hey i havent written in a while cause my dad got rid of my computer which is really fucked up! well i met a new guy 3 days ago his name is Morris Epps he is really nice and really hott! i havent slit my wrists in a while my bf told me that if i did it again he would break up with me so i stopped and when i did do it he never noticed them, sometimes you just cant help yourself. so i might ask Morris to the homecomming dance at my school. He is a senior and plays football he is half black half white, curly hair and tan not dark skin and a really nice ass! well i got to go and smoke see ya all later! remember . . . keep cutting!

i joined the web site today i am now known as *redtears* i picked that because i thought of all the times i was crying while slitting my wrists and it felt like i was crying blood. today i got 23 new scars to add to my collection on my wrist but the problem is that my left wrist is getting full with scars so i guess i will have to do it on my right wrist! my friends dont want to leave me because i am so depressed and might kill myself and to tell you the truth i might! but enough of that my day sucked and i was hoping it was all a dream a really fucked up dream. i want to go watch the blood drip down my arm g2g and remember . . . keep cutting!