My stomach hurts.
I have this knot in my throat that won't leave.
Tears are standing still on my eyes, just waiting until I blink so they can freefall down my cheeks...

Please do this. I'll love you forever. :)


Body: mark x if yes
blank if no

would you?
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] let me take you out to dinner?
[_] let me drive you somewhere?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] be my bf/gf?
[_] have a fling with me?
[_] let me buy you a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[_] give me a piggyback ride?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle wit me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] want to have sex with me?
ARE WE...
[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM i...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
[_] wanted to have sex with me?

ARE Y0U...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] thinkin bout me?
[_] going to repost this so that i will return the favor

But it's time to face the truth:I will never be with you..
</3..

I just thought everyone should know:
Nikki feels spiffy today.



And Nick is still fucking amazing. :)

Do you promise you'll love me forever?
No matter what?

For anyone that doesn't know:
Nick is fucking amazing.
:)

I've always been taught to never hate someone, because of something on the outside. I was raised with people,each one of them with a different physical deformation. I always thought everyone was taught the same as me. And that everyone followed what I followed. And I never actually realized that really, very few people follow any of this.
There's people who hate someone, even if they don't have a physical deformation. If someone doesn't like the way someone else looks, they're hated for it.This is wrong. I've never actually been very "popular", and there's always been people who have hated me because of what I look like. There's nothing wrong with my physical appearance. No, I don't like it. But there's nothing actually wrong with it.
I've messed up in life. As has everyone else. But i'll admit my mistakes. And the one thing that I can't handle, is discrimination. I have mentally retarded friends. I have gay friends. I have black friends. I have friends who, no, aren't the most attractive people in the world, but they're some of the best people I know. If you've had it easy in life, you're never going to make it in the real world. You're not going to be able to handle the pain of life. You aren't going to know how to.
True story:
There's a girl at my school. Her name is Brooke. For 15 years of her life, she made fun of anyone that wasn't "normal". Of anyone in a wheelchair. Of anyone that was different. Last winter she was in a car accident. She's paralyzed from the neck down. She's in a wheelchair.
Take the good things out of life. Some of your best friends could end up being the people you thought you would hate.

If you read a poem while you're listening to a song (usually a softer song)..it sounds like it rhymes, even if it doesn't. It's hard to explain, I guess. You should just try it sometime.

I guess it's a crime to just feel wanted sometimes.
I should be in jail.

I just want you to know that you're the most amazing person in the world.
You'll always be my James Dean.

I love you, Nick. Goodnight. <3 :)

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killer7tofu2

Champaigne has never looked so appealing
As you do appalling
Decked out in attention
Living an intervention
You never did learn to love
But I never cared too much
And boy, you have a way with words
Ive never heard someone so sure
It's just a crush
You're just a whore
And that just makes me want you more
You've never asked for second best
But you've always stood out from all the rest
You follow a trend
You follow a style
But then you'll be yourself awhile
With goodnight kisses
And midnight walks
I think you and I should talk
You're a teenage heart throb
With your very own fan mob
I've dreampt of better nights
And longer lasting love
I forgot the fights
But how can I tell you I love you?
When it's just simply not meant to be?
You're a third degree heart-break
And the only cure for you, is me.

It's nothing just to breathe
In,out
On your knees

Tears streaming
Fingers crossed
Memories of you and I were lost

Cigarette ashes
Third degree burns
I'm waiting here for your return

Airplane tickets
Losing friends
I'm here for you, until the end

Perfect teeth
A perfect smile
Let's breathe together for awhile

Under wraps
Under scars
Six feet under, is just too far

Illuminate the silence
Breathe in between your knees
But God only knows that one day, you'll forget about me.

Bayside's Drummer,John Holohan(aka John Beatz) died yesterday. ='(

<3

I'm incredibly fucking bored. Just answer them.


What would you do if:
1) I said I liked you:
2)I kissed you:
3) I lived next door to you:
4) I started smoking(I never would!):
5) I stole something:
6) I was hospitalized:
7) I ran away from home:
8) I got into a fight and you weren't there?



1. Give me your number?
2. Let me kiss you?
3. Watch a movie with me?
4. Let me take you out to dinner?
5. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
6. Take a shower with me?
7. Be my bf/gf?
8. Have a fling with me?
9. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
10. Take me home for the night?
11. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
12. Sing car kareoke with me?
13. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
14. Do you think im attractive, sexy, or hot?
15. Do you like my style?
16. Do you think im funny?
17. Do you care about me?
18. Would you dance with me?
19. Would you sing happy birthday to me?

If you had me alone, locked up in your room for 24 hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? Answer this diary and repost it in yours. You might be surprised with the responses you get.

Nameless...again.
blankskater

*Is using this to remember things*