Days go by don't know where they seem to go to
My life is dark and nothen but blackness
I have found my light though and I hope it doesn't leave me
I don't think I can stand going back into the black space again

Life is changing every time i seem to blink my life as turn before my eyes i think of death each time i look back on my life

No school today.

I want someone to love me and hold me in their arms. I guess I am destine to be alone. My little brother seems to make sure that I stay love free. Oh Lord why am I here if I have no purpose?

If you know the answer to any of the questions in my diary please let me know the answer.

How come I have to give up on what I want to do just cuz my little bro doesn't have anyone to play? I can't go and hang out with friends for living sake it is a FRIDAY! I should be out with friends or on a date. But oh no I have to stay home with my brother.

Sick for 2 days parents don't care they aren't even home! When my brother is sick they stay home to make sure he gets better but me oh no. I am not the precious baby boy. I am their no good lazy daughter (according to them) I work just as hard as they do! I can't stand it any longer! I want no make that need my life back!

Babysitting got school tomorrow booooo! can't wait until winter vacation. Time to myself

No school tomorrow hurray! Sinces it is a holiday I don't have to work! I get to hang around with my friends. I love my halloween costume.

How is a girl to live her life and have some fun when she has to take care of another's person child(my little brother)24/7? I have no time to goof around with my friends, go to the movies, or anything a normal teen would be able to do. Cuz I have to be there for my little brother. If I am not there for him then there would be no one else to. When I am not busy waitressing I babysit and take my little brother with me. I try my hardest to make sure my brother has everything he needs. Like when I am waitressing I have a friend come over to stay with him.