Understanding
a million words stuck in my head
but none are spoken
words of love
words of hate
resons for the world to be and not be
things we all think
but it is never known
for we all hide
hide inside our selfs
for we have not the control
we somtimes wonder is it just us
do we need locked away in our padded rooms
or only away in our own heads
for it manifest in to so much more
than we could understand or even believe
is it the little things we think are nothing
but know its so much more
do we trust to confin in any one
for we want not pitty
only understanding
will they even understand us
or only think us crazy
we all scream in silence
never to under stand why
thinking mabye
just mabye some one could clear it up
so that we would understand
but why search for something with no awnser
life so confusing yet so simple
for we all no there is no undersanding it
and yet still we search
but why

THE WORLD IS ONE BIG JOKE
A lost soul amungst the many i see
all just shadows amungst the world
and we make this world our own living hell
ist life just dandy so smile with glee
hahaha
who are we
they try to make us
mold us
bend us
so it is not people we all are
but robots of their own creation
brain washed bimbos
and asshole jocks
oh yhea
if you dont conform
well send you away
your crazy pathetic thats all you are
so they say
a mask thats for sure
why is the world so fake i ask

ALONE
Life is so lost,
We are so lost,
In a world of uncertanty walking blindly i cry,
Alone not understanding a step,
Not knowing were it will lead blindly i go,
Not knowing what to do for the pain can be untolerable,
And unknown an emtyness in my heart grows,
As the days grow darker farwell,
Hopes and dreams seem to shater,
A lostness seems to overcome me,
My mind seems to race and i lose hope,
Wanting to give up,
I am invisable to all the world,
It seems as if peoples minds have been corupted,
And true hearts are hard to find,
Noone shall ever understand the complexity of ones mind,
Alone again like always,
And always will be,
My heart is torn between a world of insanity,
And thier is so much anger and hatred in the hearts of so many but beauty in so little,

SUICIDE
suicide love and pain are my comfort
I lose myself and the great beyond
I lose myself in another world
is this a dream or reality
I will not die I can not die
life is pain to believe is a lie to live is evil
so why do we live why do we believe
because of hope because of love
our wings are almost dry and free
nightmare babies and fire gods
we live in tiny little houses in tiny little rooms
in this world savages dance and scream
we are giving up with out a fight
learn the words they say recite
rage gives way with a sudden blush
this disease is me
intellect rebellion finding the me in everyone of you
I will shed my skin
I prefer pain to pretty
to the shivering creature that’s me
people are evil and they hate each other
I will know my demons names
in the tapestry of pain
feasting on hopelessness
losing what’s me

DREAMERS WORLD
Angry monks amuck
A dancing fool
The drunken mime
All caose breaking lose
The world of insanity
A crazy fool we all are
To live this life our eyes shut
Our mouths open
We gasp at all differences in this world
Only we are real
Only we are normal
But what is normal
What is insanity
Crazed gnomes
And psycho clowns
A dream world of our own
We run amuck
We let lose of all our fears
We joke around and lose all sight
But no one ever knows
Inside the mind we hide
Many things you never know
Many things you’ll never see
In ones mind is another world
Fairy dance naked by the lake
We sprout wings from our backs and fly away from you all
The psychopathic smurffs scatter all around
We run and dance with no fear
We wear no cloths for we are what we want to be
A world of peace were all are friends
A world were no one cares