff because we were playing this wierd game in out free time.....than he came over when i was sitting on the wet grass and said, "Why are you sitting on the wet grass?" I said, "Because i've fallen and i can't get up." which i find really amusing. He said, 'Well, why don't you get up?" I said, "I just told you, i've falled and i cant get up" he said, "Do you want piggy back ride to breakfast?" I said, "Sure." So i gotted on his back and he carried me to breakfast while we spokeded for a while. Than after breakfast he said, "You owe me a piggy back ride." He was surpirisingly light for being so tall. So than i caried him for a bit. Than Andrea made us all hold hands all the way to the flagpole which was really far....oh well...i still think he just wants to be friends and i even have my doubts about that....oh i really like him..

tralalalalala

tweezing my eyebrows truly hurts...OWEY!!!! YAY!!! Three members in the Almighty church of Foamy

La dee daa!!!!! i'm very amused by jill...she's doesn't make sense....she wrote this thinger on this website that she hates people who label themselves and said accept goths because they're not people, they're pale faced demons....she just took a group of labeled people and said that they are not people...HAHAHA!!!! how stupid is that? Than she said that i she started the knee high sock trend and that I copied her!!!! What kind of bullshit is that? Firstly i got my knee high socks last summer and i wore them on the second day of school and i never even knew who exactly she was....all i knew was that she went to the same horsecamp...which she did....and i found out later that she was the sane jill that my ex told me about....she is so annoying.....shes also funny...she thinks that she is 'cool' and she's very self centered....and she thinks that she doesn't like being cool because people copy her...tomorrow i'm going to wear my cat in the hat hat and see what she has to say about it...she'll say that it's stupid and only because she never thought of it!!!! I want to see the look on her face when i show up and a hat two feet high and striped with red and white....she copied my pigtails....i wear pigtails to school everyday and she said that I copied her pigtail because we wore them on the same day but i wear them everyday so she can;t she crap about my pigtails....