SUGARCULT
"Head Up"

Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
When they say give up
Turn up your radio
All the sentimental memories you own
When they say grow up
It’s just like a funeral

Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
Keep your head up
It’s all right in front of you
When they say wake up
You’re braking ridicule
When all the sentimental memories you own
Keep you trapped inside your room there all alone

And it feels like
It feels like you’re lost
And it feels like
It feels like you’re lost

Is there some way you can be out on your own?
Trust yourself
Don’t waste another day at all

On your own

Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
And it feels like
It feels like you’re lost
And it feels like
It feels like you’re lost

Is there some way you can be out on your own?
Trust yourself
Don’t waste another day at all

Watch this fade away
Everything fades away
Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful

Megan (6:06:46 PM): what the hell...your mom is chinese?
Matt (6:06:58 PM): honey, you are not chinese if you come from japan.
Megan(6:07:36 PM): ...i meant japanese
Matt (6:07:41 PM): yes my mom is
Megan(6:07:48 PM): are you freaking kidding?
Matt (6:07:52 PM): nope
Megan (6:07:58 PM): so you're like..half chinese?
Matt (6:08:08 PM): quarter japanese, yes.


XD

I'll sit here and write
I won't think about the words
Or the way they fly across the paper
In a fit of joy that turns to madness
In that same way you broke me down
It was an intricate play on words
We wouldn't understand
Ever
But who could?
Your beauty falls beneath you
In shattered bits and pieces
In every way you could possibly imagine
We've made this work before
We've written and played every song over
Twice
And nothing made this better.
It's nothing like what it used to be
There's long nights you've spent
With me standing outside your window
I've thrown sticks hoping they'd miss
So maybe you wouldn't know I was there
Breathing your air
But there's no reason for this
There's nothing left of us
There's nothing left of starlight bar fights
Of tears that meant nothing
There's nothing left of you
And honestly, it'll make me happy
Really, when you're suffering
I'll be putting on my Sunday best
And trampling over your bloody mess
I won't think a thing of it,honey.

I'm trying, to forget that, i'm addicted to you.

An empty pit that has no end
A worried life that has no friends
The devil's wrath on blood stained carpets
An early death-an over used carcas

And you don't want attention

In your own little world
Faking your own little death
And little do you know
You're going down like the rest

Intimidating smiles
Intimidating glares
Intentions that were meant
But were never really there

Crying now
But you're so bitter
Chilly now
A colder winter

You're bleeding through your shirt

And like a needle in your mind
You're just a stitch in time
Incinerate what's mine

You don't know what you're missing

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite says:
lol he's probably about 5'11"-6'0" in that picture

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite says:
He squatted so Nikki could get his head in the picture. ):

Jeffrey says:
well that's about where jeffrey's game is <3 lmao

Lmfao that kid cracks me up.

remember when the days were long
and the nights when the living room was on the lawn.
Constant quarreling the childish fits
and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman.
All the slander and double speak were only foolish attempts
to show you did not mean,
anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth.

And as the summers ending the cool air rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending,
and this is all that's left
scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.

Cup your mouth to compress the sound,
skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town.
And everything that I said was true
as the flashes blinded us in the photobooth.
Well I lost track and then those words were said,
you took the wheel and you steered us into my bed,
and soon we woke and I walked you home
and it was pretty clear that it was hardly love.

And as the summers ending,
the cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending,
and this is all that's left, scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.

And as the summers ending,
the cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending,
as the alcohol drained the days.
And as the summers ending,
the cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left,
The empty bottles spent cigarettes, so pack a change of clothes
'cause its time to move on.

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.

So i'll drive so fucking far away
That I never cross your mind.

I've gotta be honest.
I've been waiting for you all my life.

So slow, so slow.
I can't let you go.

I'm trying really hard. I swear.
I swear i'm trying to make this all better in my head.
But it doesn't work.
It doesn't hurt any less.
It just hurts worse.
I do love him.

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you


I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind