I guess it's a crime to just feel wanted sometimes.
I should be in jail.
I just want you to know that you're the most amazing person in the world.
You'll always be my James Dean.
I love you, Nick. Goodnight. <3 :)
killer7tofu2
Champaigne has never looked so appealing
As you do appalling
Decked out in attention
Living an intervention
You never did learn to love
But I never cared too much
And boy, you have a way with words
Ive never heard someone so sure
It's just a crush
You're just a whore
And that just makes me want you more
You've never asked for second best
But you've always stood out from all the rest
You follow a trend
You follow a style
But then you'll be yourself awhile
With goodnight kisses
And midnight walks
I think you and I should talk
You're a teenage heart throb
With your very own fan mob
I've dreampt of better nights
And longer lasting love
I forgot the fights
But how can I tell you I love you?
When it's just simply not meant to be?
You're a third degree heart-break
And the only cure for you, is me.
It's nothing just to breathe
In,out
On your knees
Tears streaming
Fingers crossed
Memories of you and I were lost
Cigarette ashes
Third degree burns
I'm waiting here for your return
Airplane tickets
Losing friends
I'm here for you, until the end
Perfect teeth
A perfect smile
Let's breathe together for awhile
Under wraps
Under scars
Six feet under, is just too far
Illuminate the silence
Breathe in between your knees
But God only knows that one day, you'll forget about me.
Bayside's Drummer,John Holohan(aka John Beatz) died yesterday. ='(
<3
I'm incredibly fucking bored. Just answer them.
What would you do if:
1) I said I liked you:
2)I kissed you:
3) I lived next door to you:
4) I started smoking(I never would!):
5) I stole something:
6) I was hospitalized:
7) I ran away from home:
8) I got into a fight and you weren't there?
1. Give me your number?
2. Let me kiss you?
3. Watch a movie with me?
4. Let me take you out to dinner?
5. Drive me somewhere/anyw
6. Take a shower with me?
7. Be my bf/gf?
8. Have a fling with me?
9. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
10. Take me home for the night?
11. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
12. Sing car kareoke with me?
13. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
14. Do you think im attractive, sexy, or hot?
15. Do you like my style?
16. Do you think im funny?
17. Do you care about me?
18. Would you dance with me?
19. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
If you had me alone, locked up in your room for 24 hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? Answer this diary and repost it in yours. You might be surprised with the responses you get.
Nameless...aga
blankskater
*Is using this to remember things*
This is what I hate about elftown:
PEOPLE WHO WON'T TALK TO OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE OF WHAT RACE THEY ARE!!
People who are only looking to cyber.
Nymphomaniacs.
People who only write about sex on their house.
The list shall go on.
"Susan"
the lyrics you "compare" yourself to
you think you've felt before
But I guess you need a wake up call
Because most people have felt more
You swear your life is so bad
And you're worthless nonetheless
But once you want it back together
It just turns into a mess
You lie to your friends
Yet you swear you aren't fake
But in the end
It's all you can take
This week you're emo
But next week you'll change
We'll find you with a rope around your neck
And a big fake grin painted across your face
Just remember:you'r
You just want us to feel bad for you
Too bad we don't
But we'll pray to God that
Next week you'll be a mute...
Hey guys! I'm gonna be uber with all of you and post all of my deepest darkest secrets and problems all over here k? Don't bother asking me what my problems are! Just come look them up here!! And just to let you know i'm doing this all for attention!!
Not.
It's after midnight
And i've been up
My eyelids are beginning to fight
And this papers getting rough
Words aren't coming easy
And daylight's starting to break
My mind is beginning to kill me
And my smile got so fake
The dark sky is falling now
As blue comes into sight
The stars are out of style
It doesn't make it right
Birds begin to sing
The songs of their lost love
Hoping that they'll bring
Back those stars from above
But I still grip my pen
Hoping for the best
This chair in which I sit
I have become obsessed
To write some words of hope
Words to make me dream
Something I have to show
To start a steady stream
One that makes them wonder
And makes them think forever
The birds give up
Cause the stars forgot to listen
They just figured out
That all that was gold didn't glisten
The grass begins to dance
As I sit there and watch
It puts me in a trance
As rain plays hopscotch
Words decide they're done
They want to come back
They've had their fun
But the stars are out again
And its another night of nothing
Words decided to hide
For two seconds they were worth something
Pull your arms up around your knees
And hide out inside your room
Pretend you can't feel at all
Just realize that I know how you feel now
If all I am is a distraction for you
then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me
Take all you can, find in me
Can you think back to when things worked
When dreams were the days you lived
When you never cried alone
Just realize that I know how you feel now
If all I am is a distraction for you
then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me
Take all you can, find in me
I know how (know how)
You feel now (you feel now)
If all I am is a distraction for you
then I can't complain that you can't feel something for me
Take all you can, find in me
Today was fine. Better then I expected. I wanted to go to the Starting Line concert SOOOO bad. But my mom said no. It was in Toledo! So now i'm not in the greatest mood.
But me and Nikki went to Defiance. We had so much fun. And I got the new Senses Fail cd, and she got the Jack Off Jill cd. My family just went out to eat. I didn't want to go. I don't like where they're eating, and they know it. Oh well. I'm not really hungry anyway. But i'm leaving. Bye.
~So don't you say goodbye to me..just turn your back away and leave..and if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend..~
I lost a friend today. Not to death. Not to moving away. To a boy.
**Here. A little sympathy. For you to waste on me. I know you're faking it but that's okay.**
She said that I needed to grow up, and that she's learned from my experiences to be more mature.
^^We made the same mistakes. I took the fall for you. I hope you need this now. Cause I know I still do...^^
I have a job, and several responsibilite
((I dont wanna drag it out. Don't wanna bring you down. I never wanted it to end this way...))
I don't like growing up very well. I want to come home knowing I always have someone here to look up to. Knowing that I have someone here who cares. Sometimes I feel so alone...
Maybe someday I will see you again and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend...
I haven't cried in a long time. I think I might need to do that. Usually this is something I would've cried over a long time ago.
(*I guess that this is over now. I guess its called a falling out. But every day i'm learning how to make it through this life i'm in...*)
I want to do something great. I want someone to be proud of me. I want someone to know my name, and not just because i'm a loser.
*~* You were strong and you believed. Everything's gonna be alright. Everything is gonna be alright. Everything is gonna be alright. Be strong believe*~*
I want to go to sleep, and wake up with everything being okay...
I love you all....
Goodnight....
Living A Lie
Dull and lonely
This place is just too fake
I'm living here
To take a fall
A learning experience
A know-it-all
I've been through a lot
Lived through these lies
Wasted my life
Letting it all pass me by
I've picked up the blade
Threw down the knife
Decided for myself
What's wrong and what's right
A post-murdered love
In visions unclear
A hatred within itself
To show someone you're there
Simple supernatural
In a contradicting hope
A world full of lives
And people who say no
A cliche love
In a perfect string of lonliness
An unconcious lie
Remember? I have to live with this...
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*
A Drunk Excuse For Love
I've cut out my dreams
Left myself alone
Taken a taxi to this place that they call home
You denied that oyu ever loved me
Said it wasn't true
But all that I could think about
Is how much I missed you
I ran out of excuses
Faded through your arms
Thought that I might lose it
I know love will do no harm
drink down that bottle
Get so drunk you can't stand
It'll give me another reason
To hold tight onto your hand
I surrender if you love me
Tell me if you dare
Break my heart in two
Just so I know you're there
Listen to the breathing
Of your soft well thought out lies
Tomorrow i'll be leaving
Please ignore these cries
I haven't forgotten you
So please don't forget me
But don't follow
It's your fault i'm leaving...